honestly I don’t know what to say about my life right now, not that anyone would read this anyways but it might be good for me just to sort of post my thoughts here
anyways over the months things have been stressful, with a friendship of mine falling apart, to my ex coming into my life and it picking up where it left off it’s made me re-evaluate my life to an extent, and while doing this I pushed away a lot of people in the process. I won’t get into specifics but the fact that I’ve left a lot of people I cared about in the dark, or simply in the past, weighs on me a bit. I’ve always tried to keep to myself and not really get involved in a lot of things, just because of the way I am, and it’s easier for me to carry on this way, but like, I really feel like any connections I had I severed. With what’s going on with my real life I figured it was more important to hold onto and really focus on what felt real and tangible, and go forward with that, so I did. And it’s been okay, it’s been good but I feel guilty leaving some people in the past like I did, with no or little explanation at that.
It’s just hard. I guess the reason I’m even typing this is because I’m just unsure of my future with my S/O.
But, yeah, I figured this might help me a little bit, writing my thoughts out. I dunno. I’m not good at being open and It makes me feel a bit uncomfortable.
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