begot of vain fantasy

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[jedavu]

Striking Watercolor Paintings Of Mysterious Cats ‘Blending’ Into The Canvas

Serbian artist Endre Penovác, known for his beautiful watercolor paintings of landscapes and animals, has recently created a striking series of black-and-white artworks that feature cats shrouded in an air of mystery.

[brewdarrymore]

- CS Pacat, Captive Prince

[starapture]

[cloudabserk]

i want to abuse my government expense account to buy grace candy

[cloudabserk]

not only is he a movie-only character, but it was supposed to be a tiny part. the actor, Lionel Boyce, was originally hired for just 1 day of filming! according to his interviews & the directors commentary, he got along so well with ryan gosling & everyone that they just kept writing scenes for him and he was on set for a month

[cloudabserk]

Would you ever draw fem hollanov?

girl hollanov tensely walking past each other at the gym

[userilyarozanov]

HEATED RIVALRY (2025 - ) ▸1x05, i'll believe in anything

[fuckrozanov]

sometimes i do cry because all ilya wanted was to have a little sleepover and it blew up in his face oh my god he had to do the dishes and and get in the bed with shane’s side of still messed up and his sheets smelling like him and of course there’s the matter of the cum on his rick owens. he probably got shane a spare toothbrush bro FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

[rylandsgrace]

[themoonandmyman]

ever since Jacob said that the show is formatted through memories I can’t help but notice that structure even more significantly. The hockey games are a blur, we don’t see them, because in Hollanov’s memory, the only thing that stands out is each other. It’s exactly how memory works, especially when you love someone- the reality of it blurs over time, but they remain vivid. You fixate on certain details, touches, kisses. (One of my favourite scenes in the whole show is Shane talking to Rose and remembering his encounters with Ilya)

I honestly think this conscious decision throughout is what makes the time jumps completely seamless, because we’re still grounded in the emotional reality of these memories.

It’s what I personally like to call ‘trim the fat’ writing, which so many shows fail to do, with bloated scripts and way too much exposition and audience handholding. JT said ‘fuck that’ and I respect it heavy

anyway I love the little vignettes. #ourvignettes <3

[kiphunter]

when they say hockey is a violent sport...

[hollandar]

Hudson Williams, #1 Shane Understander

I think Shane was a character who, soon as I read him, made all the sense to me. I felt immediately a kinship and an ownership over Shane. I was like, “I need to be the only person to tell this story. I get it. I want to be the person to be Shane and I want to spend time with him.” [x]

(sources below)

PANEL 1 Out

PANEL 2 (fear/desire) The Permanent Rain Press

PANEL 3 (vegas bathroom) Numero Netherlands

PANEL 4 (tears) Harper's Bazaar

PANEL 5 (ilya inverse) Teen Vogue Image: [x]

PANEL 6 (additions) (4 gifs) Numero Netherlands Entertainment Weekly

PANEL 7 (good job) Them

PANEL 8 (dichotomy) eTalk CTV CBC News Images: [x] [x] [x]

PANEL 9 (cottage home) Variety

PANEL 10 (heart eyes) Timid

PANEL 11 (evolution) Much Image: [x]

PANEL 12 (yuna) Variety

PANEL 13 Timid Numero Netherlands Out Image: [x]

[thisfeebleheart]

The book has the parental discussion with Ilya and Shane in a lounge room, on sofas - shifting this to the dining table really highlights the framing intention during the last Hollander family meal - the sad empty space where Shane's partner should be [...] "Are we expecting anyone else?" Yeah, he finally arrived. 

[lycanthropicture]

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[rylandsgrace]

A pretty convincing one.

[astrodarlings]

what do you mean this isn’t what happened

[m1stl3t03]

im a victim of hockey yaoi propaganda .

[thepoisonroom]

heated rivalry is awesome because ilya's constantly like i'm a sick bitch i like freak sex but gets scared the minute he gets a little smoochie meanwhile shane is like i'm normal i'm normal and he's five seconds from reinventing free use just out of his own beautiful mind