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I just found out that my biological father passed away last year. I’ve met him before but don’t know him and had nothing to do with him throughout my life - his choice. I made several attempts to connect but was rejected each time. I was only saying to my friend last night that I would regret not persevering if he were to pass away and I hadn’t tried harder but not regret it enough to go through the rejection again. Little did I know that he had already passsd away in June 2019. I googled him as I do from time to time and his funeral notice appeared. His funeral took place 15 minutes from where I live. I feel so confused right now and don’t know how to process these feelings.

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I don’t really post much on tumblr these days but looking through my text posts and realising how negative I am. I want to write something good. I have a lot of shitty things happening in my life but that’s life, there are always going to be shitty things. One big, fat positive which I’ve never had is I love my job. I have never loved a job I’ve had before. This has changed my life in the most amazing way, I cannot tell you. If you are unhappy in your job right now, I implore you to keep your head up and search for something else. Work hard to get where you want to go and don’t give up. Before getting this role, I had resigned myself to the fact that I would forever be unhappy at work because all jobs suck eventually but it’s just not true and all it takes is a good team and work/life balance to actually bring that to light. Don’t get me wrong, I still wake up every day and wonder if I can call in sick but that’s only because I love sleep and my bed more than anything else. I am blessed.

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