Still Hanging On.

Under Construction and low-activity Antok blog. mutuals-only. sideblog to deception-and-disgrace.

[deception-and-disgrace]

Official Hiatus.

i think i’m gonna finally come out and officially say it, i’m probably not going to be coming back to this blog. after 2 years, my interest in rping and the vld rpc has slowed down significantly and i’m not sure many people are really interested in my interpretation anymore. i’ve explored sendak’s character almost fully and am looking to different characters to make interpretations of anyway.

plus, life for me has gotten increasingly more difficult for me over these years and its been very hard to maintain an rp blog. if i do come back to rping on tumblr, it will most likely be when i have a lot more time and will probably involve very different characters. if you really like my writing, you can keep up with my writing on my ao3 where i’m currently working on several larger fics on my own schedule.

if you’d like to keep with me and possibly rp when i have the time you can send me an IM for me to send you my discord. this blog will most likely stay up for at least the near future for my own purpose of coming back for references.

i love you all. thank you for making my time here so great. -possum

link to other contacts

[simsbymemes]

send ‘marks’ and i will reveal one scar, freckles, tattoo, ect. for each sent in until i run out

[iimmanis]

antok: im a monster. i can get so violent sometimes that i lose all sense of right and wrong and who i am.  also antok: i want,,, to hold a hand.

[deathpov]

not to be nsfw but can someone hold my hand and do the thumb rub thing

[iimmanis]

suddenly really want to write a fic where antok raises keith,,,,

[iimmanis]

antok: finds baby keith abandoned  antok: shit im dad antok: antok: maybe i should try to be a better person

[iimmanis]

me: happily writing nice fluffy scenes for this fic  my hell brain: you remember antok dies right? we’re gonna have to write it out where everyone thinks antok is dead while he’s being experimented on by the druids me:

[iimmanis]

guys oh my god

antok has probably tried to eat the mice before

[dark-loving-life]

[iimmanis]

suddenly really want to write a fic where antok raises keith,,,,

[iimmanis]

antok: finds baby keith abandoned  antok: shit im dad antok: antok: maybe i should try to be a better person

[iimmanis]

suddenly really want to write a fic where antok raises keith,,,,

[artyeen]

.laughter.

[memestockpile]

therapy / talking about trauma / post - trauma starters. feel free to change things as necessary. 

would you like to talk about it?

please tell me what’s bothering you.

hey, are you okay?

i don’t have to know everything. just what you’re comfortable telling me.

i’m your friend. of course i care.

there’s nothing bad about going to therapy.

would you like to try a different approach?

i – i didn’t know that. i’m sorry.

is this helping?

i’ll try not to ask a lot of questions.

i’m always here if you need me.

shh, it’s alright. shh. 

we’re safe now. you’re safe now.

it was just a nightmare.

sweetheart, you have to tell me these things.

you know i’d never judge you for that, right?

i’m worried about you.

is something going on? 

everything you say will just be between you and me.

what method do you prefer?

do you need help falling asleep?

anything i could do to help?

why are you like this?

i understand. 

sweetie, is there something you aren’t telling me? what’s wrong?

let’s get you cleaned up.

this is good. this is important. 

you’re healing, and healing takes time. 

we can do more tomorrow.

how about you get some sleep, hm?

bedtime.

it’s ok not to be ok.

tomorrow is another day.

hey, hey, hey. look at me, look at me. it’s okay.

breath in for seven seconds, exhale for eleven …

do you need some space?

remember, look for things that you can touch. ground yourself.

[iimmanis]

me: busy eating dinner my brain: what if post-druid experimentation antok had some serious body horror shit going on me:

[iimmanis]

antok: a big jock dork who tends to be unintentionally cute all the time also antok: if he gets too much pent up energy he often expresses it through extreme violence. though he’s gotten better at controlling himself as he’s aged, inexperienced blades aren’t allowed to spar with him because he has the tendency to lash out when he gets overexcited.

[iimmanis]

con of trying to come back to a rp blog: what are my tags???? what the fuck did i mean by these headcanon notes????? how does my theme work again?????

[iimmanis]

random fun fact: due to his mixed bag of genes, antok’s body expects way too much from him. the natural cockiness and aggressiveness of the aviiru and the fact that both alien species that take up the rest of his dna are extremely strong, a lot of the time his body is just like “yeah im sure i can do this”

cases of hysterical strength are very common with him and while it usually turns out okay, there have been a few times where he’s torn muscles and broken bones.

[thatforestprince]

btw i will be offline for monday, december 17th on both my blogs. im going to bookmark and close all my tumblr tabs and spend the day getting work done. see yall after.

[saelihn-blog]