Time To Turn Around.

The names Kaylan. Though my cup runs dry I always find a drop to spare. It is both my gift and curse. Hoping someday I find someone that's willing to pour back into me.

[hunnybunns]

Where was the question do you want anything from inside. As I sit quietly in the car.

I never lived a life of that kind of worry. They were every day mundane fears. You worry about big things like tax evasion or drug busts.

I worry about when I might get laid next. When we'll make it grocery shopping or what we'll have for dinner.

I'm so attached and detached at the same time from you. The amount of love I hold for you overflows in a way that it's uncontainable. To the point it's read as annoyance. These days I feel like nothing but an annoyance. It's hard feeling like I can't be myself.

I don't feel comfortable dancing in the car with you. I wish I did. And if I did I'm not sire you'd tell me to stop, but I feel you wish I would.

I feel like an outcast. Like your family would have rathered a woman from 5 years ago. Like I stole something that wasn't mine. Im a second thought to peoples plans. Again. An annoyance.

I constantly feel like too much. Like I do things wrong. Too much or boring? It's hard to tell. I'm sure it's all in my head.

It's hard to call things over. I've never been good at ending thing. It's like once you become comfortable in your ways. You would have to uproot your life from scratch. I already gave up everything to be here. I may not have what I want but I'll be better content then replanting myself.

I've stopped speaking up when it inconveniences others. I feel like habits I out grew and strength of come to possess has been slowly removed little by little. My uniqueness slowly fading into the background. I become the girl that regularly says, "whatever you want is fine". Holds me pee for three hours because I don't want to be the reason we stop.

I'm kinda to the point where I've lost myself. Which is my fault. But I've shrunk myself to fit in a box and now I'm scared people won't like who crawls back out. I'm sure it's all my insecurities. He started dating the real me, thats who he fell in love with. But he's not him either. Which one of us is the real version. We worked like that.

The level of pessimism and anger when the smallest things happen. Looking outward with blame instead of inward with a plan. A little problem solving goes a long way. Blame doesn't help anyone get anywhere. And you and your family have so much blame to point at everyone but yourself.

Once the glass is broken it's impossible to put it back together. I struggle with if it's you or me. What I've seen just won't go away. You've made me bitter. And maybe I do need more.

Its hard to tell if I'm being biased and blind or self depreciating and inwardly blaming. The truth is it's both. We both have growth. But I'm scared of losing myself. And I'm scared that somethings aren't changeable and involve me just giving in.

[tawnyisacolor]

sorry i failed facial recognition in the mirror 3 times and got locked out of my brain for 24 hrs

[flopstat]

i think abt anne rice’s answer to “what are your work habits for a novel?” probably every single day

[flopstat]

[crypticauthour]

Even Weird Al has had that™ experience with Tony Hawk

[packder]

[roguetelemetry]

Tony Hawk IS Forrest Gump

[whitepeopletwitter]

[explorerrowan]

While not quite true, it’s a good sentiment.

Don’t pirate books, for example, because while it does hurt the publisher, it hurts the author more, since they’re only paid by their direct sales numbers. Get the book from a library instead, since that drives a sale, supports a public service, and is free to you. (The exception being textbooks. The authors have usually already been paid all they’re ever going to get, if they got paid at all, and the publisher rakes in an obscene profit.)

Don’t pirate indie stuff, whether it’s movies, books, music, art, video games, whatever. If it’s indie, you are directly hurting a creative who just wanted to put something nice into the world, and not being able to eat directly impacts their ability to make more nice things. Caution: certain industries like video games and music are very volatile, and companies that used to be indie might not be anymore but might still be cruising on that indie cred. Similarly, a well-known and well-loved studio you’ve been a fan of for years might seem huge to you but is actually still just a couple schmucks barely scraping by. Look into a company, see how big it is, and if it’s a subsidiary of something larger. If it’s just a few people, don’t steal, but if it’s actually a multi-million dollar company with several dozen employees, yeah, it’s probably fine.

Do pirate from the giant names: Disney, EA, Activision, Warner, Sony, major tv networks, etc. It’s almost guaranteed that the people who actually worked on the project were paid terribly, have gotten all they’re going to get from it, and the company is bringing in so many billions of dollars with each project that you won’t make a dent.

[systlin]

THIS

[tygermama]

Please remember to pirate ethically

[flyingiseasy-landingnotsomuch]

[blondebrainpower]

A British wildlife sanctuary has been forced to separate five parrots who wouldn't stop swearing at visitors. Keepers say the birds encouraged each other to keep cursing, and had to be moved from the main outdoor aviary.  

Billy, Eric, Tyson, Jade and Elsie were removed from view this week, The Associated Press reports. They recently joined the Lincolnshire Wildlife Centre's colony of 200 African gray parrots in August, were put in quarantine together and quickly overwhelmed the staff with their naughty language.  

"We are quite used to parrots swearing, but we've never had five at the same time," the center's chief executive, Steve Nichols, told AP. "Most parrots clam up outside, but for some reason these five relish it."

According to Nichols, none of the zoo's visitors complained about the parrots, and most found them amusing.

"When a parrot tells you to 'f*** off' it amuses people very highly," he said. "It's brought a big smile to a really hard year."

Still, keepers thought it would be best to keep them away from children so not to ruffle any feathers. They were separated and moved to various different areas of the wildlife center so they are unable to provoke each other,

Nichols told BBC News that the parrots "swear to trigger reaction or a response," so seeing people shocked or laughing only encourages the birds to curse more.

"With the five, one would swear and another would laugh and that would carry on," he said.

"I'm hoping they learn different words within colonies," Nichols added. "But if they teach the others bad language and I end up with 250 swearing birds, I don't know what we'll do."

First published on September 30, 2020 

[welcometoyouredoom]

A book crystallized in the ocean

[blluish]

oh mood

[raychleadele]

NO NO NO.

This was not crystallized by the ocean. People. No. This is why artist credit is SO DAMN IMPORTANT THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE MISINFORMED HERE.

Alexis Arnold is an artist who creates crystallized books. Her work is amazing and beautiful, she’s made dozens of these.

This particular one was not made by her, however, it was actually created by Catherine McEver - who was inspired to try it after seeing a show of Alexis Arnold’s work. It’s literally the first picture on Google image results if you search for “crystallized books” and she posted about it on her blog showing other process shots as she made it.

TWO DIFFERENT WOMEN ARE BEING DEPRIVED OF CREDIT FOR THEIR CREATIVITY BECAUSE THIS FALSE INFORMATION IS BEING SPREAD. FUCK THAT.

[hylianshrinemaiden]

Considering how many times I’ve seen the uncredited post on my dash I’m finally going to reblog it, with the proper credits.

[k8katbloggity]

I looked her up and these sculptures are really cool like look at these,

Like they’re so cool!

[apostatively]

#look the only version of the fountainhead that can actually be mistaken for art

omg. you. you are amazing and I fucking love you

[sophiliated]

@pjo-hoo-toa-freakazoid @leestillyeetschappal @kurohiraeth @whythefuckdoiexist

[pitrsattabhaadmeinjaa]

:O

technically we’re ALL, always LARPing, because the Self is only a construct,

[2rsquared]

I want a new character

[theprettyboysclub]

Then make one.

[mundanemelusina]

“Then make one” has the same energy as “then perish” but like. Opposite. Same and opposite.

[alwaysshoutyinphiladelphia]

[lilstinky-deactivated20221002]

anyway! the banana bread vendor at the farmers market is called "better than sex" but this year they changed it to "almost better than sex" which means the bread is just worse this year or girlie got some good dick since last summer

[alicentpark]

lizzo passionately playing her flute, stopping for a hot second to yell BITCH and returning to play is just so powerful

[alisonzai]

bee real, my senior thesis

[lonelysheepling]

Tarot Cards

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[whencartoonsruletheworld]

you know usually i don’t bring up once upon a time as a positive comparison to something but remember how they had an episode of cruella backstory and we thought for the entire runtime they were trying to redeem and explain her actions and then at the end they pulled the carpet out from under us and said “PSYCH, ALL OF THIS WAS A LIE FROM AN UNRELIABLE NARRATOR, SHE’S JUST A BITCH WHO DOES WHAT SHE WANTS” because they somehow understood that some villains don’t need tragic pasts sometimes they’re just rich people? 

[whencartoonsruletheworld]

cruella 2021: she’s just a repressed girlboss we swear :(

once upon a time in like. idr 2014?:

[x]

[stregaomega]

Cruella does not exist in a grey area of morality. She’s literally designed in black and white. She’s a straight up villain and I think that’s just neat. 

[bakurapika]

Also, Twisted had an entire musical number about how all Disney villains were misunderstood heroes of their own story…

…except they’re still all appalled at Cruella.

[catasters]

[radwolf76]

[dognoselover]

im calling myself out on this one

[adhdcognizant-deactivated202110]

👁👄👁

[anxietyproblem]

[wolfinthethorns]

Honestly, in my work as a therapist, I’m seeing this A Lot, and tbh I still don’t have a satisfactory approach to it. A heavy dose of Existentialist “create your own Purpose” tempered with “when the plane’s going down, put your own oxygen mask on first”, but… yeah, there is no ethical way to work on individual emotional distress without acknowledging the systemic socioeconomic, geopolitical fuckery going on at the moment, and the sheer grief that comes with it.

[castielific]

I’m a guidance counselor/psychologist for teenagers and it’s getting really hard to motivate young people to work for a future they don’t believe in. 

 They look at ther future and see global warming, wwIII, unemployement, political unstability, poison in everything  they eat, the earth and animals dying all around them. 

I saw this video where someone was asking french teens in the 50s how they imagine the future would be. The war hadn’t been over for long and yet it was all positive with like peace and flying cars and such. Then they went and ask the same questions to nowadays teens and hell that was depressing. Some still had hope, but it was just that “well I hope I’ll have a nice house and maybe some kid” but there was such a hesitancy to it, like they didn’t dare to hope too much. 

People mock Greta Thunberg but what they don’t get is that when she said “you stole my dreams”, it was the truth. 

Young people don’t get to dream like they used to. They don’t dream anymore, they grief all that won’t be anymore and that’s just so fucking sad. 

[0jamajos]

The fact that both the tweet and these reblogs are pre-pandemic makes this post even worse