Word.

"She wasn’t doing a thing that I could see, except standing there leaning on the balcony railing, holding the universe together.” - J.D. Salinger

[icecalescence]

Perhaps it's impossible to wear an identity without becoming what you pretend to be.

Orson Scott Card — Ender’s Game

[icecalescence]

We're all whores, Grace. We just sell different parts of ourselves.

Peaky Blinders (2013)

[icecalescence]

And all the lives we ever lived and all the lives to be are full of trees and changing leaves.

Virginia Woolf — To The Lighthouse

[icecalescence]

I want someone who is fierce and will love me until death and knows that love is as strong as death, and be on my side forever and ever. I want someone who will destroy and be destroyed by me.

Jeanette Winterson — Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit

[icecalescence]

I know, it's crazy to believe in silly things, but it's not that easy.

Kodaline — High Hopes

[icecalescence]

In Adoring Arms

Love is standing at the core of a waterfall Grasping at its beauty with both hands But watching as the water crash and slip, Crash and slip. Never to have, Never to hold. Drenched, but still Desperately reaching, hoping that For a moment you feel a sense of control. Feel, before it disappears again, but it Keeps falling. Intangible, Insatiable, Infinite. What I would give to feel so helpless again.

[icecalescence]

Maybe tonight I'll call you, after my blood is drowning in alcohol.

Ed Sheeran — Give Me Love

[icecalescence]

A Wondering Mind, A Wandering Heart

This insatiable desire for the unknown, the yearning for the unfamiliar, where do they come from? I long to visit places I've never been to, discover things I've never seen before. Yet the more I roam the more I crave, the more I see the more there seem to be.

Is it because I haven't found the reason to stay? Or maybe I have, but am not ready to accept. There's a whole world out there that I will never finish exploring, but maybe there's a whole world in a place, or a person.

- g

[icecalescence]

Fairy Tales

I’d dream of you arriving in the pumpkin carriage, smiling in that cobalt dress while tiptoeing in your glass shoes. Magical as the night would be, however far you wander, I’d always find you again.

I’d travel the world just to hear your voice once more. It wouldn’t matter if you were the beauty and I, the beast, or how some witch might try to tear us apart. I’d fight the maleficent then kiss you awake, and we would live happily ever after.

I’d dream of us as a fairytale, but find myself awake as the clock strikes 12 only to find that you’re not here,

and then I’d realize that I’m no prince, and fairy tales don’t exist.

- g

[icecalescence]

How I Would Know

“How would you know if you’re in love?” you’d ask.

“When I can write again, about her, the same way I wrote about you.” I’d reply.

- g

[icecalescence]

Broken Hearts

When glasses break, they shatter, into a million tiny pieces of matter. Once whole, now hollow, never to be one again.

When dawn breaks, the earth splits, the sky hues from black to blue. The lights creep, the birds tweet the dawn of a new beginning.

When hearts break, no sound they make, except, the beating, from its being, yet, what is felt, is more than breaking, a yearning, of simply, disappearing.

- g

[icecalescence]

Enervation

I tried masking my pain with scotch piercing through my veins yet even the churn from this burn just a scratch beside the torture from that rupture in my lungs from chasing your elusive figure

- g

[icecalescence]

Valentine

He said he wouldn’t buy her a flower Because all it does is eventually wither So he folded her one out of paper — Out of an already withered tree.

- g

[icecalescence]

There's something disturbing about recalling a warm memory and feeling utterly cold.

Gone Girl (2014)

[icecalescence]

Scars

Scars —

graveyard of a heart’s cry, the numbing metallic taste like the blade that slid by.

testament to how emotional wounds hurt — lacerate — more than any physical turmoil — scars/suicide?

no matter how strong you become, they’ll always be reminders of how weak you once were.

- g

[icecalescence]

Pendulum

And again, I dreamt of you. I don’t remember much of what else the dream entailed, except that I saw only you. You were smiling— not like the way you left, but like the day we met.

You were happy, and so was I. Like a cassette I replayed what stories my mind told me to, what I chose to believe in. But I woke up, cold and alone once more, surrendering to your absence.

And again, in the pendulum of consciousness, I wondered if you were dreaming of me too.

- g

[icecalescence]

The Brightest Star

I stayed up all night searching for the brightest star that could light my darkest corners from afar, but fell asleep before the moon gave way to the Sun that gave life to the day.

- g