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Oh I'm gonna lose so much weight walking around this campus

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I'm extremely comfortable with my own mortality

I am finding out I am not comfortable with my dogs

[ninetyy-eight98]

You’d drown in the love I’d give you

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I turned off my human heart again.

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It's the 2 year anniversary of putting fluff and Anastasia down.

My heart is fucking broken.

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Learning how to be a one man show doesn't mean you want to

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I'll stick around if you will

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My goose is cooked

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I will die your daughter.

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Wait hello,,,,, are things turning around,,,,,

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I heavily relate to Sayaka Miki as a character

She was never destined for greatness. She was never meant to be a magical girl, Kyuubey says it himself.

When she does turn into a magical girl it's because she cannot stand the thought of the one she loves being in pain any longer. She can't stand to see him miserable, can't stand to watch him begin to hate life. She wishes it were her because she felt she had nothing to live for.

She also has such a strong sense of justice. She does everything she can to fight for what is right, to save people. To care for as many people as she possibly can.

But in the end, she's just not good enough.

I think Sayaka coming to the realization she's not good enough is what begins the descent into despair. A lot of things I've seen online say it's her final realization before becoming a witch, but I don't. I think in the back of her mind she's always known she'd never be good enough. If she had enough determination and willpower to push past those thoughts, she'd be able to continue fighting. However, the hatred she has for herself shown subtly throughout the show is ever present when fighting. Shes sloppy, she's clumsy, she lacks technique. Every tiny mistake is a weight added on to her disdain for herself.

I think I'd be a lot like Sayaka. My own biggest critic, my own top hater. I live my life for the sake of helping those around me, but often times it's to my own detriment.

I think if I were a magical person, I'd follow almost the exact same path as Sayaka does.

I got a lot of love in my heart for that girl.

[illuminatedinred]

We're far apart, in every way

But you're the best part of my day

And sure as I breath the air

I know we are the perfect pair

On a prickly path that goes on for miles

But it's worth it just to see you smile

And I cannot be pulled apart from the hold you have on my heart

And even if the world tells us it's wrong, you're in my head like a catchy song

[illuminatedinred]

I don't think I'll ever love again.

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I miss you.

I miss every little touch from you. I miss you holding my face, miss your gentle touches on my skin even when they hurt.

I miss you leaning in to kiss me every time I cry. I want you to do it again.

I miss being around you. I miss snuggling up to you, miss your arms around me. I miss everything about you.

This fucking sucks.

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I want to be with you and only you