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[hironoonoo]

Running out of time

I'm still young, but why does it feel like I'm running out of time?

When you’re younger, life feels open and limitless, with few expectations weighing on you. But over time, you begin to notice timelines—careers, relationships, finances, and milestones—and without even realizing it, you start comparing yourself, wondering, “Am I falling behind?” Even if no one says it outright, the feeling is still there.

And maybe that quiet question—“Am I falling behind?”—isn’t really about time at all, but about learning to trust your own pace. Life was never meant to follow a single timeline, and the pressure to keep up often says more about expectations than reality. So instead of measuring where you should be, it might matter more to recognize where you are—and understand that moving forward, in your own way and in your own time, is still progress.

[hironoonoo]

Life Pressure at 26

I’m not 26 yet—but I will be in seven months.

It’s funny how my age is starting to feel serious, while my life still doesn’t quite match that energy. I guess that’s just how it goes—at some point, things start to feel more real. But am I actually ready? Like… really ready? Because honestly, it’s making me a little anxious.

When I was younger, I always imagined that by 25 I’d be a wife, a mother, with a successful career and a big house. It’s kind of ironic how, at 25, I’m still figuring life out.

I’m already 25, but sometimes it feels like I’m still that 13-year-old girl, sitting in my bedroom, trying to figure everything out.

The only difference is now the questions are bigger, the stakes feel higher, and the timeline feels more real—but inside, it’s still me, growing, learning, and doing my best to keep up with life.

Maybe I’m not behind—maybe I’m just still becoming who I’m meant to be, moving through life at my own pace. It may not look like what I imagined before, and it may not feel as put together as I thought it would, but that doesn’t mean I’m doing it wrong. I’m still growing, still learning, still finding my way—and maybe that’s exactly what this stage is supposed to be.