[bakwaaas]

I leave a piece of me in everyone I’ve ever loved and every place I’ve lived and I can’t let go of anything and my heart aches with the weight of it all

[mavisbey-blog-deactivated202301]

[zeldasnotes]

”It is never too late to be what you might have been.” 💘

[ninasdrafts]

“It didn’t take me long to realise that I was no good at letting you go. The smallest things would make me crumble, the most insignificant moments would make me remember. And that might have been the point where I failed: in order to move on, I did not want to forget about you. I needed to remember. I wanted to. I owed you as much. You had never let me down in the past. It wasn’t your fault that we hadn’t made it in the end, just as it wasn’t mine. So when after a couple of months I figured out that I could not move on, I called you and said: “Let’s do it differently this time”, and I asked you to tell me only three things you wanted me to remember you by. The rules to this game were simple. I was not allowed to be sidetracked. Except for the three things you’d tell me, I’d have to discard every other memory I had of you until I successfully let you go. I guess you wanted to make it easy for me, but hearing your voice was enough to make my heart sink. You told me to remember how you would need hours to fall asleep the day before an important event and how you would keep me awake as well, desperate to talk through the schedule of the next day. You told me to think of how you could not go a day without calling your mother and how her opinion was more important to you than anything else, sometimes even than mine. Then you reminded me that with you, I’d never be on time. You were always running late, so in the end I’d resulted to telling you to be ready at six, even though we wouldn’t have to leave until six thirty. You chuckled at the memories. My throat went dry. I hung up the phone without saying goodbye. You probably thought you’d done me a favour, but if this was one thing, it was not easy. You’d listed your worst traits and all I could think about was that I wanted to have that again, no matter the consequences. How I would trade anything in the world to get it back. And that was when I realised that I was not ready. That I would probably move on at some point, but that I simply hadn’t got there yet, and that it was okay. That I had all the time in the world to let you go at my own pace and that the only things that would help me were distance and time. And so I kept every memory of you that I liked, but I made a point of trying to remember you a little less every day. On some days it would work and on others it would not. Even on bad days, I convinced myself it did not really matter, because another year went by before I picked up my phone again and dialed your number. And when I heard your voice on the other end, my heart did not sink in my chest. It soared. It celebrated. I was ready.”

— ready to let you go / n.j.

[lostlittleemo-deactivated202505]

Goodbye

So this is it, my final goodbye. Part of me wishes that the stars would collide for one last time and the planets would align so we can have our moment again. But I guess some things are never meant to happen again. I wish for you the greatest things on all your greatest dreams, even if that means they take you far away from me. Just like the stars I'll be watching from afar, just like the moon even if you don't look back I'll be watching over you. I guess this is where the end of our roads meet, and I'm willing to cut our red string of faith. I love you, but I feel like I can't anymore, I'm so beat.

[adreoss]

The Reason I Said Goodbye to Her...

A Path for One

You were everything I was looking for, I always thought you deserved the whole world. Unfortunately, I am crippled at love, And you are so full of it. It would have been selfish to delay you. Go! Don’t look back. I will be here watching you being happy, It will give me the strength to continue the race. Go! Don’t look back. It will make my heart not stop its pace.

You were always right, But that doesn’t mean I was at all wrong.

You wanted to walk beside me in darkness, But It’s safer for me to walk alone down that road. I don’t want anyone to have a taste of it. It may break you and change you. I didn’t want to infect your kind heart with darkness… I just wanted to protect you.

I want you to be free. I want your eyes to keep shining. I want your smile to keep showing. And I don’t want your happiness ever to tremble.

I have always felt that I am not good, And that is why I want you all to be far. My brain works weirdly. I thought it was hatred, but I realized. It is my way to love you.

You might have thought you were not enough, You may have believed it was your fault, You could have fallen for a while because of me, But with me, you would have been at risk of never coming back, And I would have never forgiven myself for that part.

What was our success? Maybe it was the fact that I was not sure you were mine, And you were not sure I was yours, But deep inside our souls, We knew we were for each other. But it seems like now we will forever be a good goodbye.

I can’t lie to you. I dreamt about you every night, I thought about you every day, I hoped for you to come back every sunrise, And reality destroyed me every sunset.

By doing all this, I was afraid of two things, That you will forget me, and that you will never forgive me.

I never enjoyed other lips. I never had much fun with anyone else. And I understood, I will forever lack you.

And this is the only way this broken guy learned, And this is the only way this broken guy knows, And this is the only way I am able to show, How much I cared, And how much I loved.

Adreoss

[hel7l7]

I don’t know how to let this go, everything this life has taken from me had to be pried out of my fisted hands

[namitha]

Anything you avoid in life will come back, over and over again, until you’re willing to face it – to deeply look into its true nature. Again, the only way to know that we’ve seen into the true nature of something is that the story we’re telling ourselves releases. It is not only seen to be illusion; it is felt to be illusion. That’s the choice you have – to be a victim to your own ideas and beliefs, or to feel into them until they drop away.

🌿 Adyashanti

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[missinyouiskillingme]

When I told you we had to end it, that we had to go on our own separate paths, I wanted you to say no. I wanted you to tell me you would never let me go. I wanted you to say that you couldn’t imagine living life without me, that you would never love anyone as much as you loved me, even if it sounds a little selfish. I wanted you to fight for me, to stop me from leaving. But all you said was, “I’ve been thinking the same thing for a while now.”

[conscious-love]

I guess that's just part of loving people: You have to give things up. Sometimes you even have to give them up.

Lauren Oliver

[happyheidi]

𝘈𝘯𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘸 𝘚. 𝘉𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯

[heavensghost]

Words from light of love by Florence + the machine stitched onto fabric

[foxeia]

Louise

[leahberman]

westward; point dume, california

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[arquerio]

[angelsaxis]

Clarence Thomas is seriously talking about overturning the cases that got us contraceptive rights, same-sex relationships, and same-sex marriage and at the same time, various states and conservatives are going out of their way to attack trans rights in every way imagineable. I'm not exaggerating when I say that after this they'd probably seriously consider undoing things like interracial marriage or ~leaving it to the states~. This country is a mess.

[lindsayrapp]