begot of vain fantasy

hotaruyy or eryn | she/her | queer | writer, occasional translator and sometime artist | hotaruyy on ao3 & bluesky | erynhotaru on twitter | pfp by @Keekry!

[dogweapon]

the author's barely disguised longing for a kinder world

[cloudabserk]

the wicked succubus ilya

[swagsmeister]

a very happy hr season 2 filming day to all who celebrate

[inkskinned]

looking at the little fragile scraps of your life, trying to arrange them into the fabric of dragonfly wings. you'd rather be icarus, right? that's why you cry at the hymn. you want so badly out of this tower - good lord. you'd burn just for the chance for it.

[bisexualrozanov]

i know people always talk about the stairwell scene because of the ridiculously tender kiss but can we take a moment to discuss the way shane's hugging ilya's jacket and looking at him while he's getting ready to leave... #casual

[dearestloveliestdarcy]

[shanehollanderilyarozanov]

shane hollander moments that break my heart

[fluentisonus]

hi hello can we talk about this page of turner's sketchbook which they think is a study of lot and his daughters fleeing the destruction of sodom & how the page itself is straight up cut away behind them. because the physical hole in the paper is doing insane things for me. normally in a painting of this story you'd see flames or falling buildings or something in the background but here there's instead this horrifying emptiness in the material itself. like the paper world they exist in is literally dissolving away behind them. or what they don't see it just too awful to comprehend. insane

[fluentisonus]

for anyone who enjoyed this one you may also like this page, which has an angel-shaped hole

[gremlinnddraws]

My art piece for the @pb-zines Zine project

I was inspired by Frederic William Burton’s “The Meeting on the Turret Stairs”. A modern twist where after Shane leaves Ilya in his hotel room in Vegas, this is a visual portrayal of their true feelings. Ilya’s anguish not wanting to let the man he is beginning to fall for leave his embrace. Shane is fighting with his own heart, too lost in his head and embarrassment that he closes his eyes against the rejection and unsent messages on his phone.

This was a fun challenge as this was my first time taking part in a zine!

[jairus666]

[tarballing]

artist: @drezzdon

[qquell]

“there is no moral. the wolf eats you one day and until it does, the forest is beautiful.”

[omagpies]

i love you, get up, keep going.

posted a month ago on my Patreon and Ko-fi, original text by @inkskinned can be found here 💗

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[montrealmetros]

ilya's emotionally avoidant attempt at sliding past the boyfriend conversation by just slipping it in mid-shane's panic attack and shane not letting him by immediately making him clarify his feelings makes me laugh every time

[duckduckhonk]

secretly the funniest guy

[bucketyd]

Swallowed Words

[crashingintotheground]

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[emziess]

Rocky + Movement Project Hail Mary (2026) dir. Phil Lord, Chris Miller