So I am new to the Hobbit fandom in general, and I only just found out how it ends. I am so devastated that Thorin dies, like, completely outraged. So much so that I cried! I am in love with this Bagginshield. Like literally, its taken over my life. The past two nights I haven't slept from reading so much fanfiction that has HAPPY endings T_T How did you cope with the whole Thorin dying sh!t?
︳ ▷ ︳Well, then first of all: “I advise you to remain with us, and here you shall be honoured and thrice welcome.” *laughs* Seriously, every single new person in the Hobbit fandom makes me so happy. *smiles* But I feel you, anon. When I read the book first - my friend already spoiled me before I actually started reading - I thought I could cope with it, but I cried and cried and cried the whole night. I was “prepared”, I knew that moment would come, but it still hit me so deeply. I think it wasn’t really Thorin’s death that kicked me over the edge, but the fact that “Bilbo turned away, and he went by himself, and sat alone wrapped in a blanket, and whether you believe it or not, he wept until his eyes were red and his voice was hoarse.” I just can’t see people cry; it kills me. Well, to say that Bagginshield consumes me in a dangerously obsessive way would be a terrible understatement. *laughs* I spend too much time thinking about Bilbo and Thorin, thinking about their relationship, thinking about their inner developement, thinking about Thorin’s past, thinking about Bilbo’s past and hie future without Thorin. I had a mental breakdown once, triggered by the thought of post-journey!Bilbo’s pain about his loss. But don’t worry, I already had a mountain of issues I couldn’t deal with. I’m far too attached to Bilbo - probably because I have a RP blog and need to be in character far too often - and my mind was aching and then one thing came to another- *smiles sadly* But what am I talking about?! You see, THAT is the art of being a passionate Bagginshield - I prefer Thilbo though - shipper. You just need to build up a wall of complete denial and live in a world of happy “Nobody Dies” AUs with schmoopy romance, where Bilbo becomes Thorin’s consort and they adopt baby!Frodo and their eternal love destroys The One Ring and everybody is happy. *laughs* You see, it’s just extremely hard to deal with the death of characters you really, really love. #foreverindenial is one way to cope with it. It needs an awful lot of time, but I think we all learned to deal with it. The Hobbit fandom is one of the most precious and loveliest communities I ever was part in. We all support each other, because we know it’s hard to cope with all the shit that happens in the end. We have so lovely headcanons and alternate universes to draw/write and share with one another, it’s so amazing. I think my heart is still broken and I will never accept Thorin’s death completely, but the community will help me through it, because we all feel the same pain. I never experienced so much solidarity in a fandom before. It makes me feel warm inside, it makes me feel noticed and not alone with my feelings and I think that’s the best way to cope with it. *smiles*
