I personally don’t hope for a “forever”, because it somehow sounds so unpredictable and because I’m scared, scared of one day the worst day will come. So I only dare to say “a long time” so that I remind myself not to put in too much hope, so that I won’t get too much hurt.
“Let’s be together for a long time”...isn’t this sentence our promise? Don’t you remember? Or 7 years is already enough as “a long time” to you?
I’m so confused right now, like there are 2 persons inside me. One wants to hate you, blame on you because you break our promise, not continue to stay together with the other 5, not continue the same dream with the other 5 and because you fade the OT6 that I always believe in. Another one in me wants to repect your decision, just simply always love and support you, wants to wish you all the best walking in your own way.
I don’t know what to do, what to say or what to think correctly, it’s like my brain was freeze at the moment I saw the official announcement. Why is it so heartbreaking being your stan huh? It’s the first time I’m not sure whether I should call myself a B2UTY or not anymore. Because there is only one definition in my mind for B2UTY, it’s to call a fan of BEAST, and BEAST means OT6, it was like that and it’s always like that to me. But from now on, BEAST is only 5 without you. I have to accept the fact that there are BEAST and Jang HyunSeung. Ah~ you see, it’s your fault again, you make me confused who I am… I should hate you though…
Seriously why my tears keep falling down keke It would be great if I could send this message to you, I would ask you to wipe my tears too, I’m still jealous with that lucky B2UTY at Taiwan Fanmeeting you know? you B2UTY BaBo keke… Still can’t believe that was your farewell stage… still can’t imagine the familiar songs without your voice… still can’t imagine the familiar dance formation without your position… still can’t believe group variety shows without your 4D existance… still can’t believe that there will be no “BEAST’s HyunSeung” anymore…
Although I know my love will not be the same, it can’t be the same, I will still support you as well as the other 5 boys as a fan (I will just call myself a fan, because the situation now doesn’t match with my definition of B2UTY so…), wish you all success and happiness. Hope you guys always stay as brothers, or at least as best friends…
091016~160419… the fairy tale lasting exactly 6 years 6 months 3 days goes to its last chapter. It’s sad but that’s how the world moves on, the end of this is the beginning of another, let’s anticipate for wonderful new stories in the future. Thank you for all the precious memories, I will treasure every single moments we have spent together… thank you…!