Writings

Created by Talyn Ann Edelson

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Custom Humans

I find it astonishing

to see each custom human attempting to fit themselves into the same box. They own themselves, but are slaves to their vision of humanity.

Trapped. 

Traitors to their own species. I see so many growing to be forgotten. I do not travel intentionally in an opposing direction, however, I explore within to weave my beautiful shapes into ever-morphing creatures. 

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Qi

Love and light will not pass you by, if you learn to cultivate them within your mind.

Your smile is sunshine. The soul in your eyes is divine.  You are yours. I am mine. I see the beauty in all--we coincide.  We see well in darkness, not blind, just wise. Time flies, exposes lies, and never dies. 

Your qi is bright. Its immaculate surmise is validated by the faith of your followers, ever-growing in size. 

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Flat White Table

I sip my matching drink, wishing for it to bring joyous inspiration into my head. As I sit and sip, what begins to draw my pen across this page is the smooth voice of the sweet mother reading to her family at the table next to me. 

She speaks slowly, letting each carefully written word roll off of her tongue with love and emotion. She reads as though she is relaying the message of a beloved family member from afar; excited to tell her son of recent family adventures. 

Good mama. Good wife.

She is at peace, and in control of her story and setting. This is a beautiful thing to see. Her son (~12) looks up to her with wide eyes, healthily soaking up the secret information being bestowed upon him. 

Good boy. Good son.

The father remains still and stylish, soaking up the perfect sunshine that is his family, of which he seems so proud. 

I vow to have a family like this one day. This has been a beautiful painting to experience. Seeing love and stability like this does not happen to me often anymore, due to my training regimen and activities. I am grateful for this opportunity. <3

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These Things We Tell Ourselves

Listen to me, fellow healers.

It still feels good to fall in one-sided love. Those fleeting moments truly last forever,

and the ending pain upon your last frame together becomes easier to process each time as you move through the masses with your magical self. Become better at strategizing, and you build up your war-chest. You are taught new things. You learn. You are no less magnificent.

Visualize this-- a penetrating happiness and sense of presence that fills your spaces

as the sound of your aligned heartbeats lulls your calming brain to sleep

and pushes you gently forward  as you are rocked by the constant movement of his chest.

The synced breaths are rhythmic as you nap side-by-side on a sunny afternoon.

The soul is flowing and filled with peace.

Emotions that lead you through so many moments organically disband and are disabled.

As you naturally focus on the way your skin feels against his

whilst pulled in and out of sleep, each muscle on your face is relaxed.

Sit in this serenity to understand a new element of chemistry and its immaculate composition.

You know that even if he does not plan to have you in his life for more than than this time,

he sometimes watches you in your slumber and thinks you look like an angel. There is nothing wrong with you. He is not convinced you are made for each other. You might not be. His loss.

You effortlessly turn the energy he shares with you into a protection spell.

Encompassed in the warmth of his honest goodness,

the body you own is able to rejuvenate itself incrementally.

Even if he is not yours, he is rare.

This access is timeless, and invaluable.

You treat this, and them with genuine and divine respect.

You have never been able to find this palace of comfort on any physically existing plane though it was manifested in your many dreams many times. When these occur, you lay in rest as long as your body allows, savoring the powerful connection and limitless energy you feel surging through your every bit. You feel powerful together. He significantly increases your mana

and silently shows you how to clear future levels if you listen to his frequency while simultaneously mastering yours.

He will always be a part of your save game.

You feel a part of his family, when you see how much he is loved by his friends.

It gives you hope that one day, you will belong to a group that you’re correctly certain you will be around throughout the entirety of your life and values you as much.

He is so loved. Having the ability to see this calmly from an outside perspective is special.

You can be loved like this too, by more beings than yourself. This love exists.

Remember that you keep your cup in its overflowing state via creating content

and inviting others into your worlds through your versatile and ever-varying mediums,

such as this.

He rightly yells to kill the Mercy because he still has healing to do, and wants to be the best for himself so he can be the greatest for the one he believes deserves to have his healthiest form of love. This is called responsibility.

Be happy in the process of his heal and trust that when he hurts you, it will not be executed with ill intentions. Keep your faith.

He was hurt. You are fortunate to have the opportunity to help put him back together.

Show him once more that new humans can be kind and grow

whilst putting the needs of others above their own--a recharge, not a setback.

He is a tool to practice your patience, consistency of character and life balance.

Regardless of the outcome of your undefined friendship,

you will be better off accepting his likely-temporary style of embrace and acceptance.

You know how to use this unreciprocated fondness for him to give you a positive charge,

and you hope that your trust in his continued respect for you will blossom further although you attach zero expectations to this vision you seek to cultivate. Believe that he is real with you.

It’s ok to love him, sweet protectors. We are blessed with many priceless quirks and abilities.

Those who misconstrue your intentions do not have the power

to pull your perfect sanctuary apart because you are brave, strong and beautiful.

We are  warriors of the light, and heroes that understand how to spend times in darkness as we climb our custom staircases with unapparent endpoints. We will forever thrive and shine, because we have faith. There is more life in our eyes than most hominids. Share our infinite amounts. This is a gift we possess that can open the hearts of the masses. Give this love.

We throw ourselves fully into each experience, exactly immersed with intention.

We regally rise, rise, rise and it does not matter if we are ever wooed and wedded.

We are forever. We are wild and wonderful. We are.

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Teaming

My mind is calm. I sit on the balcony railing, feeling the warm rays from the sun lick my face while the crisp winds of Mammoth Mountain dance over my skin as they sing to me. They like to play with my hair!

I feel the breeze tug at me more longingly and I jump to my feet, allowing the forces to pull me in circles while we beam together-- my mother nature and me.

We are a happy family! We are all encompassing, wild at heart, and in love with life even when our skies darken. She has taught me to appreciate even the rainiest of days, and find wonderment in each mesmerizing droplet of the water that falls. It’s molecular structure is vastly under-appreciated because it is largely unseen. It is small, but it does not ask for attention. It keeps us alive together and our relationship keeps us healthy. 

I strive to enable the minds of others to see how our structures (our foundations) are beautiful. We are made up of the same stuff, they say.

C’est vrai. 

Each of our heads holds our own magic--how special!

Each of our hearts feel the the results of thoughts and actions. 

Each of our bodies, full of the same beautiful water, blood and rhythmic lulls are meant to grow together.

We are made to push each other, yes, but I encourage you to be on the same team. Do not be afraid to share your soul. You will find fulfillment in your dearly loved friends--currently found, or yet undiscovered. Your core will finally be able to relax in peace, with all walls down. In these moments of perfect safety your light will shine more brightly, drawing more like-minded creatures your way. The blanket of sunshine we are will have the ability to manifest this truth and love that stabilizes and can warm all of the earth throughout any type of weather. 

It is only through teamwork that we have the best control and the ability to force others to take action for themselves when they see us in this element. As you witness the others rise from their sad, solitary states to join our family, our sense of purpose will only grow deeper and feed more life force to each of us and these sweet pieces of nature that keep us balanced. 

We are the ones that put limitations on ourselves. 

Once you feel the weightlessness of being present, you can learn to shed old skins and sins more frequently until you are able to become the water that you once resisted, the metal you felt as a force of opposition, the earth that you allowed to hold you down, the wind with whom you did not know how to fly and the fire you allowed to burn you unnecessarily. 

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Presently

I put you on a pedestal not needing you to save me you put a rhythm in my chest nobody else can play me when I’m with you, I’m alive not caring what the future brings Right now, you’re what I want last night, you were what I liked today, baby, I enjoy you every time lover, I adore you I woke up from a dirty dream that made me get down on my knees as obvious as it may seem all I want to do to you is please you let me keep feeling surreal enjoying you, enjoying things Right now, you’re what I want last night, you were what I liked today, baby, I enjoy you every time lover, I adore you

Enjoying you, enjoying things

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+HeWantsAWolfgangToo

You block out the noise share all the good vibes that allow me to slide into your arms onto your chest Just us in this world You show me I am a beautiful girl and I show you how you make me feel so comfortable as we play through these old tunes I love to move and dance for you you press on me I feel you breathing in my memories and dreams Thank you for the happy fight the energy you put in my life as you let me lay calmly by your side You teach me the things I need to see to be the woman I want to be My favorite moments, relaxed and free are spent with you, lovely.

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The Musical Connection

There’s a frequency that pleasantly places a smile on my mouth long before I am aware it exists. 

I first notice my face begin to warm, as my cheeks blush pink and the music makes me move. He sings with strings that he smoothly runs his fingers along, as he pats, taps, flicks, picks and plucks with varying levels of intensity. They call for him, those strings-- whispering longingly to his sweet fingertips with hopes of experiences a sooner return. Sometimes, when he plays, I see his heart dancing through his eyes. His stories are written wonderfully.

They arc. There is process. They are long.

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Unity Breath

Genuine joy feels like childhood with our bendy bones, soft smiles and open minds.

The happy flavor of curiosity trickles down our throats.  It tastes of honeysuckle drops, freshly licked from flowers. It tastes of tiny snowflakes that flutter through the air like silly birds, and it fills and floods our bloodlines, placing a piece of our most pure smiles within each of our systems.

It glows and grows as we share its radiant light with the passerby that still has the ability to see and appreciate contrast for its beauty. They maintain the attention to know how clearly individual specimens are a tool and force for unity.   

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Relevant

The relevance of a man is dependent not on his happiness but how he lives up to his ideals.

Would you rather be happy or invigorate change in the world? 

I don’t believe that it is necessary to choose, however, if I must, I will always choose change to push minds, stretch boundaries, and move forward.

Constant change and living as a multitudinous being in not indicative of one being unstable. I am as stable as I choose to be for the situation. I am in control (even when I am not) and I have full faith that I know how to maintain that. 

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Honey

There are sunsets in my mind, forging inimitable brushstrokes into crevices varying in thickness and depth.

They lay upon each other, and stack with surprising spontaneity falling in soft folds onto the closet bit to touch in succession.

Forces suck the material into itself beautifully, as if the finest dancer with the softest fingers creates rolling waves with continuous drizzles.

It is sweet and reflective.

An ideal pool for Narcissus to see himself  with the most natural and flattering golden glow.

This is the stuff that we all crave--the flow so uninterrupted and peaceful; the unending progress and possibilities of the process.

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Let’s Play Some Chess

Disappointment in myself flows freely, as the strategies of which I was once so proud are continually proven to be inefficient. I move on to the next phase and develop yet another hypothesis to test. 

Life is constant reformation and many endless games of chess.

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When You Get Knocked Down

You need to write more

before your words disappear and the threads they form cease to bound your insides together so solidly as they should.

You’re bleeding from these shaking veins  that are starved for their fixes of adrenaline and ethanol starved for the passion of the moving starved for your love of exploring But your resources are bare.

Your terrain is barren.

Each emptied echo plateaued and embedded on the silver quicksands of your tongue is stuck.

They suck and tug at the last shards of your soul as the dry wind blows over your calloused lips.

...and yet you still don’t know if the others have relocated to a place you are able to find, or if they’re forever gone and it would be a waste to remain in search

That would be such a shame and so sorrowful, you poor girl.

My, my. You are pitiful and oh so weak, aren’t you? 

Answer me. Why don’t you answer me? I’m trying to help you, my darling.  And what if I don’t answer? What then? You won’t lessen my burdens.  You aren’t willing to love me as I yearn to be loved with purity of palette and pathways and progress through exhausting our abilities of sorts together.

I just wanted someone to watch us grow as we twist and climb and adventure along the curvatures of us that we haven’t known. 

I see them do it, and that is what I want. I long for that type of connection.

I yearn for one that shares that passion for playing and parkour, whilst being playful and fond of intellectualism all the same.  How do I stop looking and focus on myself if what I love and want so deeply and dreadfully requires someone else? 

You say to be in solitude. You say to harness that bright and beautiful energy and give zero thought to the others. Please.

Teach me how! I’m so tired of these whining little mouths that are so ready to shriek and hurt more instead of growing their strength in all areas. 

Please. 

I don’t understand how to specify. This foreign thought seems so narrow-minded when there is so much to learn. 

Please.

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A Howl To Our Wolfpack

I’m deeply and desperately contorted.  The crows claw more deeply, Pinching for stability On my ever weathering grounds, that, Due to my curious and ever naive nature Somehow grow sweeter & softer with time.  My rage feels lost and disheveled.  My spirit retreats quickly As my strengths are utilized. My mind trots thoughtfully after. My heart is left, Slowly beating, with a rigid appearance. It is well-postured, But ever so lonely Without the camaraderie of my most highly-valued parts & pieces. 

I suppose my heart cares for the others too much To chase and challenge the now distant playmates, For whom it longs.

It is too confused by levels of love to move From the common and their beings Into nurturing rays Alone, at first thought But the wolves are beside! A pleasant reminder.  Don’t forget the wolves.  Don’t abandon your brethren. They are waiting patiently for you,  With fur of brilliance & magic that heals your wounds,  Replenishes your energy, And, loves you so unfalteringly  That you feel cruel keeping it distracted while you attempt to mend yourself, Sans wolfpack.  Perhaps you are cruel.  How then are you necessary if you’re alongside anyone else? 

How pure is your love if it reeks of salted rain & spinal shivers as of late? 

We need to run.  We need to grow.  We need to sew these parts together, Become one with our shadows, And expand.  I feel so wild inside-- Wildly comfortable in the wilderness.  Overgrown is unknown Where my happy heart, spirit, & mind call home.  I am mollified by the thought of wind pushing against our cheeks The smell of fresh freedom The sight of chiaroscuro skies The lingering moisture still wetting our partially pursed lips That want nothing more than to retain that fresh sip from the stream To which you’re running parallel.  Adventures ahead keep live flesh on my bones. 

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Regarding Mad Max  |

"If you can't fix what's broken, you'll go insane." 

Fixing the problem is my only option. Never give up. Never surrender.

Every part of my being craves honor. 

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Vienna

If I just do what I want to do everything will always be ok. What I have now might not stay current or true. It might not love me like I want it to, but I will always be ok. I learn from pain. I can adapt. If someone doesn’t realize how wonderful I am/can be for them (and they can’t figure out how to harness it), then I can do better. 

They will obviously justify it in their own way. 

This is definitely an interesting journey and I try to have zero expectations although there are preferences that are tolling if the opposite is too weak to handle my opinions. 

Everything will be ok, no matter what. Life is weird and difficult, and I suppose that is ok too. It has to be.  

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I Want Him To Be My Soulmate

In an ideal world, he would feel the same way.

Many people think awful things about me. Someone might think that I don’t care about them, even if I care more for that person than any other. They might think I am mean, and that I just want to find things to complain about. False. 

I have a good heart. I treat others the way that I want to be treated. If I slip, I expect to be called out because I DO NOT want or intend to be hateful.

He called me a cunt (which was justified at the time). I am actually more proud of him for calling me a cunt when I was actually acting like one. 

I am sometimes a cunt. I expect to be called out when I’m acting so.

I don’t believe I am verbally abusive. I don’t take people’s insecurities and attack them. I make exclamations about things that can help someone progress if they are interested in doing so. People can walk away if they don’t like what I have to say. I won’t chase them. I’m a sneaky animal. I observe. Before “attacking”, I give my prey (potential friends) a chance to explain their goals and intentions, and a chance to leave. If they don’t try to convince me that they are worth my time or if they don’t find it pleasurable to battle me, then they are of no use to me at this point and time. I would rather exert my energies elsewhere.   Additionally, if the “prey” allow themselves to be preyed upon when they can’t hold their own or are perfectly able to walk away, then that is no one’s fault but their own.

I don’t engage in combat with those who don’t step into the ring unless I see them doing something unjust. I also don’t keep striking once I have a KO unless you’re a rotten SOB that is deserving of torture. I am ok with losing. I respect anyone who beats me at my own game. In fact, those are the people that I hold the closest to my heart! My fighting is dirty if you’re a villain, but oh-so-clean and fair if you’re simply seeking a challenge as I am. Without constant challenges, people rot. I never want to rot. That being said, I do thoroughly enjoy torturing bad people until they give up or I influence them enough to change their opinions. I WOULD NEVER intentionally hurt anyone that is a genuine, kind soul. I don’t believe in killing innocence. I don’t believe that engaging in villainous activities is just, unless the outcome will save others.

I am strong. I am opinionated. I believe in complete transparency and I say exactly what is on my mind when I am around friends or people that I trust. Sometimes I do misjudge this. Not everyone that seems to have that particular type of mental strength about them can handle the criticism for which they so openly ask. If I believe that someone can improve, or if I see things differently and I want to help them understand (not necessarily accept) my perspective then I immediately tell them so. I don’t censor myself around those that I perceive as strong, until they prove their weakness to me. 

I’m a lover and a fighter. I love to love, and I love to fight. I fight for love. 

Most humans can’t understand this method of thinking. Some have the capability to understand but don’t yet because no one like me has taken the time to try to explain it to them. Others can’t understand because they are not mentally capable, or simply won’t try because they don’t want to understand that perspective for whatever reason. It makes many feel victimized and uncomfortable. They are not the ones with whom I choose to spend my time. 

I am able to interact and function well with anyone if I choose to do so (until I am proven wrong) but I am just unwilling to verbally coddle people that don’t respect me. If they aren’t able to understand the way that I function or have the courage to tell me so themselves after I tell them how I am, and that I embrace my truest nature, then I do not want to be their friend. 

I don’t want to be friends with people around whom I need to censor myself. I only accept friendship from those who are also uncensored, passionate, creative, entrepreneurial, open-minded intellectuals. My “friendship tests” might anger and offend the weak, the closed-minded or personality types that are contrasting to my own but I like the system that I have developed. 

If you have had the opportunity to receive my criticisms and you refused to do so or you didn’t offer any of your own to me, then we 

I make many mistakes, but I am very willing to admit them if given the opportunity. I try my hardest to fix my faults, and I am progressing more quickly in this area. I want to have more patience and not get so annoyed when others don’t understand the first few times I try to explain something in a very logical and level-headed manner. I want to understand why people are offended by so many things that I don’t find offensive. My intentions are always good, unless I am losing a fight to a villain. This happens, and I accept the consequences. I retrain, rebuild, and rethink. I change my strategy and have an added perspective. The pain that I suffered from that has proven to be beneficial to me in later times, every time. I have been able to handle everything that has been thrown at me thus far, and I will continue to challenge those around me and those close to me until I die. I like it this way, and I don’t dislike anyone else who doesn’t. I love everyone with a good heart, and I will be friends with anyone that can stand up for the good in the world, are open-minded and can admit their faults. 

I should be more tactful in my interactions with people that I consider weak, but I have been avoiding them as of late for fear that I will trample them. 

If I can’t be natural and uncensored around my “friends”, then they aren’t my friends at all. “Loved ones” are not always the same as friends, but a life partner/mate should be able to handle being your best friend and your loved one. If you ask for my protection and you love the way you are, then let me protect you. I will speak no ill of someone that is happy with themselves and their decisions in life. I respect that so highly! I also respect you if you are a good person and don’t want to be around me because we are toxic to each other. No one wants that, and that is understood. Just be honest with me and don’t pretend like you want to be my friend. It’s best to rid my mind of uncertainty. I’ll respect you so much more.

If your mate can’t handle you and you don’t challenge each other or cause each other to progress, then GTFO. That is not a healthy relationship.

NOTE: Everything that I say is my own opinion, and the only expectation that I have (as a result of writing this) is catharsis. Acceptance and/or the attempt to understand is appreciated, but also unnecessary. I know that stream of consciousness writing is cathartic to me, so I do it. It works every time.   

I hope there aren’t grammatical and spelling mistakes in this piece. I am too tired to proofread it at this time.