this has been something i’ve been waiting to share with you since march — or, if you’d like to be super technical, since october 23rd, 2017. for six years, the most popular question, second to “when are you updating?”, has been “when will you make bcw into a book? when’s the bcw book coming?” and for six years, i have put my whole heart and soul into this story. y’all know this better than anybody else, yet i’ve never had an answer to that question. i’ll be honest with you, too: i’m terrified. i can’t tell you how much sleep i’ve lost or how many days i have just stared at my computer crying because i feel so defeated and scared about what’s to come with this story. bcw might have been my biggest “success” but bcw has also been my biggest challenger. behind the screen, it’s been an uphill battle. i want to do you all justice, i want it to be perfect, and like i said in an insta post, i have been so fearful as to whether or not it’s been good enough. not to mention, like taylor once said, it’s kinda like the end of a decade and i’m scared about where that’ll leave all of us. but, as she also said, it’s the start of an age, and there have been just as many moments where i’ve been jumping around completely giddy or trying not to scream of excitement over a development and wake my whole house up at 1am. i started this story because it made me happy, and along the way, it made some more of you happy as well. while i’ve warred a lot with myself about “making me happy” being a good enough reason to move forward, i’ve done this because we deserve a little piece of our happiness tangible and sitting on our bookshelves. it’s what we deserve, y’all. this is as much for you as it is me - i built the foundations and floors, but y’all built the walls and made bcw what it ultimately became and why it means so much, and god, have i dreamed of this moment for so long. i really, really hope that it’ll have been worth the wait i put you through. i’m so, so, so excited to take you back with me to 2012 on a journey that feels familiar. except, this time, it’s different. it’s not the story you think you know.
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