Hi! My name is Dora, I am 21, and I am a devout* Catholic woman.
I have past posts about LGBTQ+ stuff, Anarchism, Punk, etc...please ignore them! I do not identify with any of those things anymore— or anything that is against Catholic teaching.
This blog is for expressing my love for Jesus and Catholicism in general.
Info about me
- My Confirmation saint is St. Teresa of Ávila.
- As of July 15, 2026, I have formerly betrothed myself to Christ personally (not by the Church yet).
- I am called to the religious / consecrated life as my vocation, so that will be a lot of my focus too on this blog.
If anyone is seeking God, the Beloved is seeking that person much more.
St. John of the Cross, 1991. The Collected Works of St. John of the Cross. Translated by K. Kavanaugh and O. Rodriguez. 3rd ed. Washington, DC: ICS Publications, p. 683.
it has only been about two months since i have been baptized and confirmed into the Catholic church, yet i already feel like i am drifting away from Christ through my fault and laziness. i haven’t been able to make it to mass in almost three weeks and i’ve felt exhausted and stuck in a cycle of laying in bed all day and forgetting to pray, or just flat out not doing it even though i do remember. i’ve been sucked into sinning more as a result, lying and blaspheming. i need prayers, please. i just feel so far from God.
I went through the exact same thing, except the sins I fell back into were different. Trust me, when I received the sacrament of Confirmation back in April, shortly after I BOTTOMED. My spirit was completely broken. I was contemplating.
But after a few months, now I came right back.
My advice is to stay with God. Just stay. When I mean stay, I mean hold onto that little thread. Even if you only pray once a day or barely pray. Even if you constantly sin. Keep getting back up and try again. And again. And again. And again. And again. And again. And again. And again.
Because that's what I had to do. I continued to sin, my prayer life was struggling, I was having doubts about the Catholic faith, and I even tripped back into old LGBT identity. But the only thing that saved me through it was holding on by a thread for months, and having faith and trust in God that it would get better. That He will pull me out of it as long as I stay with Him in some way. You don't really think it will in the moment. But after those months, I began to flourish and come out of my depression. Restored my spiritual and prayer life, identified myself in Christ again, and fought back against the snares of the devil.
And that's exactly what the cause is. The devil. Satan. The devil HATES the fact that we came home to the Catholic Church. It disgusts him, revolts him. Any amount of doubt that we have would bring him happiness and satisfaction. Knowing that, it gave me all the more reason to hold onto the thread.
So, keep trying. Get back up. Hold on. Keep going.
Just a reminder that the US has only been safe for Catholics to exist in for about 62 years.
There used to be religious tests. Catholics used to be barred legally from having Mass and other public displays of faith. People were denied housing, employment, healthcare, and education if they were Catholic.
People viewed Catholics as sub-human, devil spawn, etc. Of course this is primarily in reference to the Irish and Italian immigrants of the Ellis Island era, but still my point stands.
The USA, as long as White Christian Nationalism exists, can never and will never exist because we all know that the people in the government favour only one kind of Christian, and its not the Catholics.
Sources under the cut
Works cited
Harrison, Rick. “Understanding White Christian Nationalism.” Institution for Social and Policy Studies, Yale University, 4 Oct. 2022, isps.yale.edu/news/2022-10-04-understanding-white-christian-nationalism.
Regarding white Christian nationalism and its inherent preference for/foundations in Protestant theology and doctrine with little to no room for any outside interpretations, beliefs, or preferences. White Christian nationalism is regarded as exclusionary and hinted at being volatile, racially and religiously, within the article.
Neuhaus, Richard John. “Catholics, Protestants, and the Meanings of Freedom.” First Things, 1 Oct. 2003, firstthings.com/catholics-protestants-and-the-meanings-of-freedom/.
Regarding legal hurdles and anti-Catholic sentiments that Catholic citizens were once faced with in the United States of America.
United States History II, Lumen Learning, courses.lumenlearning.com/wm-ushistory2/chapter/primary-source-john-f-kennedy-on-the-separation-of-church-and-state-1960/. Accessed 11 Aug. 2026.
"American Anti-Catholicism had softened in the aftermath of World War II, but no Catholic had ever been elected president and Protestant Americans had long been suspicious of Catholic politicians when John F. Kennedy ran for the presidency in 1960. ... On September 12, 1960, Kennedy addressed the Greater Houston Ministerial Association and he not only allayed popular fears of his Catholic faith, he delivered a seminal statement on the separation of church and state."
Walfred, Michele. “Subhuman.” Tag Archives: Subhuman, 1 Mar. 2016, thomasnastcartoons.com/tag/subhuman/.
Regarding the depictions of Catholic immigrants within denigrating political cartoons from the early and mid-19th century.
I have replenished my spiritual health, bettered my relationship with God, and reconnected with my identity in Christ. I went to Confession, deepened my prayer life, started going to Mass more weekly, formerly betrothed myself to Jesus, and talked with my spiritual director. I'm doing SO much better spiritually and mentally!
Went on Reddit to look at trans bears (self indulgent I know) so I searched "ftm bear" and I was met with a transphobic post about trans men
It was a drawing of a trans man manspreading with period blood dripping from his crotch. He was asking for passing tips and there were two guys calling him a girl in the background. The caption was something like cringe trans men something I don't remember. The comments were making fun of him.
*clenching teeth, on the verge of tears* God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference
