Against the Tide

Inner ramblings, bitter tears, floating without a compass on my journey to peace. My inspirational Tumblr

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Therapy Epiphany

Depression sucks. I get it. I really do. So when you are feeling good you should practice having good thoughts so that when you aren't it will be slightly easier to try to think more positively. Like, think of reasons you want to live. Going to Prom, moving to the place you always wanted to live, even seeing people you care about (or favorite pet) tomorrow . Do it often. It will become habit and could help you to combat feelings of hopelessness and suicidal thoughts.

Your therapist's job is to listen to you, get to the bottom of your issues, and help you retrain your brain to not automatically go to bad thoughts or behaviors when things get tough. Listen to them. Take their advice. If you don't agree with something, ask them about it and help them come up with a different approach. As gimmicky, as clichéd, as uncomfortably silly as positive thinking sounds, it's better than feeling like crap, right?

I need to follow my own advice but I had this realization today and wanted to share it with others.

(DISCLAIMER: I am not mentioning medication here because the medication works of the chemical side of depression. I'm only talking about the behavioral aspect of depression, which is much easier to combat successfully if you have a proper medication helping you out. TL;DR: I write this with the understanding that one is already medicated under guidance of a qualified healthcare provider.)

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i’m always so amazed when i hear americans say shit like “healthcare is a privilege, not a right”. like how do you reach a point in your life where you think people deserve to die because they can’t afford healthcare. what in the actual fuck is wrong with you.

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Eating 5 slices of bacon at 3:48 because fuck all.

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Forcing yourself to work on something that you have no real motivation for

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Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

The original post only has US helplines. I've added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.

Depression Hotline: [phone]

Suicide Hotline: [phone]

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: [phone]

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected]

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected]

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 [email protected]

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected]

b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected]

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected]

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: [phone]

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7

suicide hotlines;

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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Put coconut oil in your hair, exercise, take hot showers, massage lotion into your skin, eat food that makes you feel good, stretch, lay around in bed, and listen music that makes you feel happy. Just do you.

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I'm not sure any of it matters

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My Journey Through Better Living

Every morning I weigh myself.  I know you aren't supposed to, but I get so giddy to see how the previous day's work has paid off.  Today I was greeted with 139.4 lbs.  I haven't seen the 130's in a long time.  When I began this journey around a month ago I weighed 156.  I was drinking red wine moderately every day and I was eating terribly.  I've cut out most processed foods and those that I do use have recognizable ingredients (Bolthouse Farms' Yogurt Dressings are a notable exception.  Love me some blue cheese dressing!). I eat a lot of salads made with several types of lettuces and leafy greens and stick to lean meats like grilled salmon or grilled chicken breast for protein.  I drink at least 2 quarts of water a day and haven't had a soda in a month.  I don't even want one any more.  If I crave the carbonation I drink mineral water or Bing cherry drink  Tomatoes, cucumbers, avocados, berries, grapefruit, quinoa, and occasionally whole grain (7 sprouted grain) bread make up the bulk of my diet.  I'm not being strict however.  For example, on the 4th I has a burger made from a local deer.  It even had cheese on it!  I haven't eaten pasta in a month.  It's amazing how quickly the body stops craving crap once you stop putting it in.  A friend and I walk 2.4 miles nearly every night and once school starts (when I will be awake early enough before it gets hot outside) I am planning to begin training myself to jog/run.  My goal is to run a mile and ultimately participate in local runs.  

I can wear some of my favorite clothes again.  I can again wear the ring my husband bought me for my birthday a few years ago.    It's amazing how quickly the body changes once you start treating it better.  

I am so happy I don't crave alcohol anymore.  The thought of drinking nauseates me.  Even a shot or a glass of wine; it's disgusting.  It's a great social lubricant and I feel my social anxiety rising again without it as a crutch but I feel healthier as a person and safer as a parent without it.

I am having headaches but I am on my period so that is normal for me.  When I was drinking I woke many morning with headaches and knew exactly why.  Having a headache for a normal reason feels so good I almost don't want to get rid of it.  It reminds me of who I was and who I can be again.

I was always embarrassed about buying wine.  I bought so much I would go to different stores so one store didn't see me buying it so often.  Luckily I never got over my fear of going to the liquor store or there is not telling how far into alcoholism I could have slipped.  Now, like with cigarettes, I know I can not drink even one.  I wasn't to the point of being an alcohilic - not yet - but I have to treat myself as one.  I can't allow myself to drink or I will be right back where I was.  Maybe one day I can have a toast at a wedding but if I don't treat it as poison (which it is if you think about it) I know I will slowly fall back to the same condition.

I think I might use this Tumblr more often.  I created it to have a place to record my thoughts and feelings and to reblog things more personal to me than my normal Tumblr.  I've been considering starting a written journal again too.