Amatonormativity makes it so hard to even be motivated to socialize with people. In my experience if I talk to other women, most of them only ever want to talk about dating and/or marriage, and if I talk to men, I run the risk of them assuming I’m flirting with them because everything I do is considered a “sign”. Is there really nothing else? Does no one want anything else that isn’t related to sex or romance??? It feels like it’s been ages since I’ve been able to talk about a favorite movie or book or song with someone. In the past if I came across something I fell in love with, I’d immediately try to announce it to the world. Nowadays even when I get excited, I just suppress it because no one is interested. I try to focus on how happy my activities and hobbies make me to distract myself from how lonely it’s been living like this, but every once and a while it hits me that I’m really lonely. I want to believe that not everyone is like this, but it’s getting harder and harder to each day.
Submitted April 1, 2023
