Ramblings From Time To Time

Gendernull - He/Him They/Them - Adult trying to Adult at life

[imperfectspeech]

This Blog will be for my ranting I just want to throw into the void and not connected to my main account. Throw my frustration all in one place, where I currently don’t have followers. Maybe the void will echo back idk. I’m here to complain about shit.

Name: just call me Imperfect I guess

Gender: I haven’t one. I am neither feminine nor masculine. My Gender is NULL

Pronouns: starting to think my gender nothing is fluid and likes to change between window and air- he him and they them - Call me Imperfect

I don’t do DNI’s I just block people, easier, simpler, the peace of mind I get is infinite.

This blog posts on a schedule of “whenever I am overthinking about something and need to type it out” and “might reblog a post that fits my frustrations about the world at large”

[imperfectspeech]

Call out posts and mass reports to tumblr staff are no different than witch hunting

You are just digital witch hunting. You are killing trans women and black people (trans black people) via digital witch hunting

You are no better than puritans

Many trans people have their platforms on here and get their livelihood on here.

You are no better than puritans

Wikipedia: Puritan’s

Under the beliefs tab-

Gender and punishment-

[Many Puritan communities operated under strict values that determined gender roles and generally “pure” behavior. Many of these values were shaped from their interpretation of the Bible. If anyone in the community was found to have disobeyed or strayed from these values, they would be reported and put through the censure process. This involved a public confession from the accused of their wrongdoings. People would be censured for things that ranged from immodesty and cursing to domestic abuse and fornication.[100]Religious leaders would often make an example of the censured individual by turning their experience into a lesson for the congregation. In some cases, ministers or elders would meet with an individual to counsel them for a “private sin,” such as impiety or struggles with faith, before taking public action. In 1648, Puritan minister Thomas Hooker explained the necessity of church discipline: “[God] hath appointed Church-censures as good Physick, to purge out what is evill, as well as Word and Sacraments, which, like good diet, are sufficient to nourish the soul to eternal life.” They saw these practices as necessary for the community to keep each other in check and in line with their “godly paths.”]

[tboy-trash]

not participating or exposing trans women to the mob of people on this website hunting them for sport is an active choice you must take every day. on top of blocking every transmisogynist you see, that includes showing some grace when a trans woman says something mean in her own blog. if you know her, talk to her if you want, but if you don't, fucking let it go. you might not be harassing her but other people *will* the second you give them an inch of leeway. and btw none of this means you can't disagree with trans women or can't point out bigoted behaviour or whatever the worst possible faith interpretation of this post is.

[tboy-trash]

the point is you will inevitably encounter a trans woman saying something mean or hurtful sooner or later (←women are people) but if you're non transmisogynized you need to realize YOU are the one with power in this situation all else being equal. one screenshot in the wrong hands is all it takes to get the mob going.

[tboy-trash]

honestly this applies to any marginalized demographic. we talk a lot about how thin skinned people are when marginalized people joke about reversing the roles of oppression (i.e. "down with the cis", "bomb that kills all transmascs", calling white people "crackers", etc), but also occasionally you will encounter people who are taking their very valid feelings about their oppression and being actually intentionally hurtful. and yet your hurt feelings, again, do not reverse the power relationship between you and someone more marginalized than you, or the responsibility that comes with it

[imperfectspeech]

I got weighed at a doctors appointment recently. So my mom got to hear how much I weigh currently. My weight stays in a certain range. It doesn’t go to far above or below. The only thing that made it really go down was my diabetes getting worse a couple years ago

So my mom was like “you’ve gained some weight” no this is my normal weight. “What about X weight you were back then?” You mean when I was getting sicker and sicker? You mean then? When I wasn’t really medicated for the diabetes and it was steadily getting worse and worse? That time period? The time period where we were trialing medication after medication and none were really working for me? That time period? The time period where my blood sugar levels were at their highest? That time period?

I’m sure I was the image of health. Wow you lost some weight how did you do it? Thank you it’s the chronic illness that makes me not process food correctly

[honorarytheyfab]

(cw: sexual assault) the pedophile -as it is understood outside of academic circles- is a mythical creature. the idea that a complete stranger who kidnaps and sexually assaults kids is their biggest threat is absolutely insane; not one case of CSA (child sexual assault) in a hundred looks like that. CSA is committed almost uniformly by adults in a preestablished position of authority (such as family, family friends, clergy, or teachers) and in a way that a victim who doesn't know what sexual assault looks like will be left unsure what happened to them. without knowing concretely how sex and sexuality works, would you be able to tell the difference between molestation and the various other forms of unwanted physical touch and abuse kids are regularly subjected to? would it even seem that different? but parenthood and the submission of youth to adults as institutions are threatened by the reality of CSA. adults need to justify their ownership of children through an imagined outside threat constantly held at bay through their diligence. the truth - that putting yourself in such a position of authority over children directly enables abuse (including sexual abuse) - is thrown aside.

[watercolormagicalgirl]

i don’t know where the post this makes me think of is, but the general idea of it was that children aren’t properly taught how consent works, because if they did have a functioning framework to understand all the ways in which they’re exploited by adults—and continue to be exploited as adults, in different ways!—it would pose a serious threat to the social order, which is, i think, highly relevant here

[thelawfulchaotic]

When my clients say “but my mom hit me first!” and I have to say “legally, she’s allowed to.” As long as she doesn’t leave bruises, my old judge used to say.

“My dad made me give him my car. That’s mine, I bought it with money from my job.” And I have to say: “You’re a minor. Under the law, you don’t own property, your guardians do.”

When they say, “My mom is watching everything I do, she takes my phone every night, she made her boyfriend take the door off my room” and I have to say, with gritted fucking teeth, “You don’t have a legal right to privacy from your parent.”

You can enter into contracts, but all of them are voidable under grounds of infancy — except student loans, for some fucking reason.

You can’t leave. Your parents have the right to force you to come back.

This is not theoretical. I have seen every one of these things (except contract voiding) play out time and time again in a courtroom, with real life consequences: juvenile detention. Inpatient facilities. GPS ankle monitor. Community service. Kids are horrified to hear how little power and protection they have. And I’ve never gotten over my horror.

[luxlightly]

Student loans is not the only contract a child can enter but not void: Marriage is another.

My sister has worked in sex trafficking law for around 10 years and a the general pattern is "if they're an adult, they were trafficked by their partner. If they're a child, they were trafficked by their parent". And one of, if not THE biggest way children are trafficked(in the USA at least) is via forced marriage. Up and until 2019, this was legal in every state in the US. It still is in all but I think 8, as of 2025.

My sister drafted and fought for multiple bills to end child marriage in various US states and people fought TOOTH and NAIL against passing them. Because most states, while they allow child marriage, require the parents' consent. The child's isn't necessary, but the parents' is. The idea that parents will always have their child's best interests at heart and always have the last say in anything regarding the child's life is one that many people would not abandon in any way.

And, since a child cannot enter a legally binding agreement with a lawyer, they cannot file to get divorced, file for a restraining order, or go to a shelter for victims of domestic or sexual abuse. Running away from an abusive marriage makes them a runaway child that, legally, has to be returned to their legal guardian who, in the case of a child being married to an adult, is their abuser.

[imperfectspeech]

My dad was a huge man, tall and fat. He was an addict, self medicated for things that the psychiatric industry just failed at helping him with during his time.

Doctors don’t like big fat, addicted mentally unstable people.

He wasn’t the best person in the world by any stretch, and I often am glad that he’s no longer in my families life because of how he treated my mother.

But he didn’t deserve how he was treated either. People hated him not because he was a jack ass, but because he was a big fat person, who was a mentally unstable wreck, who drank and smoked.

And he died because of it. A doctor not wanting to properly repair and replace his dialysis equipment. Shit that led straight into his arteries and heart. He died of blood loss, because a doctor didn’t want to work on a fat man.

How many fat people die like he did? Faulty medical equipment. Improper medical care and procedures. Lack of treatment. Undiagnosed illnesses and conditions. How many die because doctors find us gross and unpleasant, and because insurance considers us a liability and burden.

That bastard of a father should still be alive. And it pisses me off. He died because he’s like me, big and fat, mentally unstable.

The only thing I got going for me is I’m medicated for my mental health and I’m not an alcoholic. But that doesn’t help others like him. Those that aren’t medicated, those that are addicted to something

And it pisses me off

[imperfectspeech]

You know how hard it is to get put on diabetes medication when you actually need it? And I don’t like being on it, I hate a lot of the side effects. And the side effects I despise are seen as “good” by a lot of doctors because “ well if you’re never hungry the problem just goes away doesn’t it? Blood sugar can’t go up if you never eat”

GONNA START THROWING ROCKS. You know how many hoops I had to jump through to get both my doctor and insurance to agree to put me on

INSULIN

Ya know….The thing that lets me process food without my blood sugar skyrocketing in the highest fucking heavens?!

[imperfectspeech]

I can assure that glp1s are not to be trifled with as someone who is taking them out of medical necessity. When I first started taking my weekly dose, I felt overly full on an empty stomach. And doctors thought this was a good thing. I couldn’t really get myself to eat anything, as a diabetic, and they thought this was normal and good.

I don’t know why people hate fat people so much that they would put themselves through something like this. I don’t really feel hunger signals anymore until my blood sugar is pretty low which isn’t the best way for that. Diabetes medications when you’re relatively healthy is going to do more harm than good.

Hell I would argue in the beginning it was doing more harm than good for me and I am the target audience for these types of meds. And it honestly didn’t help me a lot, although that’s my experience with them.

The thing that helped me the most was insulin. Because my body doesn’t like the insulin it produces naturally, so giving it insulin daily basically turned everything around for me. And it took forever for my doctor and insurance to give me the life saving medication because they considered it a last resort.

Dieting did nothing. Fasting is the only way I could lower my blood sugar reliably and I prefer eating regular meals. Most pills like metformin I had terrible side effects from. I have a hard time working out when I’m tired from the diabetes all the time.

Insulin and a continuous glucose monitor have been the only things that have helped in an impactful way. I’m slowly getting enough energy to exercise again. I can eat IN MODERATION some of my favorite foods again. ( homemade bread my beloved)

Why is insulin considered the last resort when it literally saves lives.

I told them immediately and outright I would never be getting gastric bypass surgery, I didn’t even give them the option to offer it to me

[imperfectspeech]

You know how hard it is to get put on diabetes medication when you actually need it? And I don’t like being on it, I hate a lot of the side effects. And the side effects I despise are seen as “good” by a lot of doctors because “ well if you’re never hungry the problem just goes away doesn’t it? Blood sugar can’t go up if you never eat”

GONNA START THROWING ROCKS. You know how many hoops I had to jump through to get both my doctor and insurance to agree to put me on

INSULIN

Ya know….The thing that lets me process food without my blood sugar skyrocketing in the highest fucking heavens?!

[imperfectspeech]

I’ve had depression pretty much my entire life, since like elementary school. I’ve been working on my mental health longer than my physical health. I’ve been in therapy so long the people at the place I go to know me by looking at me.

I’m not depressed because I’m fat. I’m depressed because it’s clinical and my brain is a piece of shit. But you can’t really know a person’s life story just by looking and assuming can you?

I’ve been depressed longer than I have been fat

[imperfectspeech]

Did they think me complaining about periods being blood clots heavy means I have blood clots in my regular blood?????

You think I have the heart of a horse or something? Those period clots are almost quarters, I’d be dead if those were in my regular blood

[imperfectspeech]

Oh they’re a little fucker who stalks the tags to harass fat people I see.

[imperfectspeech]

I’ve had depression pretty much my entire life, since like elementary school. I’ve been working on my mental health longer than my physical health. I’ve been in therapy so long the people at the place I go to know me by looking at me.

I’m not depressed because I’m fat. I’m depressed because it’s clinical and my brain is a piece of shit. But you can’t really know a person’s life story just by looking and assuming can you?

I’ve been depressed longer than I have been fat

[imperfectspeech]

Did they think me complaining about periods being blood clots heavy means I have blood clots in my regular blood?????

You think I have the heart of a horse or something? Those period clots are almost quarters, I’d be dead if those were in my regular blood

[imperfectspeech]

I’ve had depression pretty much my entire life, since like elementary school. I’ve been working on my mental health longer than my physical health. I’ve been in therapy so long the people at the place I go to know me by looking at me.

I’m not depressed because I’m fat. I’m depressed because it’s clinical and my brain is a piece of shit. But you can’t really know a person’s life story just by looking and assuming can you?

I’ve been depressed longer than I have been fat

[imperfectspeech]

I’m just remembering a lot of shit doctors have done. I remember my gynecologist telling me that my extremely heavy, pulpy (blood clots the size coins), and long periods were probably because of my diabetes

My diabetes is a pretty recent development in my life. Sure I’ve always had the chance of getting it through out my life thanks to my fantastic genetics. But I think eleven year old me wasn’t diabetic yet when dealing with this period bullshit.

And frankly I’m always too exhausted to deal with medical fatphobia because of my depression, fatigue from the diabetes, or fatigue from the periods I get if it’s timed right.

I probably need to go back to my gynecologist sometime and go “hey you saying it was the diabetes was fucking stupid and here’s ten reasons why” as politely as I can

[imperfectspeech]

Why do the dentists in my area not work on diabetics teeth anyway? The only reason I have been given is higher risk of infection, but wouldn’t that make it more important to work on our teeth?

I haven’t had my teeth worked on for over two years because I dread hearing “your blood sugar is too high” and a hour drive to the dentist was for a rejection. They wouldn’t even clean my teeth last time I got far enough to be in the chair.

I have an exposed nerve thanks to a cavity that has went untreated by these people. I can’t brush my teeth properly if I don’t want that nerve exposed to air.

Let me tell you something. I don’t think they ask skinny people if they’re diabetic and to check their blood sugar. I have this sneaking suspicion they don’t check with skinny folks. Maybe it’s me being pissy and upset. But would they genuinely care to ask someone like my tiny stick thin older sister if she’s diabetic and to prick her finger on the spot? I DOUBT THAT THEY WOULD EVEN IF SHE IS JUST HAS GENETICALLY PRONE TO THE FUCKING DISEASE AS I WAS.

TYPE TWO ON BOTH SIDES OF THE FAMILY. WHY IS NO ONE ASKING HER SINCE IM BLOOD RELATED TO HER HUH

[imperfectspeech]

I’m going to be honest, I think my doctor and insurance not letting me go on insulin and get a continuous glucose monitor until I suffered enough from type two diabetes should be considered medical abuse. (They considered insulin the last resort)

Just keep dieting and exercising even though nothing is working. Keep using these non insulin medications even though they don’t help you much. You have to suffer from this disease for a long enough time to prove that it’s serious enough to properly treat it

Dentists in our area won’t treat you while your blood sugar levels are too high? Just gotta wait for the suffering quota! You can be treated properly when we say so

[quixoticanarchy]

damn people rly hate type 2 diabetics don't they

[quixoticanarchy]

i (type 1 diabetic) was explaining autoimmune diseases to someone and she was like ohh right so yours is the good kind of diabetes where you didn't do it to yourself. to which i objected that's not how type 2 works either. and she said well that's the fat old people disease. and i was like you can't say that, a) not how it works and b) extremely rude. and her defense was her grandparents have type 2 and "did it to themselves" and since they're fat old people she reserves the right to hate on them. i understand hating shitty grandparents but YOU are the shitty one here to hate on them for their medical conditions and weight rather than literally anything else. hello?!

anyway type 2 diabetics i'm sorry about the world. everyone* be kind to type 2s or else

*note to type 1 diabetics especially we need to be better at solidarity and not cling to being the "good ones" at type 2s' expense. what the fuck is a good kind of diabetes anyway

[quixoticanarchy]

also worth saying diabetes is a complex reaction to a not-yet-fully-understood set of factors and environmental pressures and genetics and it's reductive and fatphobic to say fat=diabetes BUT EVEN SO no matter if someone did incontrovertibly "give themself diabetes" that's not a free pass for dehumanization. shut upppp

[angelicsister-deactivated202602]

god yknow...this is just so fucking grim.

i just spent today feeling so proud of a girl for accepting herself, and feeling grateful that i got the chance to play a part in helping her get there. full of the love involved in "cracking an egg," which is to say helping a fellow sister Live, love herself, become herself. it's the most incredible thing in the world.

and meanwhile, here is britt and her crowd, the harassment "justice" campaign, who are aghast and appalled at just that, a girl helping another girl find herself.

this isn't fucking coercion, as always the "force" in forcefem is never actually about forcing anything, it's about helping, it's about pushing through the fear. you don't fucking know these people, britt, you don't know these people, ridafi14, why the fuck are you acting like you know this is some twisted and sinister plot, a breach of trust. why does it feel "icky" to you for a girl to help another girl live? christ alive, in the post it says "she knows she's trans" but is too afraid to do anything about it. a loving supportive friend willing to help me take that step would've made me transition much faster!! that sort of support and love could have saved the lives of so many of my sisters.

how fucking dare you. you're all sickening to me. it's so mask off it's honestly startling. you find it "icky" for more trans women to live and be happy. it's "coercion" for us to help our sisters survive. it's "gross" and it "rubs you the wrong way" to see trans joy celebrated.

i hope nobody ever falls for you bullshit again. you're all transmisogynistic assholes and you deserve each other.

[melodies-stereo]

they hate to see trans women existing and being happy, ESPECIALLY if that trans woman could've remained a sad and depressed boy if it weren't for the evil tranny telling her she can be a girl.

[euniexenoblade]

This is what it's about. This is why they refuse to acknowledge that isff helped trans women/transfems, this is why they target trans women specifically, they see helping in need trans women as "coercion." They're terfs. Literally. This is how terfs talk about this. They want these people to suffer for years never knowing who they are, they want us scared to tell them we know what they're going through, they want these people to be too scared to ever come out and transition. They hate trans women. They want us to lose our communities, jobs, homes, they want us to detransition and die homeless. They want trans women to suffer as dysphoric men they get to bully for being too faggy.

[um-jammer-tranny]

Hey in case you weren’t aware “TMA” and “TME” have been co opted by TERFs. I think, or maybe it was always used by TERFs. All I know is everyone else I’ve seen use it is a TERF. Be safe

pretending to take this genuinely, though it almost certainly wasn't written so--be fucking for real with me anon, where are the terfs using tme and tma?

are they actually terfs? or are they trans women that stepped the fuck out of line and got labeled terfs and separatists for expressing and sticking up for themselves

be safe. do you have any genuine care for my well being? it reads more like a threat. be safe using that, or we will label you a terf next

[um-jammer-tranny]

if you call trans women terfs either kill yourself or block me whichever is most readily convenient

[daughter-of-sapph0]

ah yes, terfs, historically a group who has cared so much about transmisogyny and who is affected by it and who can exempt themselves from it