The day I first laid eyes on him I didn't think I'd ever fall for him. As I stood there watching him, looking so cute in his camo's I realised that this boy was more than he made out to be, there was more to him than the cheeky, cute, soldier. I had to know what was hidden away. I had to know him. As time went on we grew closer, we talked a couple of times a week, saw each other once a week. I got the first thoughts... He was cute, funny, intelligent, he was a good friend but I knew there was still more. More and more time went on... We talked almost everyday and that was when I realised, there was more... I'd known about it all along, there was love. This boy was my idea of perfection. I had to tell him how I feel, besides if I had have left it he might not feel the same. So I told him, I fell for him, I liked him as more than a friend. His reaction... He didn't feel the same, he had just gotten out of a relationship. We kind of lost touch even though we still saw each other once a week. Months went by and I knew I had to move on... A few months later I met this other boy, my heart got broken. That first boy, him and I started talking again, we'd talk for hours on end, all day every day, until one of us fell asleep at night. I realised I was falling for him again but I already knew he didn't like me in the same way. Then one night we were talking about love... I let slip that I had fallen for him again, I just stuffed up any chance I'd ever have of being with him. I just wanted to throw my phone and never look at it again, but then I heard the 'ping'... So I picked up the phone and read those 5 words in shock. 'I feel the same way'. I couldn't believe what I was seeing, was this a dream? Am I going to wake up shortly? We talked all the time but neither of us ever made a move on that... I tried, but I didn't try hard enough. We kind of lost touch again, I tried talking to him, he'd seen everything but didn't reply, I knew I'd lost the love of my life. I continued to try talking to him. Had I done something wrong? I had to find out. I continued messaging him. Then one day I got a reply, he said he's someone that someone like me wouldn't want to be around... Was that a joke? This is the boy I love. I love him for his past, his now and I want to be his future. He said he'd done something but he didn't want to disappoint me or change things so he couldn't tell me what. We lost touch again. I'd lost him, I'd lost the love of my life. I laid in my bed for days on end just staring at my phone... I'd hoped I'd hear from him, I was giving up. Every time I'd scrambled for my phone every time I got a message, but they were never him. Until one night, it was really late. I heard that 'ping' again. I scrambled for my phone, it was him... We both wondered what each other was doing awake because normally one of us would have been asleep by midnight. But now it was almost two in the morning. We began talking again... I'd realised, I got my love back again. And this time, I'm not letting him go. This last night has been the best in a long time. I'm in love with him and this time I'm going to do something about it. My happiness was back, my boy was back. I have the old Zach back, I missed him way too much.
