these aren't love letters

but letters to love. to you, and you only. throwing a line out to sea. make it to me?

[ificancatchadream]

I fear that we will hurt each other, the way first lovers do.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

If it was love, wouldn't I have known?

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How was I supposed to know?

[ificancatchadream]

Yes I know six years is a lot of time, To love a boy that was never mine, But it'll still be him 'til the end of the line.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

I’m a flower your childish fingers have yet to pick apart, while your unkissed lips whisper 'Love me, love me not.'

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

So I hold my breath and count to ten. I trust that you'll have loved me then.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

You are still my favorite gamut of color.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

Her hair was decorated with the flower petals that spilled from his lips.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

I looked at her the way she looked at the sky– With a sort of helpless naivety that sought to catch the most elusive of nuances within the complexities of the beloved unknown.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

No, I could never forget you.  How could I, when you're the one person who could make a random street in the middle of nowhere feel like New York City, the peeling ceiling of a three-star hotel feel like the night sky, and a pair of bruised arms feel like home?

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

Maybe this is all that's keeping me going.  Maybe I'd rather hang onto this charade of casual pursuit and evasion, however painfully falsified, than face the reality that there is no place for a person like me in a heart like yours. Maybe I'd rather live this lie.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

However long gone the feeling may now be, is it not true that in your heart of hearts, you have no doubt that they had meant it when they said they loved you?

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

Don’t search for stars in the eyes of a lover who can’t see the stars in your own.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

Two boys a long way from home, slow dancing in a dressing room to a soporific song that somehow drifts above the muted chants of the eager audience outside.  No, they won't ever speak of this moment again, and in a few years they will claim to not remember anything from this night at all. The lingering hands, the swaying that calmed the rush of pre-show adrenaline, the breathy laughs following whispered lyrics that turned into full scale belting– all is forgotten when we are reminded that nothing survives the sunrise.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

Was that you? Were you the woman behind his greatness, inspiration, and ingenuity? No. I was the woman beside him.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

You are more than a muse. Be the musician. 

[ificancatchadream]

Be still, damned heart. His does not belong to you.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

I refuse to be defined simply as your lover, to be remembered only as a single moment in your life. I had a life before you, and you are a fool to believe that I will not have one after.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks

[ificancatchadream]

Yes, I know that this must be love. But it's not enough.

c.l. || Paper Scraps for Snacks