I'll Count The Stars

🐒 Lauren 21 Nutrition Student Pittsburgh livin

[rosy-dreams]

Post Halloween feels

[wild-cabins]

Emily Thomas

[grayskymorning]

My morning by the water.

[schmetterlinge78765-blog]

[amormedarei-deactivated20200116]

[elephantsarevegan]

Todays breakfast feast at dunwell donuts 🍩

[melancholykaty]

peaceful daze 

[illcountthestars]

Anxious thoughts

It feels like my anxiety is keeping me from being productive, but at the same time making me panic and want to be more productive. Today didn’t go as I had planned, and my anxiety seems to be a large reason why.

I want to be alone, but then I find myself feeling guilty about having alone time. I like being with my friends and they are very respectful of me even now that we live together, but I haven’t been able to feel entirely comfortable this year. I’m not sure why, but I have become introverted over the past year in college and can’t seem to break this.

I think I need to learn to exercise more- I’ve been working out 2-3 times a week with school, but I think I need to increase this and force myself to make time. I in general feel better about myself and my life when I spend more time exercising. I’ve been eating very well but I need to remember not to use food as a crutch for happiness or sadness. I need to eat when I feel my hunger cues and not just eat when I’m bored or sad. I need to allow myself alone time but recognize when I am isolating myself from my friends and break this habit. 

Finally I need to not stress about grad school. I’ve only been dating my boyfriend for a couple months but I already feel like I really don’t want to leave him. If I keep working hard, I will get into Pitt and be able to stay here. If not, I can go to a school an hour or two away and see him often enough if he is willing. I can talk to him about this before I apply places, and if that doesn’t seem like a good option for us I can even apply more places back home. I have so, so many options- in the back of my head I know I will get into Pitt but I am the type of person that needs to be safe and have backup choices.

I have nothing to worry about. I am doing as well as I can, and I am successful so far.

[illcountthestars]

Last night a boy at the party told me I was fucking beautiful and gave me lots of forehead kisses I am SWOONING Y'ALL. Hopefully I’m gonna start believing the compliments and become the self confident boss ass bitch I have always wanted to be 👏

[illcountthestars]

So 21 much wow ✨

[illcountthestars]

I make sweet potato fries wayyy to often, and every time they turn out perfect 🤤 definitely one of my all time favorite vegan snacks! Message me for the recipe, because they are super easy to make and delicious 🍟

[vijara]

look: the right people will get it. the right people will see you and appreciate you for the person that you are. the right people won’t require you to dilute, censor, or edit yourself in order to be worthy of their time and affection. you don’t need to waste your time on people who are committed to misunderstanding you 

[helloancolie]

My new apartment isn’t too bad. 🌞☕️

[illcountthestars]

New outfit ft wet hair and messy apartment 🙈it's been a while since I've looked in the mirror and felt semi-confident in myself, but hopefully I can keep on this path

[femmehealing]

[story-dj]

You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy, because you understand them but they do not understand you.

Daniel Saint (via story-dj)

[bled]