[honigstimme]

24.3.2022.

Boli me i ne znam kad će više proći.

Boli me čitava prošla godina, boli me kada si mi napisao ‘Nisam htio da te povrijedim’. E pa jesi. Povrijedio si me toliko da i godinu nakon raskida plačem, jer sam bila u restoranu u kojem smo jeli. Sjećam se šta si naručio i o čemu si mi taj dan pričao.

Sjetila sam te se kada mi se prijateljica žalila na momka i rekla mi: ‘Rekao mi je da je normalno što nam ponestaje tema za razgovor’ kolutajući pri tom očima i čekajući od mene reakciju odobravanja. U tom trenutku nisam mislila o njoj, mislila sam kako sam nešto slično čula od tebe. Rekao si da je hemija nestala i da nemamo o čemu razgovarati. Nikad ti nisam rekla da sam, posljenji mjesec naše veze primijetila tvoju hladnoću. Nisam se mogla svaki put boriti sa njom. Tjerala me je da odustajem od konverzacija, poruka, dodira. Boljelo je što se nešto promijenilo. I dalje je sve toliko urezano. I često se pitam dokle više. Kad ćeš mi nestati iz glave i kad će doći taj neko ko me zaslužuje. jer. ti. nisi.

Ne zaslužujem hladnoću i manjak interesovanja za moju ličnost, za knjige koje volim, ne zaslužujem to tvoje cimanje i šale koje vrijeđaju i mene, a i sve ostale, ne zaslužujem tvoj bijes.

Živim za dan kad ćeš me proći. Možda ga neću ni primijetiti. Možda ću se jednog dana probuditi, odraditi jutranju rutinu i nakon određenog vremena shvatiti da dugo nisam pomislila na tebe, ili će me ljubav preduhitriti, pa će predmet mojih misli biti neko novi. 

Samo da znaš, Sarajevo mrzim zbog tebe. Mrzim Teslu zbog tebe. Hvala ti na bezbroj preplakanih noći, jer si otišao bez razloga i bez da si me volio.

[arpeggia]

“We die to each other daily. What we know of other people is only our memory of the moments during which we knew them. And they have changed since then. To pretend that they and we are the same is a useful and convenient social convention which must sometimes be broken. We must also remember that at every meeting we are meeting a stranger.”

— T. S. Eliot

[latesummermoon]

[foodffs]

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Is this how you roll?

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Koegzistencija

Želeo sam nekog

Koga neće biti

Strah

Od mene.

Proveo sam 20 godina U sumnji Da takva osoba Može da Postoji.

Ljudi su Suviše plitki A naši konflikti

Suviše duboki.

Ali iskreno verujem Da ne moramo da Budemo sami.

Verujem u samostalnost Verujem u samopoštovanje I uzdati se u sebe.

Verujem da Ljudi mogu Da se povežu Mnogo dublje Od onog što se da Videti.

Verujem da postoji Vreme i mesto Za sve Čak i za

Zaljubiti se.

Vidiš, Biće dana Kada se osećaš Usamljen Prazan Ali moraš da budeš Tu za sebe.

Niko ti neće Pružiti ruku Ako ne vidi Da vredi.

Niko neće da računa na nekog Ko ne računa na sebe.

Koegzistencija je prelepa Ali je prepuna Zavisti.

Ne možeš da Popraviš nekog drugog Dok još uvek vežbaš Umeće ljubavi Prema sebi.

Dopusti svoje greške Da budu podsetnici da Možeš da gubiš I smeješ se Znajući da možeš I da se vratiš nazad.

Nema ničeg Lepog u Patnji Ali postoji u  

Prevazilaženju.

I veruj mi- Naći ćeš način Da proživiš kroz sve.

I onda će, Nekad, Neko, Negde Da se divi načinu na koji Odbijaš da padneš.

I začudićes se Kako si ikad Dozvolio svetu Da učini da Se osećaš

Tako sitno.

[toastbutteregg]

nothing more relatable than this

[lusi-na-nebu-sa-dijamantima]

Biti opijen ljubavlju, poezijom, umjetnosti i laganim poljupcima.

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Svijet boli kurac za tebe. Profesore i nastavnike boli kurac za tebe. Razred, komšiluk i kosmos boli kurac za tebe. Poslodavce, šefove i direktore boli kurac za tebe. Ljude u tramvaju, prodavačicu u pekari, goluba na grani boli kurac za tebe. Postani svjestan toga. Tek tada si slobodan.

[odlicna]

Odavno žudim za nekim Ko će znati šta mi predstavlja Poljubac u čelo Kome ću se sklupčati u krilu Dok zavlači prste u moju kosu Ko će na moju ljutnju reći da sam dete Razmaženo Ishitreno Temperamentno Odavno žudim za isprepletanim nogama Ispod toplog jorgana Za privlačenjem u zagrljaj Onda kada želim otići Žudim za Toplim rečima koje će me ugrejati poput čaja Za ostavljanjem otisaka dlanova Na zamagljenim prozorima Za detinjastim ponašanjem, Jer baš sam takva ispod ledene površine - Obično dete koje želi da se igra. Žudim za jednim domom U kome ću osećati da bih tu mogla ostati zauvek Za nekim ko će umiriti moj nemirni san Pored kog neću imati košmare Ko će reći: “To je samo san”, A ja ću u svaku reč naivno poverovati Krupnim očima nade gledati I sve to, modro i zeleno Napokon će me uspavati. Odavno žudim za nekim Kog ću svakodnevno zasmejavati Ko će voleti Baš tu nezrelu devojčicu koju sam dugo skrivala Ko će je povući nestašno za kike U kome će se roditi osećaj Čuvanja Razumevanja Da nije lepo dete rasplakati, A jos manje ženu, Jer baš ona Donosi užitke Misterije Bliskost Šetnje na ivici opasnosti; Baš žena Uvek svima pruža ruku spasa. Odavno žudim za jednim “Da” Na pitanje “Mogu li biti tvoje sve?” Žudim za prepuštanjem Odlaskom i dolaskom bez promena Distanci Udaljenosti Žudim za jednom rupicom na bradi Jednim osmehom Slatkim osećanjem koji pruža jedna brada na mom vratu Za jutarnjim golickanjima Pesmama Nadimcima koje mrzim, Ali koja dobijaju lep prizvuk sa jednih usana; Znala sam da odavno žudim Ali novembar mi je doneo osobu Koju ću Nadam se Znati da volim. Ivana Jovanović

[i-wrotethisforme]

There’s a time to give up on relationships or “situationships,” if you will. No matter how bad you might want to, if they’re not answering you or they seem uninterested, you don’t have to push them. The harsh truth is if you think they don’t like you, you’re probably right. And people are allowed to not feel the same way about you, it just means they aren’t the right person for you and it was never going to work out. What hurts is that they realized it first. But those are the people you have to let go of because you don’t want to be with someone you have to force to like you when there’s someone out there who will think loving you is the easiest thing in the world.

[i-wrotethisforme]

“You know what matters? Not what your real friends think, not what the people that used to be your friends think, and certainly not what strangers think. No one’s unsolicited opinions on your life matter or should affect you at all. Your life is your life is your life. Your body is nobody else’s property, your decisions are nobody else’s business, and your actions are nobody else’s responsibility. Maybe you think I talk to too many boys, but I don’t think that. Or maybe I know I talk to too many boys but it makes me happy and what gives you a right to comment on or have an opinion about it? Yes, I have a ball on the weekends and after work and sometimes in the middle of the day on a random Tuesday. Hate me for it, it doesn’t make me less happy. I make my own happy everywhere and anywhere and how that makes other people feel is their business, not mine. Anyone who is jealous of other people for finding happiness in random places or having too much fun is not the kind of energy you should have around you. Stop trying to censor yourself and stop feeling bad for being happier than other people and stop apologizing for the decisions you make in your own life and stop trying to cater to people who aren’t putting the same effort in. Be yourself and you’ll attract the people that appreciate you. Don’t change to keep around the people who don’t.”

—

[i-wrotethisforme]

My PIN number to this day is my second grade best friends birthday. There are people I don’t talk to anymore whose families are still in my prayers. There are shirts I wear to bed from exes of 8 years ago who are married now with kids. And I haven’t found a macaroni salad recipe better than my college boyfriend’s mom’s. Our lives are made up of so many people and when people become parts of our lives, some parts remain long after they leave. And in the same exact way, it’s comforting to know there are so many lives you’re still a part of that you have no idea about.

[greatmindquotes]

Out of clutter, find simplicity. From discord, find harmony. In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. - Albert Einstein

[thezeroquotes]

Someday, somewhere — anywhere, unfailingly, you'll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life.

— Pablo Neruda

[lazyyogi]

“Perfectionism is the voice of the oppressor, the enemy of the people. It will keep you cramped and insane your whole life, and it is the main obstacle between you and a shitty first draft. I think perfectionism is based on the obsessive belief that if you run carefully enough, hitting each stepping-stone just right, you won’t have to die. The truth is that you will die anyway and that a lot of people who aren’t even looking at their feet are going to do a whole lot better than you, and have a lot more fun while they’re doing it.”

— Anne Lamott

[philosophyquotes]

“Drop the craving for self, for permanence, for particular circumstances, and go straight ahead with the movement of life.”

— Alan Watts, Become What You Are

[lazyyogi]

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

— Rumi