hyacinth

just finished reading crooked kingdom and i refuse to get out of bed for the rest of the month. goodbye.

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Nomenclature.

I’ve seen that word twice now. The first time in Babel by R.F Kuang and the second time in Yellowface by R.F kuang

I think I’ve read the entire Percy Jackson series and didn’t see that word once but encountered it twice in rf kuang

Which really doesn’t mean anything in fact this post is meaningless I just thought it was cool, like I’m seeing the author behind their book by the words they use The way u notice the words ur friends often say

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am i mentally ill

when i get a crush a dont kick my feet while thinking of them i feel like im cuffed to a chair at the psych ward trying to forget i ever liked anyone

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and god im so angry because you can't really prepare for the grief that comes with ending friendships. like no i don't want to talk to you no i don't want to see u ever again no dont i think about u when i get ice cream cuz i know you love the vanilla one

how do you..how do you even deal for something like that? we used to dream about going to the same uni and sharing an apartment and now i never want to hear a single thing about her life

[nonetoon]

[nonetoon]

I made this in reference to comic/game stuff but I’m glad to see this one’s going over well with all the writers

[sarroora]

Reblog to give your followers and mutuals the strength to continue

[the-haiku-bot]

Reblog to give your

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Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[trashyygarlic]

"your ship will never be canon" you silly silly boi

I don't want my ship to be canon

I don't care what happens in canon

To me canon is just another fanfic that I really like

I'm here for the fanfics, the fanarts, the memes, the people and the vibe

My fav ship being canon is the last of my concern

[carrotstache]

“In your gaze where I’m seen / Consume me”

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the first and last time Till actually sees Ivan is moment ivan takes his last breath im SICK

[chiisana-lion]

but can i talk about these shots specifically please. its so tender and hopeless i think this single act alone made me lose my mind more than the kiss im

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IM SICKKK

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IvanTill fic list (pt.1?)

i discovered alien stage ystd and now it has taken over my life

No, This isn't a "Y/N" moment by sybssite

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55541032

Ivan is an idol and Till is the guy behind the most popular ivan fansite

SO CUTE?? and well-written! I love the dynamic between Sua Mizi and Till

Luka and ivan banter is also amusing to read

courtship gifts from a seven year old by yamscooper

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55118848

ivan got turned into a child!

it's such a funny and sweet read and I like how kid ivan is still a menace who's enamoured by till

also really like the sua & Ivan interactions they're like siblings

break a heart, stitch it right back by yamscooper

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55194664

ivantill established relationship

so sweet i got cavities

it's great trust

First Live by akitsukun

https://archiveofourown.org/works/44555566

my personal favorite!

idol ivan is secretly a fan (the very first) of small musician till

it's lighthearted and sweet and fun to read

it's good for pretending the 6th round didn't happen ;-;

that's it for now!

there's a bunch of other good ones I haven't read yet but am so excited to read. I've only read fluff ones so far someone pls recommend some good (painful, chest-wrenching) alnst angst fics

[hyacinthically]

blue lock ch242 made me sad for ness

listen im not a fan of ness but i would gladly fight his family for him. imagine being so emotionally constipated that you can't let a CHILD play pretend and use his imagination??? these ppl have a stick wedged so far up their asses that u can see it when they open their mouths like-

"people who foolishly believe in the impossible are not wanted in this house."

to a kid playing with a snowman. He's a kid?? Hello??

being realistic is good but crushing the spirit of your child and turning him into a robot is soul-sucking and just plain cruel

don't even get me started on his siblings

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i just remembered i was kinda homophobic back in 5th grade but i was also watching Sakura Trick (gl anime) at the same time and for some reason it never occurred to me that i was fruity?

i even rewatched a kiss scene multiple times????? and then i went to school all homophobic and shit???? like did i leave the lesbian part of me at home when i went to school????

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my brother: why did you buy the Iliad? its just about the Trojan War and the surprise horse. i could summarize it

me, the song of achilles on my desk, and the ghost of homer by my side:

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i enter this saintsforsaken site once every three to five months just to unload any emotional baggage ive been carrying and shoving into the most obscure parts of me and it really shows

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get me a tissue

i’ve never understood why/how people were so close or cried over their online friends but now i get it. because for the first time in my life i had the guts to say “i love you guys” to a bunch of people ive never even met in real life, not knowing if they’re really who they say they are, and mean every word. so. im gonna go screamcry in the club now. 

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god im so fucking angry. like i could stab myself over and over and over and over again and it still wouldn’t measure up to the pain i feel from biting back all the things i want to say. 

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i keep thinking about how things r so easily forgotten

take my journals for example. once i’ve reached the last page i would buy a new one. all the thoughts and words i’ve put on paper, which were all so very important to me in that moment, are now all discarded and thrown into the drawer where my other finished journals sit collecting dust. and sooner or later the things i’ve written, even if immortalized on paper, will fade from my memory. 

and it makes me kinda sad because i don’t want my memories to fade. i don’t want the things i write down (with the intention of keeping it forever) to be forgotten.

[hyacinthically]

i feel like i should apologize to the people who believe in me

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storm

my dog is scared of storms and she would try to go into my room (or my brothers’ across from mine) but my mom forbids us from letting her in so I’d sit outside of my room with her and she’d be trembling so i let her sleep on my lap and I sing softly for her until the storm stops