i aspire to be loved.

cut open my sternum and pull my little ribs around you. [ indie oc for rbs ]

[immediatedeaths]

im too sleepy to exist right now and im also online shopping so much right now.......

[calumthms]

"They get weird."

[liljipsi]

  ❝Lung thing? Oh, do tell. It could be a virgin thing. We cling together until the sexual attention comes around at the right time. When you do figure it out make sure it doesn’t hit you in the face!❞

[immediatedeaths]

     ❝ lung cancer, my bad, i forget people don't just –– know. thank you for that advice, i'll be sure to keep it with me all my virgin life. ❞

[ofserendipity]

  "I just ––– okay." Vanessa nods slowly as she speaks. Right about now, she just wants to curl up in a ball. Her gaze travels right down to the hand of his on her arm, then up to see the expression on his face. "Yeah, yeah. Of course. Take your time." 

[immediatedeaths]

         "it's just that –––– i can tell that you feel guilty. a lot of people do when they're around me. i just don't like it when people are guilty because of me." his voice is quiet, perhaps because he hates admitting these things. he's quiet for a minute, letting himself truly calm down. "if i ever –– y'know, die, i don't really have anyone else but you, so you can take all my stuff. like my drawing and writings and stuff.. they're all yours when i die."

[xwxlves-blog]

     ”as it should. no i did not!    god, you’re being difficult,     you know that? no, stupid,    i meant regular people with    regular people fetishes. and    yes, sex you up. you know    that’s what you want.”

[immediatedeaths]

"i know i'm being difficult, it's kind of in my nature. do regular people fetishes even exist, man? okay, so, maybe i do want someone to sex me up. in my defense, i am a hormonal teenage boy with wants and needs."

[rothxsiblings]

  "i only knew it because my friends before i came in here used to party and have sex every weekend. but, u-um.. j-just forget about it. i-uh.. i gotta go.” 

[immediatedeaths]

he doesn't even continue their conversation. he's had his eyes glued to her lips the entire time she spoke. simpling pressing his lips against her own in the heat of the moment.

[oftalesandlegends]

  China nodded and gathered all the shades of purple she could find and some blues and started working on the dress, “The Wizard’s wife said she would get me some nice color pencils for Christmas if I’m good and cooperate with the nurses.”

[immediatedeaths]

"well, if anything happens and you don't end up getting 'em, i've got a whole bunch of fancy artist colored pencils in my room that you can use." he states, nodding his head slightly.

[tinyxblondeone-deactivated20150]

  " well that’s what i’m here for.”

[immediatedeaths]

    "i – yeah, that makes sense. anyway, how are things and such?"

[xoellamorris-blog]

         ”i’m sure that isn’t true i mean, satan can’t possess nice people, thats not good.” she retorts with a nod of her head, a grin on her face, a blush devouring at the girls cheeks. “and i’ve never had someone draw me before !!”

[immediatedeaths]

         "you never know. satan comes in all types of forms. i think, i don't really know. i only ever half paid attention in church." he shrugs, laughing slightly. "there's a first for everything !!"

[dearnobodies]

  "yes well that’s no excuse, i can’t even walk around your room it’s so dirty. you won’t cheat on mcdonalds but you’ll cheat on me with your roomie, i got you.”

[immediatedeaths]

"the nurses say the same thing. i mean, maybe i should start cleaning sometime soon. okay, i don't even have a roommate to cheat on you with, dork."

[lowliifes]

     venice knew that she was an embarrassment to her family, to her mother and her father ( though her father definitely wasn’t the best either, being a complete drunk and all - out abusive asshole that really needed to just take a seat ) — apparently, if your daughter tries to take her own life but fails, resulting in an ambulance coming to get her, equipped with paramedics up the ass, it’s an embarrassment ; an attention - seeking thrill. she knew neighbor’s would talk, people at school would talk upon and before her return ; and, well, it was too much for them to handle, being known as the family with the depressed teenage daughter. so, she was now here, much to her dismay, but .. running into otto — literally — could very well change that. but, of course, .. he’s here. in a hospital. that’s never good. teeth sinking into her bottom lip as she stares back into his familiar eyes, venice almost smiles ; her eyes still a bit wide at the run - in, stomach tying itself into many knots as her grip tightens on the stack of papers in her arms, swallowing thickly. she doesn’t know what to do, what to say .. she’s just kind of. in shock, really. it’d been so long since the two had seen each other, and now, it was just .. overwhelming. she was pretty sure she was going to burst into tears at any moment, too. blinking a couple of times, she’ll bring a sweater paw up to her eyes and wiping them quickly, her gaze never leaving his as she finally manages to stutter out a response. 

            ❛ it’s really me, i .. oh my gosh, otto .. you’re .. you’re here ? ❜

[immediatedeaths]

otto was, in some sense, glad to be here. he was getting help, maybe even meeting a few friends, but, he was primarily far away from the memories of his parents. the distance between nebraska to california was quite enough to eradicate enough negative memories of his father's abusive ways. maybe he wasn't all that well, mentally and all. it's not easy to let those memories fade away, as they always seem to come back around when he least expects it. though he knows, ( despite his not so heavy religious beliefs, ) that his mother was someplace else, looking down on him. being somewhat glad that she wasn't alive to see him go through all of this. hell, he even hates when his cousins come to visit. he isn't too fond on the thought of letting his family see him in such a weak state. some days he feels as if he's on top of the world, other days he feels miniscule, as if crushed by the weight. it's odd seeing venice, as she had brought an onsent of memories of his past. she, being the only good thing about it, was a remnant of his past that he didn't think he'd see again. he wants to hug her, but he wonders if that would be too weird. maybe she wasn't open to physical contact after a while. god, this was weird.

          "w–wow, i can't believe this. uh, yeah.. my lungs suck.           i mean, i'm here –– because i have lung cancer... yeah."

[liljipsi]

  ❝I can see where you’re coming from! If you’re really having problems you should find someone quick. I’m sure it will be easy!❞

[immediatedeaths]

      ❝ contrary to popular belief, it's rather hard for me to get anybody remotely willing to have sex with me. maybe it's the lung thing, maybe it's the virgin thing. i have yet to figure it out. ❞

[hayyelisms-archive-blog]

              ❛ try me. i get more things                  than people think. ❜

[immediatedeaths]

❛ i really do not think you'd undertand my      culinary art.. ❜

[ofserendipity]

  "I guess so.." She shrugs her shoulders, as if she didn’t feel like the ceiling should fall right now and crush only her. That would feel better than what her brain is telling her right now. "I feel incredibly special. You ready to go?" 

[immediatedeaths]

      "it's really okay. i don't want you to feel guilty because of my disease." he says quietly, a sigh plummeting from his petals. he'll gently grab her forearm, calloused digits gently tapping upon the smooth skin. "can we just –––– can we just sit here for a minute?"

[xwxlves-blog]

     ”i’ll try not to let the arrogance get    to my head too much. but that doesn’t    change much, really. sure, you might    turn off some people with that but hey,    i don’t know one seventeen year old    guy who’s a sex master. don’t be so    negative, i’m sure plenty of people     want to sex you up.”

[immediatedeaths]

"that warms my very heart to hear that, noah. some people, did you actually mean the entire human race with the exception of weird human beings with weird fetishes? sex me up? i – i don't know how to feel about that."

[tinyxblondeone-deactivated20150]

  " not this one. ”

[immediatedeaths]

"how kind of you, emma, to say what you actually          mean to say."

[rothxsiblings]

  "see, i’ve heard it sucks unless it’s with someone you really  care about. so, i’ve kind of  been waiting until i found that person, and i think i  might have and he’s  standing right in front  of me. i’m up for it if you are.” 

[immediatedeaths]

"see, i didn't hear that part. i'm only told one half of the information about anything. wait ––––––– is tha –––– wh – i'm so confused..."