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Bad news

i just found out my grandfather has cancer.

this sucks.

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The craziest thing happened! I got tickets to see Mitski :0 I still cant believe but if Covid doesn't fuck me over then in April of 2022 I'm going to see her live in London!!!!! I just cant believe it. after all this time of absolutely adoring her and having her music with me through the hardest moments it feels surreal that i get to go and watch her live! Im taking my brother along with me since he likes her too! its going to be so much fun i cant wait :) if all goes well ill be sure to post pictures from the concert here!! My fav song at the moment is: Carry Me Out

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"In the future... if by some miracle you ever find yourself in the position to fall in love again... fall in love with me"

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Since we last spoke, I have read many books. All in which i want to share my opinion with you on. I'll start with one i read most recently. It ends with us by Colleen Hoover. I want to start by stating that Colleen is a very talented writer and that her style of writing was very captivating and allowed me to thoroughly enjoy the plot and characters. This book was hard to put down. I sometimes struggle with completing books due to distractions, but this one was quite easy to finish. It is labeled as a sad book that will leave you in tears, but honestly i would not label it as that myself. Personally, i did not cry, nor did i find it too sad. There is a lot of sensitive material in this novel that allow you to feel with the main character. But the ending is almost understandable if you know what i mean. not devastating just what is right. All in all, i give this book a 4/5. It is a great read but i wish it lived up to the sadness many claim it has. Then again, maybe i am the problem. Anyways, till next time!

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Its been a while

Hello again, it's been a while since i posted on here. To be honest Ive been caught up in life events. I went to university since we last spoke, which i have much to tell you about but thats for another post. Im 19 as of 8 days. I like being 19, i was born on the 19th, my favorite number is 9, and so i love everything about this age. But I was not done being 18 if that makes sense. I haven't bathed in the light the age holds and i feel as though it just passed me by. although i really did try to appreciate my youth, i didn't know how. does anyone even know how to do that? i doubt it. Oh also, i have covid right now. Just before new years! just my luck. whatever at least i now have the time to sit down and blog about it. expect some posts from me ;)

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This was hands down one of the best anime I have ever watched. The execution was near perfect (unintentional irony). The way it captures the mental illnesses and warps the movement of time is incredible. For the entirety of the 80 minutes, you are sat there thinking you know what is going on and where the movie is leading. Until the last 10 minutes send you in a spiral whereby everything you thought was real was nearly a perspective. When I finished the movie I spent an hour reading up on the ending and was amazed by what I read and how it all came together. Without spoilers, I highly recommend this to anyone who appreciates these types of concepts. Any other animes I should watch?

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I went to a party yesterday, one I have been anticipating for weeks now, imagining that I will have a surreal experience with someone there, that I will feel and look amazing, that the night would be filled with blurry memories and flashing lights. But the outcome hardly checked the marks. As I wore my clothes and swished shades too dark on my built-up acne, I felt more repulsed by my own reflection than ever. Looking around me, my friends looked flawless, looked desirable, looked lovable. I nearly stayed behind but I shook the feeling and went. The lights were blinding and the music was loud, but dancing on your own is hardly fun, especially when everyone around you seems to have a person to dance with. my friends disappeared one by one. Each of my friends was with their person, and the people beside me were acting as each other's temporary someone. As I quietly sat on the couch after hours of dancing trying to impress anyone who would care to see, I came to realize that I am not nor will I ever be that type of girl. I sat there watching being blinded by the white light. That is always how it has been, I'm not sure what drives me to believe that it will change if I did my hair up or flaunted my body. I am simply just not desirable in any way. Tears built up because it sunk that in this universe I am forever the girl who watches from the corner, wishing she was anyone but herself, glancing sulking in envy. I will never be the girl carelessly dancing or holding a conversation. I will be quiet and subdued and simply take up space.

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( That is not me in the picture ) I am learning how to skateboard!! Finally after a long time of longing to try it out I bought my first amateur skateboard. Although the grip tape is still not placed so there isn't much I can do right now. None the less I have been jumping around on it all day, I slipped twice on marble floors, that hurt. Any tips for a beginner? Psa. I'm scared to skateboard in public cuz I suck.

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"I know who you pretend I am"

- Mitski ( Washing machine Heart)

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I recently started this book. I am in around chapter 40. Although the plot is somewhat interesting I am finding it hard to keep myself interested in the writing and honestly just want to finish it to finish it at this point. Although many claim the ending is worth the wait so I guess i will have to see for myself. Has anyone read this ? any thoughts? 

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I have been listening to Mitski a-lot lately. the playlist above has been on repeat! I find her music to be so genuine and I love her voice. I highly recommend her to anyone whose trying to get into indie type of music. She doesn't have a single bad song and I stand by that. I love her always!! My favorite song at the moment is your best american girl. Very relatable and well written. 

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Im new

Hello, this is my first ever blog written post. Is tumblr still a thing? honestly when i think of this media i remember flower crowns and dan and pil from 2014-2016. But recently I have been longing a place to vent and to share my ideas anonymously, so i figured its about time i had my own account. So here i am. i will be writing about anything and everything i feel like in addition to sharing my art with you sometimes. I dont expect anyone to read this, maybe this page will act like a diary to me, which is fine with me.