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ilta zin'olhyrr.

[ilharess]

ilharess , an  independent,  private  &  mutually  exclusive  writing  blog  for  an original character  created for  forgotten realms    ,  azril tlabbar. warnings  for  triggering  content. general rp rules apply. personals do not interact.

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[notbhaal]

WHICH     IS     THE      GREATER     FEAR   :   LOSING  YOUR LIFE  TO  FUEL  THE  FIRE   OR  LOSING   YOUR WILL  &  BECOMING  IT  ?      

[ilharess]

you see these, where do you look.

[disgustinggf]

insane but in a sexy way

[ilharess]

HELLO MAAM?????

[maso-kisst]

All of my kinks are rooted in wanting to feel wanted so intensely that someone cant stand it. Regardless of which side of the dynamic I'm on it's all about aggressive desire

[dragonagegenerator]

ancient god (self-diagnosed)

[ilharess]

she is so babygirl when she isn't evil but (un)fortunately, she is always evil :)

[ohisms]

↪ 𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬 𝑨𝑻 𝑴𝑬 . ( a collection of lyric starters from an assortment of billie eilish songs . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

you scared me to death .

there's nothing left to save now .

i don't think i caught your name .

i like it when you take control .

you're sacred and they're starved .

how dare you ? and how could you ?

one of us is gonna lose .

i don't even really know how it happened .

i'm out of sympathy for you .

just let me hold you .

don't talk about me like you might know how i feel .

try not to abuse your power .

i wish someone had told me i'd be doing this by myself .

it's not like me to be so mean .

you just want what you can't have .

would you like me to be quiet ?

i haven't slept since sunday .

i don't want to want you .

it hurts , but i know how to hide it .

i'm the only one who does it how you like .

you better keep your head down .

a lot can change in twenty seconds .

why aren't you scared of me ?

i thought that i was special .

you're looking at me like i'm see-through .

you were a hero , you played the part .

i never really know how to please you .

see what you wanna see .

gold's fake , and real love hurts .

no way , i'll call the cops .

maybe you should leave before i get too mean .

i just wanted to protect you .

you only listen to your fuckin' friends .

they're never gonna give you love like ours .

all you wanna do is kiss me .

don't you know too much already ?

it's weird that we care so much until we don't .

i didn't change my number , i changed who i reply to .

i don't know what feels true .

did you really think this is the right thing to do ?

i would hate to see you go .

i'd never treat me this shitty .

i'll only hurt you if you let me .

you made me feel like it was my fault .

now i know what you are .

i feel more and more like i was made for you .

you wanna kill me ? you wanna hurt me ?

don't try to make me feel bad .

wait , you know what ? maybe just forget it .

was i made from a broken mold ?

you want me to be yours , then you've gotta be mine .

tell me "nothing lasts" , like i don't know .

wait a minute , let me finish .

you know i'm not your friend without some greenery .

my demands aren't high to make .

stop , what the hell are you talking about ?

we both know i'm worth waiting for .

you ruined everything good .

you really know how to make me cry .

your love feels so fake .

i wanna be alone . alone with you , does that make sense ?

spit it out , what is it exactly ?

i'll never let you go .

if we were meant to be , we would've been by now .

you can pretend that you don't miss me .

just fucking leave me alone .

don't say i didn't warn you .

it's pretty cool , right ?

i think i might have fallen in love .

i tried not to upset you .

do you even feel anything ?

don't ask questions , you don't wanna know .

i've been walking through a world gone blind .

i just wanna make you feel okay .

i know you don't care , but can you listen ?

don't you know i'm no good for you ?

[ilharess]

well thank you, this is the best give i ever received.

[lhorbb-deactivated20240808]

@ilharess

❛ That's a long way to say you've missed me. ❜ Time had done little to tame her viper's tongue, Azril's spite was always faster than a whips lash & twice as deadly. She was as much a stranger to the concept of mercy as he was, both of them the solemn offspring of a legacy that only knew how to exact its pound of flesh from another & nothing more. Still, that didn't mean he couldn't hope for a sliver of that non-existent mercy to show itself, hence the easing tone with which he spoke. Her heart strings, when plucked, were not gentle like the tune of a Lyre. They were more like booming thunder, cracking so loudly in absolute silence.

❛ Aren't you the one always yelling at me to ' use my words ' ? ❜

[ilharess]

'  do  not  ridicule  yourself,  a'byssel.    those  infantile  deranged  words  would  never  leave  my  lips.    not  willingly,  as  you  surely  know.  '        yet  those  three  words  danced  across  her  mind  since  their  first  shared  glance,  the  intense  eye  contact  and  attempts  of  reading  the  other's  thoughts  in  hopes  of  digging  out  if  they  feel  the  same.    years  and  years  spending  apart,  now  reunited,  and  azril  could  not  help  herself  but  spend  every  possible  minute    —    or  second    —    with  her  gaze  trained  on  the  unusually  tall  drow,  daydreaming  of  his  hands  over  hers  and  the  way  they  made  her  feel  before.    before  she  was  a  matron,  before  he  left  and  locked  the  door  behind  himself,  abandoning  the  one  person  who  would  risk  humiliation  and  shame  for  her  affections.    her  words  didn't  tell  the  truth,  being  taught  from  young  age  to  not  trust  and  to  spit  lies  did  that  to  person.    but  her  actions,  soft  and  delicate  as  her  fingers  found  a  comfortable  place  hooked  on  his  belt,  keeping  him  securely  in  place,  told  a  completely different  story.

the  ease  of  his  deep  tone  didn't  go  unnoticed.    good    ;    still  the  same.    still  the  same  calmness,  despite  the  tense  shoulders.        '  unlike  you,  ussta  ssinjin  lince'sa,  i  use  my  words  frequently.    the  saying  don't  tell  me  what  to  do  is  perfect  for  this  situation.    so  don't.    don't  tell  me  what  to  do.    accept  what  you  get.    be  the  good  boy  you've  always  been.  '        seriousness  of  azril's  tone  faltered,  cracked  just  enough  for  the  familiar  playfulness  to  come  out    —    only  for  him.    the  long  lost  love.    now  roaming  free.        '  use  your  words.    tell  me  how  you  missed  me.    tell  me  how  miserable  you  felt  without  me.    i  wish  to  hear  it  again.  '        last  part  whispered,  almost  embarrassing  to  demand  such  display  of  weakness    and  yet    …    the  matron  ached  for  it.    for  the  addition  to  their  plates  of  sin.

'  i  promise  to  let  you  breathe  freely  after.  '        false  promises.    she  would  never  leave  his  side.    her  watchful  piercing  eyes  forced  themselves  to  not  blink,  just  to  not  miss  anything  again.        '  from  the  beginning.    kre'j.  '

[leneemusing]

never be embarrassed for being proud of your OC.  never listen to the voices telling you they’re too powerful or too weak,  too angry or too happy,  too hard or too vulnerable,  too strong or not strong enough.  if they are exactly how you intended to create them,  or if they’ve grown beyond what you imagined in a way that makes you happy,  then that’s all that matters.  every published and produced ‘canon’ character is someone’s OC.  you don’t bat an eye at these characters being proclaimed to be powerful.  you don’t bat an eye at them being praised within the text or loved by the writers and fans.  your OC is no different.  there is not any real,  important difference between what you’ve created and what you see on the pages of a book or on a screen.  it’s all of equal value.  it’s all just people telling stories and enjoyment is the only real value. 

[glkr-xx]

"Come home to me" kind of love

[poetryofmuses]

"you're my home" kind of love

[ilharess]

@arachling

[ilharess]

LIST THEIR CHARACTER FLAWS , ( BOLD what always applies; ITALICIZE what sometimes applies; STRIKE OUT what never applies. )

absent-minded / abusive / addict / adrenaline junkie / aggressive / aimless / alcoholic / anxious / arrogant / audacious / bad liar / bigmouth / bigot / blindly loyal / blunt / callous / childish / chronic heroism / cheater / clingy / clumsy / cocky / codependent / competitive / corrupt / cowardly / cruel / cynical / delinquent / delusional / dependent / depressed / deranged / disloyal / ditzy / egoistical / envious / erratic / fickle / finicky / fixated / flaky / frail / fraudulent / foul-mouthed / guilt complex / gloomy / gluttonous / gossiper / gruff / grudge-holding / gullible / hedonistic / humorless / hypochondriac / hypocritical / idealist / idiotic / ignorant / immature / impatient / incompetent / indecisive / insecure / insensitive / lazy / lewd / liar / lustful / manipulative / masochistic / meddlesome / melodramatic / money-loving / moody / naïve / nervous / nosy / ornery / overprotective / overly sensitive / paranoid / passive-aggressive / perfectionist / pessimist / petty / power-hungry / proud / possessive / pushover / reckless / reclusive / remorseless / rigorous / sadistic / sarcastic / senile / selfish / self-destructive / shallow / sociopathic / sore loser / spineless / spiteful / spoiled / stubborn / suspicious / tactless / temperamental / timid / thief / traitorous / ungracious / unlucky / untrustworthy / vain / vengeful / withdrawn / workaholic

tagged by , stole it from @wayan9an ♥ tagging , @arachling , @starlyht , @chmarva , @n1ghtwarden and you !

[artemis-entreri]

[[ Scenes of Menzoberranzan by Sean Vo. ]]

[ilharess]

tags.

「 𝓐 」  :        clown noises.        「 ooc. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        companions.        「 promo. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        main quests.        「 memes. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        progress.        「 answered. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        scorched parchment.        「 inbox. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        azril faen tlabbar.        「 visage. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        the many faces.        「 character study. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        trinklets & obsidians.        「 aesthetic. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        spider lyre tunes.        「 playlist. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        chains & ropes.        「 nsfw. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        the book of life.        「 headcanon. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        paintings on the wall.         「 edit. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        sidequests.         「 dash games. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        burning hands.         「 musing. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        pray for what you deserve.         「 wishes. 」

「 𝓐 」  :        webbed dresses.         「 wardrobe. 」

「 𝓥 」  :        main.         「 verse. 」

「 𝓥 」  :        undecided.         「 verse. 」

「 𝓥 」  :        act one.         「 verse. 」

「 𝓥 」  :        act two.         「 verse. 」

「 𝓥 」  :        act three.         「 verse. 」

「♡」  :        .        「 .arachling 」