So... I'm trans. I'm nonbinary and lately I just... Feel like shit. I cut my hair and I was happy about it. It was what I wanted, I was stunning and pretty and I loved it. It's been like, two weeks and now I hate my hair. It's long. It's girly. It's not what I want. I'm not a girl. I prefer to be seen a boy if Non-binary is too hard... I cry almost every night. I hate it. I never considered myself dysphoric but now I just... I can't.
Hi- I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling. Gender is hard to deal with in such a restrictive and binary culture.
First, I want to affirm that no matter what, you’re nonbinary; no matter how “masculine” or “feminine” you appear, no matter what people perceive you as, etc (but of course, the way we’re perceived still affects how we see ourselves; I get that).
It seems like some of these feelings are coming from how you appear, and I’m curious if altering your appearance might help. There are all kinds of makeup techniques that might help to affirm your gender and how you wanna express it, that sort of thing.
Admittedly, I’m cis, so I don’t want to make assumptions about your experience or tell you what to do when I don’t know what it’s like. It might be worth doing some research and finding other people who feel similarly and how they’ve dealt with it.
Please let me know if you’d like to talk more, or just need more support- I believe in you!
