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[mysticalcats]

it's really gross how you can be self aware enough to know what's going on in your head but you can't actually stop it from happening. i need to grab it like a pigeon that got stuck in a house and throw it out the window. be free

[hullaballouu]

Do you ever look at a property listing on Rightmove or similar and just immediately feel like the house is haunted?

Just looked at one for a beautiful townhouse in London that someone shared in a work channel and it made me feel so uneasy looking through the pictures. 😅

[snoopyoftheday]

snoopy of the day

[1i1yofthevalley-doesntknow]

[hullaballouu]

I just did a software update on my MacBook and wow they really went crazy with the rounded corners didn’t they. I hate it.

[girltalk]

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it’s okay to want something else

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[hullaballouu]

Being in therapy is so weird because for weeks I think I’m making progress (and I am) but then one day it’s like my brain will forget and suddenly I’m just weak and dumb and setting my life on fire for fun because I’ve forgotten how to deal with my own stupid patterns.

I have a session later today and it’s the first one I am physically dreading because I know she’s just going to be like 🤦🏻‍♀️ lol.

It’s only been a week since I last saw her as well which makes it even more pathetic lol.

[hullaballouu]

I have just checked my bank account because usually at this time of the month, I still have over two weeks to go until payday and I’m usually in my overdraft worrying about whether I’ll run out before the next pay comes in. However, this month I have about triple what I usually have in there thanks to my recent promotion pay-rise, and that’s with me having treated myself quite a lot this month 😭 So nice to not feel stressed.

I have already mentioned my weight loss, but I was down on the scale again this morning and it feels so exciting because I think I’ve now gotten to the stage where the changes will really start to show more significantly! I also feel so “normal” when I am out and about now. Before I would always hate anyone looking in my general direction, whereas now I don’t even think about it, just happy to be existing wherever I am.

I do need to shop for a whole new wardrobe but I have no idea what I even want to wear? I’ve always just reached for baggy items to hide my body but I don’t think I need to do that anymore. I bought this top recently that I would NEVERRRRRRRR have even looked at in the past, sleeveless and short! It has feathers around the trim which is v cute though.

Other than that I have no real updates that I think are worth sharing here atm. I will try to be more active but all I do currently is work and gym 🫠 I did get a sewing machine for Christmas though so expect updates on that whenever I decide to go on my learning journey 😅🪡🧵

[hullaballouu]

Pleased with this! 🍉💪🏻

For those used to working with stones and lbs that’s approximately 2 stone 2lbs and for those used to working in lbs only this is about 30/31ish lbs. 😄

[vintage-tigre]

[hullaballouu]

Apparently I went to the gym 249 times last year. Compared with the 6 times I went in 2024, that’s a 4,050% increase. 😂

[hullaballouu]

Hello, happy 2026 🥴 I’m so bad at keeping updates going here. Nothing much has changed since my last update to be honest, still the same old boring stuff 😅

I get paid tomorrow, first promotion paycheque! Excited to see how much extra money will be in there. Going to enjoy this first one and then after that it’s all just going straight into my savings.

✨ manifesting better financials for myself this year. ✨

[hullaballouu]

One of my friends has gone really weird and I don’t know what’s going on really.

We have gone from speaking literally every day, messages or voicenotes, to practically nothing? It seems very random as nothing happened, we haven’t had a falling out or anything. I wasn’t very communicative over Christmas etc because I’ve been very unwell. But he knew that, and didn’t contact me either really.

Now when I’ve been trying to chat etc he will answer but it’s not like it was before. I’ve asked if everything is okay with him and he says it’s all great so I’m not really sure what to do from here? How do you go from talking everyday and meeting up weekly to just nothing at all for no reason? 🫠

[hullaballouu]

It’s like he read this post, he’s been a bit chattier today without me doing anything lol.

[hullaballouu]

One of my friends has gone really weird and I don’t know what’s going on really.

We have gone from speaking literally every day, messages or voicenotes, to practically nothing? It seems very random as nothing happened, we haven’t had a falling out or anything. I wasn’t very communicative over Christmas etc because I’ve been very unwell. But he knew that, and didn’t contact me either really.

Now when I’ve been trying to chat etc he will answer but it’s not like it was before. I’ve asked if everything is okay with him and he says it’s all great so I’m not really sure what to do from here? How do you go from talking everyday and meeting up weekly to just nothing at all for no reason? 🫠

[hullaballouu]

Coming out of hiding to announce that today I managed to do ONE FULL PUSH UP. 😂 How exciting.

I have genuinely been trying for months and could never push myself back up, BUT NOW I CAN!

My weight loss has been stagnant since around June, but I’ve continued to keep my gym routine and my strength is kinda through the roof. To the stage that people don’t want to share weights with me anymore which is kinda funny. 😅

Still doing therapy too, which I am getting a lot out of, even if it’s overwhelming a lot of the time.

And I have a job interview for a promotion at work tomorrow, so that will be a nice way to move into the final month of what has been a mostly positive year for me (with some hiccups).

Feels weird!

[hullaballouu]

I took a picture of myself in the toilet mirror at a bar last week and I whenever I look at it I am shocked at how “normal” sized I look.

[alisonzai]