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listen. i know it's not 2014 anymore and i know it's just a throwaway line and that the russo brothers didnt intend for marvel action blockbuster captain america the winter soldier to become the tragic gay love story that never was but man. having steve say "it's kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience" in a conversation about romantic relationships right before the bucky reveal is so cruel. it's not just about steve and bucky obviously having the shared experience of being "out of time," it's the fact that they've both been stripped of their humanity in opposite directions. steve is a legend, he is an american hero and a national icon before he is a human being the same way that bucky is a weapon and a killing machine before he is a human being. steve knows that anyone who falls in love with him in the 21st century fell in love with captain america first, and that's just not him. but then the one person who knew him first and knew him best and loved him (not captain america, that little guy from brooklyn) so much he died for it is alive, impossibly. and it's a miracle because he's back and it's horrific because he's back under the worst possible circumstances. but to steve, the winter soldier is worth tearing the world apart for because he's always been bucky first. they find each other and suddenly they're human again. and maybe, despite it all, being "out of time" becomes a blessing, because in this century they'd finally be allowed to love each other the way they've always wanted to. like real people do.

like. no. the captain america trilogy isn't about two queer men traumatized and alienated by war and modern life rediscovering and reclaiming their humanity through their love for each other. but. i mean. it couldve been

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suho is literally everywhere in whc2. he’s in the boy sleeping at the table in the back of sieun’s new classroom. he’s in gotak, teaching juntae to fight. he’s in baku’s touchiness and fierce protectiveness. he’s in juntae, who talks with his mouth full. he’s in the boxing ring sieun sits in the corner of in his dreams. he’s in sieun’s sleepless nights and his evenings at the hospital. in gotak and juntae’s persistent doorbell ringing that sieun hears from his bedroom, and the split-second spark of hope in his expression that it might be suho. he’s the driving force when the time comes for sieun to make a crucial decision—to help juntae, to refuse to fight at first, but then do it in the end still, to accept the boys’ friendship, to let fun and laughter into his life again, to wake up from his well-deserved sleep and go back to his friends and suho. he’s in the way sieun smiles differently around his new friends, and that familiar smile at the very end that he only saves for suho.

while the narrative keeps suho alive through these subtleties and implicities, sieun keeps his spirit alive explicitly. he goes to him, he talks to him, he writes to him, he lets himself be led and taught by him, despite his unconscious state. he’s still sieun’s best friend and his guiding light. he’s his heart and his home. he is all over whc2, and not as a ghost haunting the narrative, but as the soul of sieun’s story.