Β Β Β Β Β Β *Β Β Β Β βΒ Β Β never Β one Β to Β take Β pre-gaming Β lightly Β , Β emerson Β touches Β down Β in Β new Β orleans Β with Β exactly Β one Β goal Β in Β mind Β : Β keep Β herself Β entertainedΒ by Β whatever Β means Β necessary Β ( Β a Β chaotic Β endeavor Β she Β tries Β to Β spare Β of Β her Β last-minute Β date Β ,Β @isolatetmβΒ Β )Β .
πππππππ Β : Β Β Β Β dr. Β daddy Β leans Β over Β and Β tells Β me Β with Β all Β the Β best Β of Β intentions Β that Β β Β with Β that Β grip Β , Β you Β wonβt Β get Β anything Β to Β come Β out Β of Β there Β . Β you Β need Β a Β more Β forceful Β graspΒ , Β like Β you Β really Β mean Β it Β , Β or Β else Β nobody Β leaves Β happy Β with Β the Β results Β we Β get Β . Β once Β you Β find Β a Β good Β rhythm Β itβll Β be Β doneΒ before Β you Β know Β it Β . β
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*Β Β πππππππππ Β , Β chapter Β ii Β : Β the Β second Β part Β ft Β . Β emerson Β hemmingway Β , Β ya Β favorite Β fake Β ass Β ! Β intelligent Β n Β powerful Β , Β no Β nonsense Β , Β problem Β child Β but Β aint Β nobody Β gotta Β b Β knowin Β that Β bc Β she Β wonβt Β make Β it Β known Β . Β sheβs Β playing Β some Β dangerous Β games Β but Β that Β big Β head Β of Β hers Β is Β convinced Β sheβs Β not Β abt Β to Β get Β caught Β and Β lowkey Β ? Β if Β anyone Β can Β pull Β it Β off Β , Β itβd Β be Β her Β ! Β
β Β Β β° Β Β another Β Β year Β Β at Β Β hollingsworth Β Β , Β another Β Β year Β Β of Β Β the Β big Β Β six rivalry Β Β . Β Β i Β Β hear Β Β that Β EMERSON Β Β HEMMINGWAY Β Β is Β Β ensuring Β CHI Β Β MU Β Β OMEGA Β Β gets Β Β a Β Β solid Β Β pledge Β Β class Β Β and Β Β stays Β Β at Β Β the Β Β top Β Β of Β Β the Β Β ranks Β Β . Β oh Β Β , Β Β youβre Β Β not Β Β familiar Β Β with Β HER Β ? Β EM Β Β is Β Β the Β TAYLOR Β Β HILL Β Β look Β Β alike Β Β from Β CHICAGO Β Β , Β Β ILLINOIS Β Β . Β Β a Β Β part Β Β of Β Β PC Β β16 Β Β , Β she Β is Β Β majoring Β Β in Β PRE-MEDICAL Β Β BIOCHEMISTRY Β Β Β Β and Β Β has Β Β plans Β Β to Β PURSUE Β Β MEDICAL Β Β SCHOOL Β Β AND Β Β HER Β Β LIFELONG Β Β AMBITION Β Β OF Β Β BECOMING Β Β A Β Β SURGEON Β Β after Β Β undergrad Β Β . Β Β it Β Β makes Β Β sense Β Β they Β Β pledged Β Β their Β Β house Β Β , Β Β their Β FERVID Β Β & Β ERUDITE Β Β attributes Β Β make Β Β them Β Β perfect Β Β matches Β Β . Β Β however Β Β , Β Β their Β MENDACIOUS Β Β & Β UNRELENTING Β Β attributes Β Β keep Β Β their Β Β name Β Β alive Β Β on Β greek Β Β rank Β Β . Β Β if Β Β you Β Β donβt Β Β catch Β Β them Β Β dancing Β Β to Β RHIANNON Β Β - Β Β FLEETWOOD Β Β MAC Β Β at Β Β a Β Β fraternity Β Β band Β Β party Β Β this Β Β year Β Β , Β Β youβll Β Β be Β Β sure Β Β to Β Β catch Β Β them Β Β nursing Β Β their Β Β morning Β Β hangover Β Β at Β THE Β Β CHI Β Β O Β Β HOUSE Β Β . Β cheers Β Β to Β Β another Β Β wild Β Β semester Β Β !
tw Β : Β mentions Β of Β drug Β use Β , Β mental Β illness
personality Β wise Β , Β em Β is Β known Β for Β being Β the Β cool Β calm Β and Β collected Β type Β , Β whoβs Β a Β bit Β of Β a Β mystery Β to Β most Β . Β sheβs Β an Β illusion Β and Β lives Β the Β lie Β sheβs Β been Β telling Β as Β if Β its Β her Β second Β skin Β , Β sometimes Β losing Β what Β she Β believes Β in Β at Β her Β core Β .
sheβs Β deeply Β ambitious Β and Β wants Β to Β be Β a Β surgeon Β , Β her Β dream Β since Β she Β was Β a Β child Β as Β medicine Β was Β the Β most Β stimulating Β thing Β possible Β to Β her Β . Β she Β did Β so Β much Β research Β on Β her Β β Β fake Β illness βΒ Β to Β sell Β her Β story Β that Β she Β ended Β up Β falling Β in Β love Β with Β it Β , Β and Β has Β been Β set Β on Β medicine Β ever Β since
this Β aggressive Β ambition Β can Β also Β show Β as Β fixation Β or Β obsession Β , Β and Β emerson Β has Β a Β severe Β problem Β with Β not Β knowing Β where Β to Β let Β go Β . Β while Β she Β seems Β cool Β and Β detatched Β , Β sheβs Β obsessed Β with Β never Β feeling Β like Β she Β could Β have Β done Β more Β and Β will Β always Β be Β the Β girl Β who Β can Β be Β goaded Β into Β taking Β things Β too Β far Β , Β often Β putting Β her Β in Β dangerous Β situations Β that Β she Β has Β to Β figure Β her Β own Β way Β out Β of
she Β tends Β to Β take Β everything Β kinda Β seriously Β and Β despite Β being Β p Β relaxed Β , Β her Β perfectionist Β type Β a Β side Β makes Β itself Β very Β apparent Β in Β the Β day-to-day Β of Β her Β life Β . Β she Β knows Β how Β to Β play Β hard Β and Β enjoys Β herself Β a Β good Β party Β , Β but Β even Β in Β the Β way Β she Β plays Β beer Β pong Β she Β hates Β to Β fail
has Β a Β sexy Β deep Β voice Β n Β an Β even Β SEXIER Β deadpan Β sarcastic Β wit Β . Β .. Β . Β def Β the Β friend Β to Β call Β out Β bs Β without Β batting Β an Β eye Β , Β usually Β wearing Β an Β oversized Β hoodie Β n Β gucci Β slides Β , Β em Β is Β the Β literal Β intersection Β of Β boujie Β and Β casualΒ Β PHEW
having Β such Β an Β unstable Β upbringing Β and Β so Β many Β shitty Β experiences Β at Β such Β a Β young Β age Β have Β hardened Β her Β and Β made Β her Β deeply Β unwilling Β to Β trust Β others Β . Β she Β tends Β to Β keep Β the Β world Β at Β a Β distance Β , Β and Β even Β her Β closest Β friends Β always Β admit Β it Β feels Β like Β theyβre Β still Β an Β arms Β length Β from Β her Β deepest Β layer Β . Β emerson Β is Β pretty Β sure Β the Β only Β person Β to Β ever Β see Β her Β cry Β is Β her Β grandpa Β , Β and Β intends Β to Β likely Β keep Β it Β that Β way
instead Β of Β freaking Β out Β , Β em Β shuts Β down Β ! Β v Β unemotional Β ! Β she Β just Β detatches Β and Β tries Β to Β be Β calculated Β which Β tends Β to Β make Β people Β think Β sheβs Β some Β shitty Β robot Β who Β doesnt Β give Β a Β fuck Β about Β anyone Β but Β herself Β bc Β of Β her Β β Β rich Β girl Β upbringing βΒ which Β is Β true Β to Β an Β extent Β , Β but Β nobody Β will Β ever Β know Β the Β true Β backstory Β that Β explains Β her Β emotional Β detachment Β and Β secrecy
in Β a Β way Β , Β even Β though Β she Β has Β the Β world Β convinced Β sheβs Β this Β composed Β individual Β , Β she Β still Β always Β thinks Β of Β herself Β as Β a Β chaotic Β problem Β child Β which Β only Β fuels Β her Β determination Β even Β more Β , Β often Β to Β the Β extent Β that Β she Β fucking Β burns Β herself Β out Β . Β sheβs Β incredibly Β cynical Β and Β has Β a Β p Β negative Β self Β perception Β because Β sheβs Β just Β that Β fucking Β hard Β on Β herself
has Β never Β really Β been Β in Β love Β ! Β sheβs Β never Β let Β anyone Β close Β enough Β to Β her Β that Β she Β risks Β getting Β attached Β enough Β to Β get Β hurt Β , Β which Β means Β relationships Β are Β usually Β rather Β shallow Β and Β end Β when Β she Β gets Β bored Β or Β when Β they Β get Β tired Β of Β waiting Β for Β her Β to Β open Β up
stressed Β as Β SHIT Β trying Β to Β keep Β up Β her Β illusion Β for Β her Β own Β egoβs Β sake Β and Β that Β of Β her Β family Β ! Β sheβs Β ashamed Β of Β her Β upbringing Β and Β her Β aunt Β has Β always Β been Β pretty Β good Β to Β her Β , Β and Β em Β recognizes Β that Β if Β daphne Β wouldnβt Β have Β appeared Β , Β emerson Β would Β probably Β have Β ended Β up Β like Β either Β one Β of Β her Β parents Β . Β people Β have Β noticed Β that Β emerson Β seems Β a Β lil Β more Β anal Β than Β usual Β , Β but Β the Β con Β in Β her Β makes Β it Β easy Β to Β convince Β everyone Β sheβs Β just Β stressed Β with Β the Β prospect Β of Β graduation Β and Β medical Β school Β
Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β hello Β my Β darlings Β ! Β iβm Β so Β excited Β to Β be Β here Β , Β iβm Β not Β 100% Β sure Β when Β iβll Β have Β intros Β up Β for Β sam Β and Β emerson Β , Β but Β iβm Β gonna Β drop Β this Β n Β leave Β my Β lil Β dis.cord Β so Β i Β can Β try Β n Β get Β ahead Β of Β it Β all Β ! Β yβall Β can Β catch Β me Β atΒ Β Β πππ_ππ¦π#2379Β Β Β Β ( Β bc Β we Β all Β abt Β that Β accessible Β MOBILE Β life Β up Β here Β lads Β ) Β and Β iβM Β SO Β excited Β to Β get Β to Β know Β u Β all Β !Β Β ππππ !!!
This is why you should never, ever get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you arenβt as devastated.
I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. And sometimes, when I did a really good job of pretending, I even fooled myself.
