do re mi fa so fucking done

psycho emo fuck | this is kind of a vent blog I guess?

[hyprspc]

god i cant wait til this dog sitting job is done

[hyprspc]

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[hyprspc]

I used to think I’d gotten better but really I just. Stopped talking about it.

I’m in a Bad Place but it’s a different Bad Place than last year. End feeling is the same tho and that’s craving death.

[ukochane-deactivated20200303]

my levels

1. sad 2. super sad  3. ultra sad 

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

i know it’s hard, so the fact that you’re still standing despite every thing the world has thrown at you is more than amazing; i know you can keep going; it’s going to be okay, you can do this

[borderlinebpd]

Me @ my BPD: can I just have one (1) day? ONE day???? where I don’t have to deal with this shit

BPD: fuck you and here’s an extra mood swing for ya. don’t let the door hit ya on the way out kiddo

[hyprspc]

lmfao yet another job rejection hahahaha im worthless :D

[delusioncontusion-deactivated20]

me: drinking tea, enjoying life, wearing a cute outfit me, not even ten seconds later: sobbing, dying, feeling worthless and suicidal, wishing i were never born, suffering, dying, and dying,,

[toasthag]

me: i’m super stressed abt this :/

brain: aw no sweat, if things don’t work out, you can always die! :)

[dr0wnedperfectionist]

Being depressed is really weird because you want someone to care enough to check on you but you don’t want someone to care enough to worry about you

[brainpunkd]

it’s scary how when i think of the future my mind immediately jumps to “youre gonna kill yourself soon anyways so you dont have to worry about it”

[stalagtites-s]

who cares if i scratch up my arms !! it never mattered !!

[squareclocks]

I fucking hate it when you’re in such a fantastically giddy mood and then you see one simple little thing that makes you think, “oh” and then you just get this empty feeling in your chest and you get nauseous and the world just crumbles and you want to just lay under a blanket and close your eyes and fall asleep and never wake up. 

[fini-mun]

From what my therapist told me, this happens because our emotions aren’t really on the ‘opposite’ ends like we tend to think of it. Happiness is not ‘up’ and sadness is not ‘down’-. In a way they’re actually right ‘next’ to each other.

If you’re super happy, it can turn into super sad very easily, because your emotions are already highly elevated and it’s only a very minor shift as far as your brain is concerned.

Knowing this can help you fight it, and it can help you be more aware of what’s going on while you’re happy and help avoid shifting towards misery.

I used to always wonder why it seemed like my happy days ‘couldn’t last’ or that bad things would ‘always’ happen when I was happy. It’s not that happiness is doomed to fail, it’s that emotions are volatile. I hope that helps people who experience this too- when you understand what’s going on more it’s easier to manage.

[bean-pd]

when people with bpd talk about their mood going from ecstatic and euphoric to completely suicidal in 3.7 seconds we’re not exaggerating. the other day i was in one of the best moods i’d had in weeks, months and one small argument w one person at work literally sent me in such a downward spiral that i relapsed and cut and wanted to end my life. we’re not joking when we talk about this and if you don’t have bpd please don’t reblog our posts and add things like “omg so relatable” bc it’s hell. this isn’t some trend or whatever

[pokemon-personalities]

i just want to say that if you are having a tough time today, there is someone out there who wishes the best for you and is rooting for you, even if it does not always feel like it. there is love and warmth and acceptance out there for you and i hope you are able to hold on to that until you really feel it… you deserve to feel like you matter

[stalagtites-s]

who cares if i scratch up my arms !! it never mattered !!

[dankmemesreasonforliving]