Teka lang.
Im learning how to complain less and less with the life & status I was given and starts to make this journey worthwhile. Im learning how to balance and learn what it really means to put the needs first before wants. I am starting to determine what's non-essential and essential to my life and I am slowly learning how to eliminate the non-essential. favorite ko is how I no longer give a fuck about the opinion of others that are irrelevant with my life also I love how my character improved overtime. I no longer proactively give unsolicited opinion & begins to listen more. I have become selective about what, where and when I react specially kung napaka shit naman ng naiisip kong reaction at opinion halimbawa nalang ng statement na "daming alam, pero pag gwapo bigay naman agad" lmao XD
I have also become less and less dramatic in real life. Not that I am repressing but I am just managing what's to stress about, what's to be depressed about. I realized na it really takes a deeper level of inner peace for you to be able to not take every thing personally and with that, i am less likely to get pissed nor get offended because I no longer take every thing personally compared before. I may get hurt, tho. And I get hurt most of the time, di lang hatala. But I am glad because I have learned the difference between being hurt and being indignant
Noticed myself how I am being able to protect the safety of my peace more than anything else therefore I am letting go of this blog. sobrang lungkot at sakit to do so kasi this has been my safe haven talaga since 2012 tangina naabutan ko pa yung time na sikat si marcelo santos III at iba pang blogs na nakalimutan ko na kung sino sino hahahahahahahha pero wala pakong masyadong isip non ambata ko pa lol and I was able to keep this safe since then. I was very very careful pa back then because I dont want anyone I know in real life finding out about this blog kasi nga I literally spill every ink in this page specially mga kalokohan. I never intended to gain such followers nor made friends (di pako masyado interactive before) when I used tumblr kasi I love to write before and so I found this space to safely write down every thoughts I had without having to filter it (nalaman ko kasi tong tumblr sa Ate ko tapos gumawa rin ako hahahhaa) yet I made friends. I interacted with kind people and made healthy, wholesome online friends! Most are deactivated na but I am happy to get to talk about life with them. Ang sakit kasi this blog watched me from 2012 up to current and this page literally knows everything that happened with my life; good and bad, funny and sad, in between years. This page has been my online takbuhan and breather
but some people just really have a rotten character who likes spreading ugliness in this world and makes people feel unsafe, eh noh? there are just stupid people who likes invading spaces and throw negativity at toxicity and there's nothing I can do about it. Mga panget na toh!
But what I can do is create a new, safer space. No ugly people allowed. Sadly, I no longer feel free here as I used to. The audience kinda grew and it does not make me feel comfortable anymore. besides, the world is too large to stay in a place that is no longer safe, as much as we hate to leave.
Ugh. Sometimes it can really be frustrating and very sad to do what safety & peace requires me to do but imma do it because it's worth it. This is where and what i give most of my fuck now.
Ang sarap sarap nang mapayapang buhay. Lalo na pag alam mong wala kang naaagrabyadong tao. Pag wala kang nasasaktan intentionally.
Libre lang naman maging hindi kupal na tao. Sana piliin natin maging hindi kupal araw araw.
sa mga mutuals ko rito since 2012 and recent, mga nakasubaybay ng kadramahan ko sa buhay (most are deactivated na), I see you. Sana masarap ulam nyo araw araw! 🫶🏻
