destiel warms the cockles of my heart

Heed the warning for each fics (see tags). I love mostly dark and non con fic but I have the occasional fluff and AU recs too. Enjoy!

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It’s A Terrible Life by trenchcoatandimpala

Summary: Lucifer is a man with a mysterious past and a mission. He’s the supervisor of a group home but he’s also a pimp and Castiel is his personal whore. Castiel thought he may never find love again, not when he’s bartered around and used as party favors. But maybe happiness is not lost when a certain green eyed boy and his six-year-old brother join the home. Unfortunately, fate has other plans. After a brutal assault and the massacre that follows, would they be able to salvage the broken pieces or are they too broken to try?

Words:  139676

Thoughts: Well, what can I say? This fic is pretty dark so be prepared, read the tags! Lots of twists and cliffhangers. The bad guys aren’t who they seem to be and the big bad is just terrible. Consists of two pairing, Destiel of course and the other? That will give you plenty of feels as well. It’s quite heart wrenching at times so prepare tissues. Castiel has been through so much and I just want to wrap him up in a blanket and protect him from the world. It’s scary to see his change from sweet and loving to almost robotic like, in early season 4. Also, young!sam is so adorable!! He’s like 6 in this fic ungh all the cute! All in all, if you feel like angst and Destiel love and plot, this is the fic for it! A MUST READ! 3

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Eucalyptus by xHaruka17x

Summary: On a cold Autumn night, the last thing Officer Winchester ever thought of seeing were two stunning and pain filled blue eyes he could drown into.

Words:  101281

Thoughts: The summary doesn’t do this fic any justice. THIS HOLY MOTHER OF GOD FIC! This man is crazy! I’ve read one of his shorter fic before (he’s pro mpeg in abo verse) and that fic broke my heart and tore me to piece and vowed I have never felt so broken but then I read this fic unknowingly that it was the same author and IT KILLED ME! The last one was short but this is HUGE! I’ve never cried so much! It gave a me a headache and I used up a whole roll of toilet paper. The feels! How does he write this shit? Oh god the cas whump is too much. The angst! Really if you’re loooking for some soul shattering fic this is the one for you. It’s not sad as in terrible things are happening tho of course there are but it’s more towards how the charatcers are feeling; the hurt the overwhelming pain. Jesus on a tricyle, the author must be going through some harrowing experience to even write this shit! Ugh excuse me while I go an kill myself with more tissues. 

Previous amentioned fic: Save Me

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Valuable Commodity by rockstarpeach

Summary: Castiel is a whore. Or a therapist. It's hard to say. It's sometime before 2014, and Castiel's powers have faded. It's not easy getting used to being mostly human, and Castiel finds a way to feel useful. Dean finds out. Kinda bleak.

Words:  7665

Thoughts: Another future!cas fic that is bleak as fuck. He’s so broken, so desolate but yet still cares. And that’s what hurt most. He still cares and he does so without asking anything in return and I just- this is why I love Cas so much.

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It’s Not Easy Being Dean by strangeandcharm

Summary: The Winchesters are given a mission: they have to save Castiel. The trouble is, Castiel isn’t really Castiel any more…

Words:  48728

Thoughts: This motherfucking fic has so much angst and damn Zachariah for putting Cas through it. It’s like It’s A Terrible Life ep except this time Zac did it for Castiel putting him in a life he created. As a prostitute with a hell of a sad back story and the fact that Cas actually believe it even when Dean and Sam found him and hear him recap it in his voice just breaks my heart. You have to read this if you love angst and castiel!whump

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REC by Bookkbaby

Summary: Then he noticed the video camera.

Words:  20105

Thoughts: Read the warning. This fic is dubcon and there’s lot of hurt humiliated Cas and just painful angst because these idiots thinks their love for each other are unreciprocated. In a way, Cas is very much Cas in this fic, the way he talks and everything though the topic is dark which is refreshing. He’s not just some victim so to say. The sex is hot as well although painful to read unf

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Scratchmarks by Bookkbaby

Summary: Sometimes, sex isn't a goal, but a method. A method to escape, a method to forget, or a method to communicate, and Dean doubts that his future self is listening to what Cas is saying.

Words: 11860

Thoughts: This goddamn fic got me crying my eyes out. It started out so hot and intense and just unf but then it became sad like future!cas sad because he is so broken and then the hurt comfort come and I’m crying like a baby. Past!dean is so caring and he’s trying to hard to make future!cas feel however briefly loved and cared for and please, my heart is breaking *sobs*

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Redefining Freedom by emwebb17

Summary: After nearly being defeated in battle by a forty pound box, Misha decides he needs to do something about his lax fitness. Fortunately for him there is a new gym that has opened up the down street from the yoga studio he owns and is running a special on sessions with personal trainers. Unfortunately for him is that his trainer manifests in the form of one Jensen Ackles--and now a whole 'nother kind of exercise is on his mind.

Words:  28320

Thoughts: A lot of awkward flirting so if you love awkward encounter with an undercurrent of sexual tension, then this is a fic for you. And oh, it’s also cockles.

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Po Lazarus by emwebb17

Summary: Jensen is a young corrections officer on his first job at LA County's maximum security prison. Misha is an inmate with no sense of personal boundaries.

Words:  24272

Thoughts: Normally I don’t read cockles fic but this is just so hot. Misha is a BAMF like for real BAMF and he taunts and flirts and is so dangerously hot it makes me shiver. Jensen is such a bottom lol. And this is part of a seriously hot series like unf

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Figuring Out the Bigger Picture by XoXLexLoveXoX

Summary: Dean Winchester meets Castiel on a normal day. Just 2 normal guys on a normal date and entering into a normal relationship. But, Dean can't shake the feeling he knows this guy from somewhere. Pornstar!Cas AU- In which Cas is self-employed and Dean gets addicted

Words:  26610 (WIP though but it doesn’t matter)

Thoughts: OMG the sex is so fucking hot and the fact that Dean is such a noob but Cas is the experienced one here is doing all sort of things to me! And Cas likes it rough, so there’s a sub!cas element in it and dayum

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All Inclusive K!ink by Amazonia_8

Summary: Castiel has always wanted to live out his submissive fantasies, but never had the chance. When he hears about New Sybaris, an exclusive BDSM island resort run by Fergus Crowley, legendary King of Kink, he decides to apply. With no experience in the fetish scene and a waiting list a mile long, just filling out the application forms feels like a safe way to inch his toe over the line, a secret little thrill. After all, there’s absolutely no way Crowley would choose him to join his select group of guests. Dean has been to New Sybaris several years in a row, but this is the first time he’s been invited as one of Crowley’s guest instructors. He can’t friggin’ wait. He’s getting paid to spend two weeks in paradise doing what he loves, teaching people shibari and Doming and endless string of beautiful, willing subs. But it’s the strange, blue-eyed submissive he meets on the very first night that holds the most promise.

Words:  29523

Thoughts: One word. HOT. Like if such a place exist, can I sign up???

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Crossing Boundaries by Nariko_d

Summary: Three years after serving time for a crime he didn't commit, Castiel is finally living a quiet and normal life with his husband, Balthazar. His life, though, is thrown for a loop when he opens the door one day to find his ex-cellmate, Dean Winchester, standing on his doorstep. As he becomes closer again to the man who sheltered him from the horrors of prison, his marriage starts to suffer, and Castiel finds himself struggling to keep Dean in his life without risking his husband. But in the process, Castiel starts to learn a few things about what he really wants in life, and realizes the choices he has to make to truly be happy.

Words:  71873

Thoughts: Bewarned this has a lot of Cas!Balth pairing and almost feels like ‘cheating’ which is not a trope i’m a fan of and it makes me uncomfortable reading it. Cas’s fate in prison was really sad and how he deals with it when he’s on the outside is told in details and Dean is so patient and sweet so there’s that!

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Getting a Passing Grade by thewinchesterlifestyle

Summary: Castiel was desperate to keep his soccer scholarship and that meant he would do anything to get a passing grade from his hardest professor.

Thoughts: If you like porn fic lol just visit this author page. She/he has all sort of porny fic that will fit whatever you like and for me, it’s always bottom!cas because that is just my thing!

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Prison Bitch by  thewinchesterlifestyle

Summary: Castiel is the newest inmate and everyone wants a piece of him.

Words:  1279

Thoughts: Beware this is very noncon but again hits all my kink. Don’t kink shame me because I find it hot lol! Read the tags!

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Something Good by  loversantiquities

SUMMARY: A week after a drunken blackout, Dean and Castiel wake up to find an email from Answered Prayers, a porn studio in Southern California known for its natural chemistry between its models, with no recollection of ever sending it in the first place. The worst part? They were accepted.

Words:  13313

Thoughts: This is quite hot lol but they UST and the pining lol! A fun read :)

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It's a Cruel World by thewinchesterlifestyle

Summary: After Metatron steals his grace Castiel is cast out but ends up far from the Winchesters. Needing money for food/shelter and to survive he finds himself selling his body in the hopes of being able to make it back. The problem is the money he makes goes to food, shelter, lube and basic necessities...

Words:  2164

Thoughts: Okay, this is just pure porn, one that hit all my kink like fuck this is my spank bank material. I don’t know, don’t mind me. I’ll just hide in my corner.

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Hesitation by  apokteino

Summary: Zachariah orders Castiel to seduce Dean in order to strengthen his allegiance to heaven. Castiel thinks it will be something to endure. Dean just thinks Castiel wants him. Neither one is right.

Words:  24544

Thoughts: Ugh this fic! Ohgod! Poor Dean because wtf Zac and goddamit Cas! Poor Cas, he’s totally fucked up in the head due to the whole listen to order thing and then since this is canon so we follow the story from season 4 his rebellion. Very sad at times but the rape recovery was solid. I really like how the author dwell into Cas line of thoughts etc. Angst.

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Professional Couple Only by saltyfeathers

Summary: There's a haunted apartment building in Vermont, and the ad says "Professional couple only". Dean and Cas rise to the occasion.

Words:  37153

Thoughts: This is quite like a case fic except we dwell more into Dean emotional turmoil about this fake relationship thingy he has with Cas. Lots of UST especially it’s so obvious his pining is reciprocated! Ugh I love Cas in this fic. Very on point! ^^