LSD is Good for ME

Sometimes I am crazy and that's the way you like me I know. I like to point out the things I find interesting or flawed in the world whether or not you care. I am tougher than I look but not as tough as I think I am. I love sweets. I can't stand it when people try to tell me what to do, think or how to look. I am who I am and though I have a desire to be better. I am going to improve on my own terms. Thank you very much. Just Ask Formspring TAGS: Me

[ilovelsdandhunter]

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[thoughtkick]

“I want to say somewhere: I’ve tried to be forgiving. And yet there were times in my life, whole years, when anger got the better of me. Ugliness turned me inside out. There was a certain satisfaction in bitterness. I courted it. It was standing outside, and I invited it in.”

— Nicole Krauss, Great House

[remanence-of-love]

[ilovelsdandhunter]

[reynabiddy]

“my condolences to anyone who’s ever lost me and to anyone who got lost in me or to anyone who ever felt they took a loss with me. my apologies. for the misunderstanding or the lack thereof. i’m sorry you missed the God in me. and i’m sorry you missed the light. i’m sorry you forgot the way i arose like the moon, night after night. with the burden to forgive eager to feed you everything. see.. i’m a holy woman. i know what it’s like to give life to a being without ever needing to press skin against one another. i’ve practiced how to hold my tongue long enough, i’m afraid i forgot to say goodbye. i’m afraid you’re under the impression that i was made to please you. i was under the impression, you understood me better. the truth is, i’m a super woman. and somedays i’m an angry woman. and somedays i’m a crazy woman. for still waiting.. for still loving harder even if i’m aching. for still trusting that I’m still worth the most. for still searching for someone to understand me better.”

— Reyna Biddy

[quotemadness]

“But as bad as it was, I learned something about myself … That I could go through something like that, and survive.”

— Nicholas Sparks

[ilovelsdandhunter]

That I could survive my assault…

[ilovelsdandhunter]

Now I know better, I must do better!

[jabberwockypie]

Had a conversation with a housemate earlier and I want to reiterate this on the internet. Speaking as a disabled person, who’s been Officially Disabled on paper for more than a decade: I literally do not give two shits if those twits who are taking horse dewormer - the ones seriously damaging their health longterm, what with the risk of blindness and organ damage and all - end up going on disability or receiving public assistance. They should still receive disability benefits if they qualify for them. “It taxes an already stressed system-” Yeah, you know why it’s stressed? Because rich people don’t pay their taxes. We could fund these programs a dozen times over if we actually made it a priority, as a society, to take care of people. And maybe, I don’t know, bought fewer tanks. People still deserve to eat and have housing. We don’t let people starve in the streets because they made bad choices. (Besides, what about those kids whose parents are COVID deniers, or feeding them vetrinary drugs? Do they “deserve” to suffer their whole lives because their parents are assholes?) Once we open that door to “Oh it’s their own fault they’re disabled, so why should society pay for it?” it VERY QUICKLY becomes “Well, it’s your fault for being fat*. Or “You must not have been eating right, so you deserve it.”  Or “It’s your fault for not trying yoga”. Or “This treatment didn’t work for you, so you must have been doing it wrong”.

*This isn’t an academic exercise. The city I live in has a policy that if your disability is due to alcoholism, drug abuse, or “obesity”, you can’t qualify for a reduced fare transit pass, or paratransit services. Do you know how easy it is to spin something into not qualifying for benefits? “Well they’re fat, so the pain must be their own fault.” even if it’s a matter of “Bad knees run in my family, and being in pain all the time makes it really difficult to exercise”. Who gives a shit why it happened? They’re suffering, and access to better transportation would make them suffer less. Actually, if someone’s an alcoholic or addict, I probably want them to have MORE access to public transit? Drunk driving is bad. We don’t give people more reasons to deny people help. I literally do not give even a single, solitary fuck if a million people who “brought it on themselves” get help. Any focus on “BUT THE UNDESERVING-” is an attempt to con you into policing poor people and disabled people more.

[partisan-by-default]

See also, “I’m going to dance/shit/cheer/etc.on the graves” of people you don’t like.  They’re not excluded from sympathy, empathy or help.

[jabberwockypie]

Oh, no, I think you’re fundamentally misunderstanding me here. I already have a menu and celebratory playlist planned for when That Orange Motherfucker dies.

It’s totally fine to be happy when someone who’s causing harm dies. I’m saying that denying people real, concrete help - such as disability benefits, or SNAP, or whatever -  because they’re a “bad” person - isn’t okay and DEFINITELY will harm people beyond your intended target.

Saying “Well you overdosed on veterinary medicine and wrecked your health, so why should taxpayers pay for it?” will, ABSOLUTELY, 100% be used for “Well, you’re fat, so it’s your fault that you’re sick (even if whatever illness you have is UTTERLY unrelated to your weight) so we won’t provide benefits“. Or “Well you have an invisible/difficult to diagnose illness, so we think you’re making it up”. Or “You say you did X treatment and it didn’t work, so it must be your fault”.  Or even, in a few years, “Oh so you took the horse dewormer because you were a minor child at the time and your parent made you take it and now it’s causing ongoing health problems. Well, that sounds like it was your fault too, so we’re denying you help.” There’s a federal law that bans people with felony drug convictions from receiving food stamps. Because they’re “bad” people. (Nevermind that they still have to eat.)  “Punishing” people for perceived “immoral” behavior by taking away their basic needs is cruel, and it doesn’t work. Look. Quite honestly, I’d like to dropkick some of these people into the sun. They’ve certainly made it clear that my life, as a disabled person, is worthless to them. But we don’t leave people to starve in the street just because they’re terrible.

[thesaltofcarthage]

I feel like there is a difference between social/reputational consequences and Survival consequences.

If an anti-vaxxer is stupid enough to take horse dewormer and ends up with organ damage and then gets COVID anyway and has long COVID… yes, if that person qualifies for disability payments, that person should get them.

But I, personally, do not have to be friends with this idiot.

I don’t have to allow this person to hang out with my kids unmasked. 

I don’t want this idiot to be out on the street or starving because of bad choices. I’m just not required to tolerate this person spreading misinformation to my vulnerable aunt. 

Every human being has the right to live, to food and shelter and clothing and medical care. Every human being does not have the right to damage other human beings.

If you refused to get a vaccine because QAnon, stay the fuck out of my grocery store with your naked germ-spewing face.

If you refused to get a vaccine because QAnon and now your lungs are so damaged that you can’t walk, you should be allowed to get whatever mobility aids you need.

I don’t have to like you or tolerate you in my presence to acknowledge your humanity. 

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[3l1zathoughts]

“Growing up means realizing a lot of your friends aren't really your friends.”

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