don't kiss me goodbye again

Madisen Billings, 19, ΣΦΑ Pres; Eternally obsessed with iced coffee and trivial matters of the heart. "We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once." -Friedrich Nietzche FOREVER IN MY HEART ♥

[idkmadisen]

skype call → gavs

[gavin-callahan]

A laugh escaped from between his chapped lips as Madi spoke, the sound of her voice calming him. He brought his hand to his heart, his mouth gaping in shock as he feigned disappointment. “Wait a second…” he leaned closer to the camera, as if to get a better look, “you’re not Beyonce. Sorry, I think I picked up the wrong call.” He smirked, falling back into the easy pattern of banter that had supported their friendship for so many years. It was comfortable; it was warm, and inviting, and everything else good in the world— Madi’s voice and eyes and smile brought him home. This time, though, seeing her also ignited an intense, aching loneliness in the hollows of his bones, a desire to forget the chaotic politics of his family and return to the simplicity that was Kingston University and Madisen Bilings. “I have all the hours for little ol’ you, Mads, you know that. Although, I might have to jet if I get another call from one of my many suitors. Can’t keep the fans waiting, you know?”

[idkmadisen]

Rolling her eyes over-dramatically and throwing a hand up in disbelief, Madisen tried to fight off her laughter that pressed against the edges of her closed lips. "Please, if I'm not the closest you'll ever get to Beyoncé, than you're delusional," and she let the laughter pour out as soon as she had finished her comeback. The familiarity in his inviting smile was something people took for granted more than they should, something that Madi never did; the way she so easily fell back into a routine that was never overworked with him was welcoming and she was thankful for it. Gavin was honestly the one person she was sure that would never fail to make her smile in a way that was always genuine. "Your any suitors, huh? You make it seem like they're camped outside your doors as if waiting for concert tickets to go on sale," the girl teased. But truth be told, Madisen felt an odd pang of jealousy- though, whether it was for the girls he was spending his time with or the fact that he was in New York itself, was a mystery to her. "Gosh, I missed you..."

[idkmadisen]

skype call → gavs

[gavin-callahan]

Gavin ran his hands through his hair in exasperation, throwing his tailored suit jacket onto his bed and slamming the door behind him as he entered his room. He was exhausted; ceaselessly, boundlessly exhausted from trying to fill his father’s shoes and clean up his family’s messes. He almost didn’t notice the faint sound of an incoming Skype call emanating from his open laptop, and if the name that lit up his screen had been anything but the one shown, he would have declined in a heartbeat and fallen into bed. As it was, a genuine smile lit up his features for the first time in days as he clicked “accept,” sitting at his desk as the video call began to load.

[idkmadisen]

As the black screen faded away to show the more than familiar face, Madisen's own lit up immediately, a small squeal not being able to be held back as a grin easily spread across her face. "Is that who I think it is? Am I actually lucky enough to be Skyping with the Gavin Callahan?" Despite everything going on in their personal lives and the new distance between the two of them, everything came naturally back to her as Gavin had appeared on screen- it was as if they had hardly spent a day apart. "I'm honored that you've actually have a few hours to spend with little ol' me between the busy New Yorker life you lead again and your internship -- not to mention all the ladies you must be entertaining." And though she could see the exhaustion in his eyes, what may be accompanied with troubles, Madi knew that Gavin would always tell her in due time if she needed to know. So she always pushed past her worries because he always told her when he was ready.

[idkmadisen]

skype call → gavs

[ ... ] As she pulled up Skype and impulsively clicked on the only name she has in her recent chat list, Madisen tried to do anything but blankly stare as the annoying ring tone let her know that her call was on it's way.

[moonspilling]

[idkmadisen]

kingston university meme: madisen billings

"I’m the weakest link, and the weakest link wants some payback."

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

You’re really great.

[idkmadisen]

You're really great, too.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

That sounds like the best plan you’ve ever had. I’m just really glad you’re going to give me another chance at this.

[idkmadisen]

Of course I'm going to, Dom, you're worth all the second chances in the world.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

Yeah, and I thought I had a good reason to break up with you, but it wasn’t really a reason at all. I’m glad you can’t be mad at me, but I still feel like crap because of it. I’m just—Well, I just—I don’t know what I’m trying to say. But I do know that I love you and I’m not saying that I expect us to get back together, but I want us to get back to normal.

[idkmadisen]

Can we just put all of this behind us and try to repair everything? Because maybe we can't be normal, but somewhere next to normal sounds perfect to me.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

It’s not fine, Madisen. I’ve screwed up more than once when it comes to this relationship, and kissing Niki—there’s no excuse for it. I know it’s not fine, but I know that you won’t get mad at me for it, and I’m not even sure that’s fair, because you should be mad at me. Even though I was single, I still wanted you, so it wasn’t right at all.

[idkmadisen]

You broke up with me, Dominic. Remember?

You're right, though, I can't be mad at you. I don't know why... But you're the most special person to me, and I just can't seem to stay mad at you longer than three seconds. Say it's some flaw of mine or whatever, but I can't be angry with someone I love.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

I don’t know what else to say, except that I’m sorry. I don’t think it’s up to you to make it better because you didn’t do anything wrong. I shouldn’t have kissed her, I know that, but I did, and since I can’t take it back, I have to try and make us right again.

[idkmadisen]

You've already apologized, Dominic, you don't need to say it anymore. I know you're sorry. I mean, technically you are single and are allowed to kiss whoever you want. Sure, I'm raging inside, but it's not like you did't have the right to kiss her. But... It's fine.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

I never doubted that you were in love with me, I just didn’t want to have to feel like I was competing for you, because let’s face you, you weren’t sure, and that’s not why I kissed Niki. Maybe subconsciously, but it just happened. I didn’t kiss her because I didn’t feel something for you, because I felt everything for you, and when we pushed each other away, I realized how screwed up it was. 

[idkmadisen]

It was never a competition, Dom, but if it was, you always would have won. It was just- Jaxon and I have history, but you and I were going to have the future. I know I got mixed up in old emotions because he came back into my life when I thought I was done with him, and that's my fault for letting him stir me up so much, but you didn't even give me a chance to get my closure with him or anything before you decided to break up with me. And then you kiss my sister... You're right, it is screwed up, and I don't know how to make it better.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

I don’t know what you’re supposed to say, and I don’t know what you’re supposed to do. Yes, I wish we could just forget about this, or I just wish that I could take it back, or never do it to begin with, but what you do is up to you, and I’m going to understand completely. I mean, if you don’t want to talk to me, then I guess I can’t say I’m going to go away quietly, but I care about you, and I know that seems like it’s the biggest lie ever, but I do, and that’s why I told you, because you deserved to know what was going on.

[idkmadisen]

I can't not talk to you, Dominic, that's not possible even if I wanted it. I can't not have you in my life... Even with something like this having happened. You're too important to me. But don't you see now? I told you about Jaxon because you deserved to know, and I didn't even do anything with him. I would never have done anything with him because I was with you and I was in love with you, not anyone else. And I hope that, maybe out of all this that has gone on, you realize that I really do mean that now.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

Madisen, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean for it to happen. If I could take it back, I would in a heart beat. But I can’t, and it’s not something I wanted to keep from you, because I know our relationship was getting better—at least our friendship was, and I just—I messed up.

[idkmadisen]

I don't know what to- what am I supposed to even say to this? I mean, it's not everyday that the guy you insanely care about kisses your sister, who you are also not on speaking terms with. Is there some way I'm supposed to react? I just don't know what to do.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

We ended up kissing, and I knew it was coming, and I think she did too, but we didn’t stop it. And Madisen, I’m so sorry. It was just kind of like a heat of the moment thing, and it didn’t mean anything at all, because she had her problems and I had you, and it was probably the biggest mistake I have ever made in my life.

[idkmadisen]

I just- you guys... What? No.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

No, believe me, I was just as surprised as you were. Apparently, I was the scariest person on campus, so in a way, it makes sense. I just wanted to make sure she was okay because I knew that if something happened to her and you had found out I had let it—no matter whether or not you two were fighting—you would be devastated. Only something did happen to her—something happened to me, too. We ended up getting kind of close, ironically—talking about everything that had happened between us all, and things just ended up getting intense.

[idkmadisen]

I- is this going where I think it's going? Because I don't know if I want to hear what you have to say next.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

Nikolina and I stayed together while you were away. She was nervous because of all that was going on and she didn’t have you or Gavin, so I stayed with her for a while.

[idkmadisen]

And she asked you...? I'm sorry, that was rude, but I just don't understand why she would ask you over everyone else, even if Gav and I were out of the picture. It's just weird.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

Listen, I need to tell you something. Something that doesn’t involve talking about Danny. Something that involves things being different. And I wasn’t going to tell you, but being here with you now, I have to, because I care about you. And I’m worrying about you right now, about how you’re going to take this, and how it’s going to change us. And I need you to listen to me. Don’t just hear the bad.

[idkmadisen]

Alright... You're scaring me a little bit, but I can listen. Or, well, I can at least try my best to. So go ahead, I'm all ears.

[greghenry-blog1]

face to face → domisen

[greghenry-blog1]

Hey, if Danny hasn’t gotten impeached, no one will. But I just mean that things were different. I don’t know. I guess it’s not important. Making a mountain out of hill and all. How thankful I am that you listened to me, though, because we all know you have a tough time listening to people, especially when you’ve already put your mind to something. I will always worry about you, Madisen. It is impossible not to. 

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[idkmadisen]

That's very true, but Danny is a great president in his own way. Well, I suppose that makes sense, Dom... As long as you were and are alright, then I'm happy. No matter how different things may have been. I don't have trouble listening to people! Okay, maybe I do, but still, I'll almost always listen to you. Especially when you're worrying about me.