Hold Fast to Dreams

[rosavelle]

“We’ll figure it out together” is a love language.

[holdfast2dreams]

November 2022, 2 months post major revision surgery with a new incision spanning my popliteal fossa to lateral knee. Still in a lot of pain and struggling with mobility, but I had to document myself running, however briefly... Not sure why, really. A reminder that although extremely painful, it was still possible?

I know I will never be perceived, by myself or others, as a 'runner.' At one point, that realization would have destroyed me. For a long time it did. But after the pain and surgeries of the past few years, I have grown detached from the dream of moving freely in that way. It will always hurt, reflecting on this injury journey, the suboptimal surgery outcomes, and how distant I feel from that hurting but optimistic version of myself.

I am grateful to have experienced the bliss of seemingly 'floating' on a run, the soothing metronome of one's own footfalls... there is so much else I could say, but to be succinct - it was a privilege to have known the joy of running. I have grown past lamenting this on a daily basis. For the most part I am acclimated to my current reality.

But seeing myself in this way, if only from a screenshot of a short video taken 2 years ago to prove a point, still makes me happy.

[tanyaaloves]

[andstillwelove]

summer is winding down

[holdfast2dreams]

thanks for the feature ;) i <3 u

[holdfast2dreams]

afternoon rainstorms soothe the soul

[holdfast2dreams]

oatmilk matcha lattes & Throne of Glass :)

[girlfictions]

Ellen Bass, “The Thing Is”

[holdfast2dreams]

<3

[holdfast2dreams]

the protein bar + latte combo >>

[vulcanstar-deactivated20240331]

"If we were able to point somewhere and say, 'There is G-d, there is Torah' with absolute certainty, then there will be no room for faith. HaShem wants us to choose good over bad and have free choice. We can only have free choice if there is, at the end of the day, some kind of doubt or question."

- Rabbi Avrohom Rapoport

[primulaceas]

Mieko Kawakami, Heaven (translated by Sam Bett and David Boyd)

[holdfast2dreams]

~ random food pics from my camera roll, ur welcome ~

1 & 2: anything resembling an uncrustable, I will eat. Bonus points if it has less chemicals than the OG (which I still consume lol)

3 & 4: veggie burgers of course

5: chicken nuggets and a tortilla (probably with lettuce and avo slices in it?)

6: protein ballzz

[mysecrethobbithole-blog]

// On the top of white mountains //

[andstillwelove]

my frickin window this morning!!! 

[o-r-k-i-d-e-deactivated20210105]

[wintertimegirls]

[holdfast2dreams]

~ no context, just a few good moments ~