☀️Worship In The Bedroom🌙
Hyunlix • Explicit • One-shot • 2,141 words
Summary: Hyunjin only went to church because Changbin blackmailed him with a drunk ballet video. He didn’t expect to fall for the sweet, freckled choir boy who looks at him like he’s both temptation and salvation. And Felix has spent his life being the perfect Christian boy. One touch from Hyunjin and all his prayers stop working.
This started as a silly thread and turned into something soft and spicy. Hope you enjoy the guilt and the healing <3
Originally posted on my AO3 : https://archiveofourown.org/works/85358431
The rain was coming down sideways, turning everything into a gray blur. Hyunjin sat shotgun in Changbin’s beat-up SUV, arms crossed, staring out the window like the church was personally offending him.
Changbin his roommate, best friend, and current pain in the ass was grinning like an idiot behind the wheel, phone propped up playing the video again: Hyunjin, absolutely hammered on soju, doing sloppy ballet spins down the dorm hallway in nothing but boxers, laughing his head off while “Swan Lake” blasted from someone’s speaker.
“Dude, it’s hilarious,” Changbin said, chuckling. “You’re my bro, but this is gold. Three Sundays and I delete it forever. No group chat leak. Scout’s honor.”
Hyunjin groaned, rubbing his face. “You’re a shitty friend, Binnie.”
“Nah, I’m a great friend. This is character building. Plus, free lemon bars.” Changbin punched his shoulder lightly. “C’mon, it’s not like I’m making you convert. Just sit there and look pretty for three weeks. Who knows, maybe you’ll meet someone.”
Hyunjin flipped him off but got out of the car anyway, hoodie already soaked through. Changbin was an asshole, but he was his asshole the kind who’d drag him to church as a joke but also cover rent when Hyunjin was broke from art supplies.
Inside the church it smelled like old books, lemon Pledge, and wet umbrellas. Hyunjin slouched into the back pew, dripping. The choir started up, and that’s when everything shifted.
Blond hair catching the light like it had its own halo, freckles dusting his nose and cheeks, cream cardigan buttoned over a white shirt that looked ironed within an inch of its life. He sang tenor like the notes actually mattered, eyes mostly closed in concentration. Then they opened during the chorus and locked on Hyunjin.
For a beat, Felix stared. Then his gaze dropped straight to Hyunjin’s mouth. Lingered. His throat worked visibly. He ripped his eyes away like it physically hurt, cheeks flushing under the freckles, staring at the bible like it could save him.
Hyunjin’s stomach did something complicated. He was openly queer everywhere except here, and this boy looked like he’d never even thought the word “gay” without immediately repenting.
After service, the courtyard was packed with polite churchgoers grabbing lemon bars under the overhang. Hyunjin reached for one at the same time as someone else. In the crush of bodies, his hand landed on a slim waist… warm, tense, perfect.
The smaller man went completely rigid, breath catching sharp. Hyunjin’s fingers pressed just enough to feel the tremor run through him.
“Sorry,” Hyunjin murmured, low enough that only Felix heard. He didn’t pull away immediately. “Crowded in here.”
Felix’s eyes flew up they were wide, panicked, pupils blown. He stepped back fast, but not before Hyunjin felt the way his body leaned in for half a second. “It’s… fine.” His voice was barely steady. He grabbed a lemon bar blindly.
“I’m Hyunjin. New. Dragged by my roommate.”
“Felix.” He said it like admitting it cost him. His eyes flicked back to Hyunjin’s mouth, then away so hard his head jerked. “I, um… have to help clean up.”
He disappeared into the crowd, shoulders tight under that cardigan.
Hyunjin stood there tasting rain on his lips and wanting more.
Changbin dropped him off again, this time with a teasing grin. “Make any Christian friends yet? Or are you still sulking?”
“Fuck off, Bin. You owe me pizza after this.”
“Deal. Text me if you spot any cute choir boys.” Changbin winked and drove off laughing.
Felix sat one pew ahead and slightly left this time. Close. When the sermon on resisting temptation droned on, Hyunjin shifted and their knees brushed. Felix froze solid, jaw clenching, fingers digging into the pew edge until his knuckles whitened. He didn’t move his leg.
Hyunjin leaned forward during a quiet moment, breath near Felix’s ear. “Pastor’s jokes are worse than Changbin’s.”
Felix’s shoulders twitched. Later, in the narrow hallway by the fellowship hall coffee urn, they ended up alone.
Hyunjin cracked another dumb joke about the terrible punch. Felix laughed it was bright, surprised, genuine. Then the laugh faded. He looked at Hyunjin properly, smile softening into something raw and defeated, like he’d lost the war inside his head.
“Don’t do that,” Felix whispered.
Hyunjin raised an eyebrow. “Do what?”
“That thing with your voice.” Felix’s tone dropped, half scolding, half begging. “When you talk low like that. It’s… please.”
Hyunjin’s dick twitched hard in his jeans. He wanted to push Felix against the wall and kiss the guilt right out of him, but he held back. Felix was already retreating, hand pressed to his chest like he could shove the desire back down.
Shoulders brushed in the narrow coat room after choir practice. Felix made a quiet, wrecked sound like someone had ripped the plug out of his spine. He stood there breathing hard for several seconds, eyes closed, before bolting without a word.
Hyunjin jerked off that night in the dorm shower thinking about those freckles and the desperate crack in Felix’s voice. Changbin banged on the door afterward. “You done in there, jinnie? Pizza’s here.”
They ate on the floor like usual, Changbin ribbing him about church. “You look like you saw a ghost. Or a cute ghost?”
“Shut up,” Hyunjin said, but he was smiling. Changbin was a menace, but he was family.
Rain pounded again. The sermon hit hard on lust and eternal fire. Felix looked like he might throw up, pale under his freckles, gripping the pew like a lifeline. After the benediction he fled to the parking lot.
Hyunjin was heading out when he saw Felix’s old sedan circle back and park crooked behind the church near the abandoned hay shed, hidden by trees.
Heart hammering, Hyunjin walked through the rain.
Felix sat in the driver’s seat, forehead on the wheel, shoulders shaking. Hyunjin knocked.
Felix looked up his eyes bloodshot, hair damp, freckles stark. Tormented.
Hyunjin opened the door. “Hey. Talk to me.”
Felix stared for a long, trembling second. Then, voice raw and broken: “Come here.”
It wasn’t an order. It wasn’t gentle. It was something desperate and needy in the middle that made Hyunjin’s toes curl.
They barely made it into the hay shed. Felix’s back hit the rough wall and Hyunjin kissed him deep, hungry. Felix whimpered, hands fisting Hyunjin’s wet hoodie, kissing back like a dam had burst all guilt and starvation.
“I can’t— I shouldn’t—” Felix gasped. “I prayed every night. I lead youth group. My family—”
Hyunjin dropped to his knees, worked Felix’s slacks open. He was hard, leaking, throbbing. Hyunjin took him in his mouth in one smooth motion it was hot, salty, perfect. Felix cried out, hips jerking, fingers tangling in Hyunjin’s hair.
Hyunjin sucked him messily, tongue pressing under the head, one hand stroking the base. Felix lasted maybe two minutes before he came hard down Hyunjin’s throat with a choked sob, biting his wrist to stay quiet. His legs shook violently.
The guilt slammed in right after. Felix slid down the wall, curling into a ball, tears mixing with rain. “I’m disgusting. I’m such a fucking liar. Good Christian boy? What a joke.”
Hyunjin pulled him close, wiping his mouth. “You’re not disgusting. You’re human.”
Felix clung to him, shaking. “You don’t get it. My mom… the church…”
They stayed like that until the rain eased.
The sneaking started right after.
Felix used every excuse — “youth group planning,” “library research,” “extra choir rehearsal.” Changbin noticed Hyunjin slipping out more.
“You’re glowing, man,” Changbin said one night over takeout. “Church doing you good or what? Wait… is it a guy? Holy shit, you’re banging a choir boy?”
Hyunjin threw a pillow at him. “Mind your business, blackmailer.”
Changbin laughed. “As your friend, I approve. Just don’t get caught, idiot. I got your back if shit hits the fan.”
First Full Night With Lix – Dorm Room✨
Felix showed up at the dorm on a stormy Thursday, still in his cream cardigan, twisting his hands nervously.
“I’ve never… done anything. Not like this. Not with a guy,” he admitted, voice small.
Hyunjin kissed him slow and sweet. “We stop whenever you want.”
He undressed Felix piece by piece his cardigan folded carefully, white shirt unbuttoned with kisses down his freckled chest, slacks and underwear last. Felix was flushed pink everywhere, cock hard and leaking against his stomach.
Hyunjin laid him on the bed and took him in his mouth again, slow and deep, humming around him. Felix arched, moaning brokenly. “It feels— too good— I prayed so hard not to want this…”
Hyunjin pulled off, slicked his fingers, and worked one inside carefully. Felix keened when it hit his prostate.
“More,” Felix gasped. “Please.”
Two fingers. Then three. Hyunjin scissored and curled them, praising him the whole time. “You’re so tight, baby. So good for me. Look at you taking my fingers like you were made for it.”
Felix was crying from pleasure, cock leaking steadily. “I’m going to hell. I prayed on my knees every night and it didn’t work. I’m such a fucking hypocrite.”
Hyunjin kissed his thigh, added more lube, and lined up. He pushed in inch by inch, groaning at the heat. Felix’s mouth fell open in a silent cry, nails digging into Hyunjin’s back.
“Breathe. Relax. I’ve got you.”
When he bottomed out, they stayed still, foreheads pressed together. Then Felix whispered, “Move.”
Hyunjin fucked him slow and deep at first, grinding against his prostate. Felix’s legs wrapped around him, heels digging in. The pace built with wet slaps, desperate moans, Felix whimpering Hyunjin’s name like a prayer.
“Omg jinnie,” Felix sobbed even as he pushed back to meet every thrust. “don’t stop— fuck, right there—”
Hyunjin stroked him in time until Felix came hard, clenching around him, cum painting his own stomach. Hyunjin followed seconds later, burying deep and filling him.
Aftercare was tender. Hyunjin cleaned him gently with a warm cloth, held him through the tears, kissed every freckle.
“You’re safe,” he whispered. “I’ve got you.”
Felix curled into his chest. “I don’t deserve this. But God, I need it.”
They stole more nights. Quick, desperate handjobs and blowjobs in the car behind the hay shed. Longer sessions in the dorm where Felix grew bolder riding Hyunjin reverse cowgirl, biting his own hand to stay quiet, whispering filthy confessions: “I touch myself thinking about your mouth… I’m so fucked up…”
Changbin covered for him once or twice, smirking but supportive. “Your secret’s safe, bro. Just be careful.”
Felix’s mom showed up unannounced at house with food one afternoon. She let herself in with the spare key.
They were on the couch Felix in Hyunjin’s lap, hoodie on the floor, shirt open, Hyunjin’s hand down the back of his slacks with two fingers deep inside him while they kissed messily, Felix grinding down with needy whimpers.
The scream was blood-curdling.
She snapped multiple pictures before they could separate. Called the pastor immediately.
The consequences were devastating.
Felix’s parents hauled him to their house. Emergency elder meetings. Youth leadership revoked. Whispers and stares at church. His mom alternated between hysterical crying, screaming Bible verses, and forcing all-night prayer sessions. His dad wouldn’t even look at him.
Hyunjin showed up at the house anyway. Changbin drove him, waiting in the car. “I got your back, man. Text if you need extraction.”
Felix’s mom met Hyunjin on the porch, furious. “Stay away from my son, you sinner!”
Felix slipped out anyway, eyes swollen. They drove a few blocks and parked.
“I can’t lose my family,” Felix whispered, voice cracking. “But I can’t lose you either. I tried praying again. It only made me want you more.”
Hyunjin held his hand. “We’ll figure it out. Secret for now. Changbin’s even willing to help cover sometimes still. He’s an idiot but a loyal one.”
Felix gave that soft, surrendered smile. “I still feel like a liar every Sunday. But with you… it’s the only time I feel real.”
They kissed slow and sad in the car as rain started again.
It wasn’t perfect. Guilt still ate at Felix. Secrecy weighed heavy. Family wounds were deep. But late nights in the dorm, tangled together, Felix tracing patterns on Hyunjin’s chest and whispering fears between soft kisses, it felt worth fighting for.
One night, after another intense round where Felix had ridden him until they were both shaking and oversensitive, he lay spent in Hyunjin’s arms.
“I love you,” Felix said quietly. “Even if it damns me.”
Hyunjin kissed his temple. “Then we’ll be damned together. Or maybe your God’s kinder than you think.”
Changbin texted later: Pizza when you’re done being gay?
Hyunjin laughed into Felix’s hair. Messy, complicated, real.