I draw cat ears on pictures of my friends, because i'm #relatabl

A tired university student tries their hand at art.

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“i don’t want you to talk to me anymore”

“i don’t know if you could live without the attention”

“you know you might have a case there if you didn’t hog all the attention dear sister”

“are you jealous of her then?”

“fuck no”

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feeling really fucking lonely andd esperate for tomorrow not to happen rn. 

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just wanna let y’all know: ashley johnson

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winter

“Welcome!” a voice says, a bowl with purplish grey disgusting looking gunk is shoved into my left hand, its superglued there now forever. 

“please choose one of our specially selected seasonings with your depression!”

I look at the bowl, it is indeed saying depression in the shittiest of my handwriting. 

in front of me stand two bowls, they're both labeled: 

[apathy]  and [ A̶̺͛̈N̨͉̬̩ͨ̂̍̀Ġ̪͉͚͓͞Ė̶̴͉̻̜̫̯̲ͮ̂Ă̴̦̫̦̻̮̜̞̝̓̋̏ͮ͛ͧ̀S͔͖̳͇͔͓̭̻̿ͦͩ̄ͨ̾͝A̷̠̥͔͛ͮͩ͛̄̾̍D̸̢̺͔͔̗̲̃͢P̴̱͙̤̎ͤŸ̶̵̢̗̻͕̪̳̹͉̲́̊ͨͤͮ͑]

wait what is ang.. angea?? 

“you have selected A̮̲͇̿ͫ̾͗ͫ͗̿̒͢ͅN̢͖̪̤̺͍͗ͨͤ̇̃G̡͇̼̩ͮ͑̅̌̄ͨ̚E̸̵̸͉͙̯̣̝ͤ͌̑̉͒A͍̺̿̉̌͋ͪ̓ͣ̕S̤̩̳̘͖͒ͧͤ̽͘͘͠À̸͚͐̈͊̓͛D̸̶͕̣̦̃̊͗P͚ͨͮͫͩͯ̓̀̕Ÿ̶̜̮̬̺́ͩ̒͗̃ͣ̕ wwhich is every single emotion you can feel mangled together into a horrible, volatile mixture! that’ll add some spice!”

This is gonna be a long winter

“Thanks for visiting! we look forward to seeing you again tomorrow!”

[profcarrot]

Days 9-12

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Happy Halloween B)

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Jokes

When i jokingly tell them that i should probably jump and freeze to death to escape the horror that is my existence, they tell me:

“please don’t die”

“we’ll miss you”

but the joking tone in their voices is not reflected by her eyes, that suddenly get serious, her eyes, that look at me suspiciously, his arm, that wraps around mine and his hand that hold mine as he tells me that he won’t let go so i can’t go away. 

and suddenly i know that they really do want me around.

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Your art is so great! I draw at (I would say) the same skill-level as you but you would be higher than me because of your coloring/painting! It's so good and I can't stop obsessing over it.

whaaaat are you serious?? thank you so much! do you post any of your art?

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It has been along WHILE. 

but i guess depression is here because exams are here. 

Have all five of you missed me?

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the core of my problems

at the moment

lies within myself. 

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I redid an old jade because my fantastic friend gave me this great set of watercolours.

I still love jade, i still love space, i still hate my scanner. 

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wtf are feelings

lately there’s been this... disconnect, between the self that i show the world and my inside self. The inside self is insecure and very childish, as if it’s stuck at age fifteen or something. the outside self is growing up, but because i don’t know what part of my inside self is funny/acceptable/nothorrible anymore, I end up regretting most of the words that leave my mouth. i don’t know how to be funny or kind in a way that doesn’t seem weird (for my age or the situation). and i feel like the adult part of me that i show the world is too serious and objective to be empathetic, even though I feel all my emotions and other people’s moods (???) on the inside. I don’t know how I’ll come across anymore and it’s really fucking bugging me.

It’s been a rough summer vacation.

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BIRTHDAY TIME BTICHES!

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[sleepy-oiseau]

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i’m running the final laps of a neverending cycle

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more doodles. you can really see where steven universe turned into homestuck. 

also designing friend’s god tier outfits.