Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled

This site is about How going through Very Bad things in life, and how I learned not to let it get to you. I am also a nudist so there will be nudity on here. I am a Very open person, I will be glad to answer any questions. So feel free to send messages.

[iamshania]

Thank you, Jesus

I am a child of God and I do Love talking and learning about him. God had told me which Pastor to listen too. I did and learned so much. I also found a couple others that preached simular too. I listened and supported them for years. Then one said over and over that all transgenders hate God. So I canceled my support. Because God loves all his children and doesn't want anyone to perish. I love God, Jesus and Holy Spirit more than I have ever loved anyone else. Plus if you've read my life story you know that God speaks and directs me in so much. Including my transition. When to do what. And I had prayed alot before ever starting it. To make sure it was okay. God told me Galationd 3:28 which is God does not see us as Greek or Jew. Slave or Free. Male or Female. He sees our soul. Only on earth do we see all this physical stuff. Eternity is what is now invisable to us and that is the real world. Not this physical world. The only requirement to go to heaven and live forever is to accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior. If you don't that is the only unforgivable sin you can do.

[iamshania]

Tumblr is really getting bad.

This site is blocking every picture of my car project on here. The car is NOT naked. But uf this continues I will alsi be leaving this site. They are realky carrying this too far.

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It won't let me post any pictures. I will try later.

[iamshania]

Single in Vegas

I have been here in Las Vegas now for almost 23 full years. I still haven't had one date yet. I have had a lotvofbprople say they want to, but none have. I have never lived in one town this long. I have been in my homebnow ten years. That too is a new record. I really don't like being in a city. I am a country girl and I love living in the counrty. Nut I do have to see a lot of doctots now so it is probably better to be here. My home and yard look like I'm in Oregon or Washington. So I do have that and Love being on my yard. I will put some pictures above this so you can see. I has been about 14 months since my surgery for weightloss. I am still looking vert good and keeping it off. I am holding at losing 85 pounds.I am trying to loss about 15 more.

[iamshania]

This is my new project. Gonna rebuild it completely. New color in and out. It is Yellow/black gonna be Green and Black exterior. Green and brown interior.

[iamshania]

God saved me again

Well this is the update on my move to California. It didn't happen. The guy that said he was so in love with me. Is one of the guys tbat is wanted for muder of at least 25 people here in vegas. Part of the group I talked about before. He was trying to pretend that he was flying into vegas and I was suppose to pick him up. When I broke it off with him he got so mad. Yelling like a madman. And said tbat he woud have killed me and would have loved evey second of it. Still I haven't done anything to anybody. They are evil people.

[iamshania]

My project last year. It was in sad shape before I started. This is the after picture.

[iamshania]

Alone and lonely

I am now looking very nice. I'm thin, have great breast, beautiful legs. Nice face. So I start thinking maybe it's time to find someone. Then the doctor tells me I have inner ear damage, plus P.T.S.D. and C.O.P.D. Why should I try to find someone now. Nobody that I've ever known whats to take care of anyone except them selves. Even when I was married. As soon as I got hurt the first time my wife started sleeping with anyone who would look at her. Since her I haven't met anyone who feels cheating is wrong. That is why I have been alone now for real close to 30 years. I've had some friends but not a sexual partner. Too many problems with people who sleep around.

[iamshania]

Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled turned 2 today!

[iamshania]

The only bad part of weightloss

Like I said I had weightloss surgery in March. Now it is December. I have lost 87 pounds. But there is a 33-45% chance of developing gallstones. Due to rapid weightloss. And I was one of them. My surgery is suppose to be the first week on January. The first gallstone attack was bad. A very bad pain in my stomach. Then five and a half hours of vomiting. Nothing in my stomach but still over and over, non stop for 5 1/2 hours. Plus every bone in my body hurt so bad it felt like they were all broken. Finally I was taken to the hospital and they told me my gallblader has to come out. This has been the only pain and only bad part of my weightloss. I have reached my gial weight in 8 months. I'm happy.

[iamshania]

I'm back

My phone got erased. And its taken over a month to get back in my own site. But I am back. Thank you followers and readers.

[iamshania]

Update on me!

I have now lost 80 pounds since my surgery. It is really nice. I feel so much better, I can move easier, without as much pain. I still hurt but not as much. I'm getting alot more of good attention. Even getting flurted with again. It has been a wonderful experience. All in all it was pretty much pain free. It is called a beriatric vertical sleeve. They remove 4/5 of your stomach. Which for me was also where my ulcer was. It's gone. No more burning, or pain

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Is it Really True?

For the last twenty six or so years. I have been told repeatedly that I am one of a kind. Plus that if I want to meet someone to spend my life with, that I have to change what I'm looking for in someone. I thought they were wrong. With all the people here and now there has to be someone else that wants the same thing I do. Twenty six years later I still haven't found anyone. I really didn't think it would be so hard. This is how I am and I want someone the same way

Non smoker, No drugs at all. (Yes even 420), No alcohol, Non Gambler, Must be honest, Loyal, and trustworthy. Non violent person. See it is not that demanding. Every person that goes to church or claim to be a Christian should already live like this. But you know. I haven't found one person in my whole life who lived like this. Except for me. I am really disappointed with all the do called Christian's. I go in a church and most of them stink of cigarette smoke. Others of alcohol. And yet others just stink. Stuck up fools. I have been to alot of churches. In all my life I can count the real Christian's I have met on one hand.

[iamshania]

I'm not a target and positively am not Stupid.

So many people think a transgender is a easy person to con. They all think we have $50,000 in our bank or in our home. Just waiting for them to come and get it. Sure there are probably alot of them that have more than I do. But if we had that much. It would already be spent on what we were saving for. To fix our body to help us be who we really are. Because insurance does not pay for any of it. I have sat in my car in a parking lot. Away from everyone. Within a few minutes the beggers had spotted me and all came to me for money. Even if I park in the middle of everyone it still happens. I've had over a dozen con men online on dating sites try to pull scams on me. But I always see it coming. I let them build it all up and then tell them how stupid they are. Eleven of the twelve used the service exact script. That makes it easier to spot them. The other altered it but it was still very easy to spot. I saw it about ten days before he got to it.

Yes, we get lonely. Yes we want Love. No it is not wrong what we do. But it is wrong what people do to us. They are the ones who God will judge. The Bible clearly says. God does not see us as men or women. If you want to know where read my other post. I have it all in there.

[iamshania]

Yes, remind me why I'm single.

I did give in to temptation and joined a dating site. I meet someone that really felt right. We talked for a couple weeks and was planning on me flying over and spending a week to get to know each other better. Then he reminded me, not by word but with his actions. Why I Am Single. Out of nowhere I was being accused of several things that I did not do. Three times within an hour he accused me again of it. The first time I tried to explain it and the fact that I don't do those things. The third time I told him, Goodbye! I am not going to be with some one again who is always claiming I'm doing things that I don't do. I don't care how much you promise you'll do for me. If I have to go through Hell to be with you. Your not worth it

[iamshania]

Not to much has changed.

Before I started writing on here, I did write a book about my life. Everything that I have been through. The reason was, I had seen some counclers, Doctors, Pastors, friends and others who had heard part of what I've been through. They all told me that If there was a book out about this and showed how great I turned out. It would help so many people. So I thought about it and wrote my book. Then when it was done, it was time to try to get it printed. I found out it was going to cost me over $2,000.00. Living on social security disability I don't have and cannot get that much money. This girl that had always been a friend to me. Since High School. Plus the only friend I had there. Heard about it and told me she works at a printing company and really wanted to get it printed for me. So I trusted her. Sent her a copy. First she was sick. Couldn't do it yet. Then she wanted to read it. Next she couldn't read it because there was too much bad things in it that I went through. So she couldn't read it no more. Then she quit talking to me. Now my computer died. I can't get my copy out of it. I asked her if she would send my copy back do I can try something else. She ignores me and won't respond. See no matter how hard you try to trust people, they always get you. One way or another. Good News, She finally answered me and sent my book back. So now, when I get a new computer I will still have my book