Maybe one day I will meet you in a coffee shop Somewhere far away. I don't even like coffee but I'm sure you would like a cup with some dessert. I hope you will be flabbergasted when you see me walk in. I'll ask the waiter what I should take because I truly have no idea what i should drink or eat and there you come. Saying that You would love to show me the menu because this is your place to go. I smile at you and say” if you don't mind then I’ll join your table.” i will be silent so I could think of something to say but it has to be good and make sense. I want to sound smart but I didn’t know that all you wanted is me to talk about everything that is on my mind. You wanna see my lips move and see the excitement in my eyes when I talk about my most wonderful moments in life. You want to know me but I'm scared that you only wanted to see what you already imagined. I want to be the version that you have in mind when you saw me walk in . I'm sure that you think that I don't like cheese on my bread or horror movies that totally sucks. Do I look like that type of person? I do like cheese they have to smelt on my bread. I want a warm feeling in my mouth. I love to laugh while watching a bad movie maybe we could remake a better versions. Let's be wild and crazy.
This clearly doesn’t make sense but these are my night time thoughts :)
I guess this is teenage life- part 3 euphoria fanfic
Author’s note:
I was lying when I said I would post " tomorrow " 😬 gotta go to jail now because it took me two months to get my shit together anyway quarantine time so I hope you enjoy this..... Stupid chapter <3
Stay safe and inside
imthatbasicgirl: “I guess this is teenage life- part 1 This is not where I wanted to be right now but let’s be real I have nothing better to
They dropped me off after we got all the stuff for tonight. I was standing in front of my door searching for my keys in my black little purs
The room was filled with drunk teenagers. Dancing bodies all around the house. Some couples were going upstairs to do their thing and groups of boys were going outside to smoke or play beer pong. I looked around the living room. The room wasn’t white like it used to be. Nate put led lights up and the sofa wasn’t in the middle anymore he made enough space so people could be free tonight before I could look for Nate I was being dragged by Cassie into the kitchen. “ what are we doing here.” I looked around one more time hoping to find Nate so that he could save me. If I have just one sip of vodka I might just go freaking nuts. I’m very easy when someone encourages me to do something ... I just simply do it without thinking twice. Cassie turned around with two red cups. I smell it and nod my head. “ no It’s fine.. you go.” Cassie sighs and pushes the cup into my chest. The cold liquid spills a bit over my dress.“ just drink it and let’s have some fun”. I Look at the clear liquid inside of the cup. I saw straight up evil in that cup. She holds her cup up waiting for me to cheer. I felt that I didn’t have a choice like if I don’t do it I will be the boring friend in the group and I don’t wanna be that so My cup meets hers and follows to my mouth.
I was swinging my hips to the rhythm. Following the body moves from the guy behind me.
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His lips touched the side of my earlobe. A wave of pure pleasure runs through my entire body. I don't know if it was me being drunk but this boy was giving me butterflies in my entire body. His lips They were soft, I had the urge to turn around and kiss him but I didn't. His hands are around my waist. The rapid of my heartbeat was going faster than normal. I wonder if he smells my new perfume because Maddy did put a lot on. I feel his warm breath on my neck. Small pecks were giving on my jawline. My skin was burning for more contact. His left hand was going up to my neck. I wanted him to turn me around and kiss me on the lips. Pulling me closer to his chest and by making it more unrealistic I wanted him to whisper in my ear saying that he wants me But what he did instead made me wonder if I did something wrong. Maybe I needed to make the move I wanted too. His hands moved away from my waist. " you're a lovely girl but I have to stop here, stay safe and enjoy the party." he whispered and let's go of my waist. His voice was raspy and it turned me on to the max. It was like angels singing to me. He left and My body felt cold. I looked around and gone, was he. Many bodies were around me but I didn't know which was him. The whole time I didn't know who I was sharing such a heated moment with. I cross my arms over my chest and walk out of the leaving room. I feel stupid for not looking behind me while dancing with him. How in the hell am I gonna figure out who he is? I pass Nate on my way out. He grabs my upper arm and pulls me closer. " where are you going." I look up at him. My eyelids felt so heavy, I just wanted to close them for a moment. I lowered my head. " I... I'm going to take a nap home and be back tell the girls that." I wanted to walk away but he pulled me closer. This time I could feel him breathing against my face. " no you're not come on." he laughed and puts my arm around his shoulder, I leaned on him as much as I could if I tried going upstairs on my own I would probably fall.
He opens the door of his bedroom. It was dark and empty, Nate throws a lot of parties so people know this room is off-limits. I lay on the bed and drifted off. The noise of the door closing followed through. All I could think of was the boy from downstairs. Do I even know if it was a boy? Of course it was a boy. I felt my phone ringing in my tiny purse. I get it out and see that I had a few missed calls for mom. I swiped right and left and was debating whether to call back or ignore her as she does to me. I slowly lose grip of my phone and get comfortable in bed.
The sound of cheers and screams became louder every now and then. I opened my eyes and saw nothing, The room was pitch dark It was kinda scary. Was I even alone in this room? I was struggling to get back to sleep. So I stood up and walked to the window trying to see what was going on in the backyard. There wasn't much to see, too many people were jumping and standing next to each other. So I got my bag off the bed and walked out of the room, heading straight to the kitchen. I grabbed a juice box and some crackers. Hoping that the dizziness would go away. I sat on the kitchen island watching the whole Maddy and Nate thing from the window. Kissing a boy in front of everyone is pretty low even for her. I rolled my eyes and grabbed a pizza slice out of the box next to me. Maddy always loves to go extra and over the top. She wants everyone to know that she is a bad bitch. The only way I like her is when she's really herself. I know she and Nate don't belong together. Their relationship is toxic but I have nothing to say in that because as soon as things go great again I'm the bad guy. I walked over to the pool where Maddy was. Waiting till she came out. I looked over and saw Nate going inside with the rest of the people. This is my chance of going a but extra too.
" hey grab a towel for me, I'm cold." she squeezed her eyes shut. " and I wanna go home."
I gave her a dirty look. Normally I would grab a towel and walk right behind her but I was too rebels to stay nice and act as she wants to be treated. The alcohol is definitely working. " you know what Maddy freeze to death and having pool sex to get back at Nate is so low." I was clenching my fits without even knowing. Of course, I wasn't going to punch her. I mean If that would give her some brain cells back then well let's go.
" they fucking filmed this shit.. It's going to hunt you down. I think you want a job right or do you wanna end up like your dad." I raised my voice at her too much. Tears shimmered in her eyes. I didn't want to sound so mean but I felt like someone should say those things to her and because everyone wants to be nice I'm going to be that person. I squeezed my juice box right in her face and walked away.
They dropped me off after we got all the stuff for tonight. I was standing in front of my door searching for my keys in my black little purse. I was already searching for it back in the car but I couldn’t find. The purse was to little to search for so long I give up , dropping my purse on the ground. I hold up my wrist to look at my watch well my mom is done at 7 but she doesn’t come home still 12 so I don’t even have to wait for her. I lean back on the door frame and sigh. I always found it a bad idea when I saw that they put spare keys under the doormat in movies but I wished I had done that. I grab my phone from my Back pocket. Scrolling through my messages. The options are : get ready at maddy’s place or I can wait for my mom and get late to the party. Nates face came on my screen. Calling so soon sure he needs me. I pick up and put the phone on my ear. “ hey are you half way through your makeup and shit” He spoke softly, not something that I’m used to. “ why are you whispering .” I hear his parents talking in the background “ they are still here, hopefully going away in a minute but why are you whispering?” “ oh..” I laughed and shook my head.” I didn’t noticed but probably because you did it in the first place. I forgot that I gave my keys to my mom it’s a long story so I’m currently still outside.” He sighs clearly disappointed in my mom. He knows a little bit of my home situation. After knowing that He is there more for me then my mom has ever been. She stopped caring for me after my dad left she was... she was different. “ you should have called me.. just come here.” He Said bye and the line was dead after. He always has the last word because he know I can change his mind if I say something back. I looked down at myself. There’s not a chance that I will go like this. I decided to take the offer from the girls. When we were in school in the morning, maddy said to us that we all could get ready at her place and have some shots before we go. I grabbed my purse from the ground and hopped off the front porch. Before I walk I pull the end of my floral dress. When I bought it I didn’t expect it to be this short. So every now and then when I walk I have to pull it down or else the whole town could see my butt. I cross my arms. I felt this cold breeze around my chest so I walked a little faster. Maddy’s house was pretty far from mine so it would take a while. I prayed to god hoping that I don’t catch a cold my mom wouldn’t take care of me. The wind was getting a bit stronger. My hair was constantly in my face i look for the hair band in my purse but remembered I have it around my wrist I get it off and I tuck my hair with it. I went straight under the warm blankets when I arrived at maddy’s house. These little shocks go around my body I was still shivering.” So you want to say that you walked to my place... with your feet.” Maddy puts her mascara down and faces me. “ I didn’t took you as a sporty person. She laughs and does some highlighter on her cheekbones. I sigh and turn my head so I could face the girls instead of facing the the pink walls. “ my mom lost her keys a week ago so I gave her mine she said she would get another key by Friday. But for now she promised me that she would go straight home after work .. I think by now she forgot that she even has a kid.” I play with the rings that I have on my fingers. They know about the situation that my mom drinks to much and that I’m not only a teenager but also an adult. “ maybe you should move in with your dad.. you already tried so many things to stop her from drinking every single day.” My eyes started to get wet. “ I’m not going to my dad and live in another state. I figure things out I promise.” I close my eyes for a second and focus on my breathing. It was so quiet now. Thank god that we couldn’t read each other minds. “ anyways it didn’t took me long to walk over here, I’m sure that I burnt some calories so I’m happy to say that maddy could give me one of her dresses.” I sit up and lean my back on the headboard. I turn my face to the side and saw Maddy already digging in her closet. Cassie took the makeup bag off the vanity and Gets on the bed sitting beside me.” I don’t have to say much do I.” Cassie laughed and opens the bag searching for products to use. I ran a hand through my hair and face Cassie so she could do my makeup perfectly. We were ready to go. I finally looked decent having a black dress hugging the shape of my body with a cut on the side of my right leg. I leaned to the mirror to put some lipgloss over the nude lipstick that Cassie has put on my lips. Kat walks over to me and plays with the ends of my curled hair. “ you look absolutely stunning.” I gave her a soft smile. “ just like you.” Maddy and Cassie came inside with both 2 shots in their hands. “ LET’S GET FUCKING DRUNK.” Laughter filled the room instantly
So I just finished the show YOU on Netflix and I’m just shook well I did saw that love was crazy. I mean who says I wolf you and she wa very close with him from the begin everything was so fast with meeting her friends and stuff. I actually thought that this was all a play and she worked together with candace because well it’s LA and you have actors there anyways I didn’t expect it to come out like this. I hope I didn’t have any spoilers away.
if there is someone that finished the show message me so we could talk about it because I need someone to talk this over with. (Would be nice if you are between the age of 15-19 but if you aren't it doesn't matter feel free to message :)
This is not where I wanted to be right now but let’s be real I have nothing better to do. The boys asked me to come with and buy some snacks and drinks for the party they were having tonight. ” can you guys please put some different type of music.” Nate turned his head around. ” what's wrong with it.” I looked up my phone and gave him a look. ” well I'm just done hearing rappers rap about drugs and shit like for real half of the rappers don't even do shit they say in their song.” i rolled down the window and looked outside. Mckay laughed at something that Nate said but i didn't hear it, i know for a fact that an argument could start off this little thing so i just tried my best to shut my mouth. My eyes focused on a girl that looked so familiar but I couldn't believe it. ” is that Rue?” i shoved McKay's shoulder. ” shit... I think it is.” Nate parked to the side of the corner store. I got out of the car and saw rue talking to Fez. ” hey rue, since when are u back?”. I stood next to her, i didn't know if i could give her a hug or should give her a handshake. Oh God, this is so awkward. Rue and I were really good friends i was the new kid last year and she was the first people i liked in this small town. Before summer she got a little distant from me and then later on i heard she overdosed. It broke me because i wasn't there when she needed me. ” 5 days.” she said. i looked at Fez and gave him a smile. When she distant herself i needed to make new friends and lucky for me i did that very fast. That also means knowing the local drug dealer for parties. He stood up to help the boys back there, that was leaving rue and me alone. I was looking at my shoes trying to come up with something to say. ” look I..I got the feeling that you pushed me away and that's why i just left because i know when a person doesn't want me around and that feeling is what i got with you but after i heard what happened i was so mad at myself and-.” she holds my hand and looked me in the eye. ” it's fine.. I'm okay now.” she walks into the store. At this point i don't even want to think shit because i don't know what she means. ” we're done.” I looked and saw the boys already sitting in the blue jeep. I walked past Fez his hand grabbed my upper arm. ” she's needs you believe me ” he let's go and walks to his chair. What is it with everyone leaving me while I didn't even get a chance to respond back like give me some time to think of a good sentence.
I took my seat back in the car. ” what was that about?” Nate started the car. ” none of your fucking business.” i looked out of the car, seeing rue walking out of the store. I knew she didn't plan on staying clean she definitely got some things from ash. Nate drove slow when we passed rue. ” we having a party you should stop by.” she looked at nate and nodded. He smirked and speeds up. Typical fuckboy stuff.
This is not where I wanted to be right now but let’s be real I have nothing better to do. The boys asked me to come with and buy some snacks and drinks for the party they were having tonight. ” can you guys please put some different type of music.” Nate turned his head around. ” what's wrong with it.” I looked up my phone and gave him a look. ” well I'm just done hearing rappers rap about drugs and shit like for real half of the rappers don't even do shit they say in their song.” i rolled down the window and looked outside. Mckay laughed at something that Nate said but i didn't hear it, i know for a fact that an argument could start off this little thing so i just tried my best to keep my mouth closed. My eyes focused on a girl that looked so familiar but I couldn't believe it. ” is that Rue?” i shoved McKay's shoulder. ” shit... I think it is.” Nate parked to the side of the corner store. I got out of the car and saw rue talking to Fez. ” hey rue, since when are u back?”. I stood next to her, i didn't know if i could give her a hug or should give her a handshake. Oh God, this is so awkward. Rue and I were really good friends i was the new kid last year and she was the first people i liked in this small town. Before summer she got a little distant from me and then later on i heard she overdosed. It broke me because i wasn't there when she needed me. ” 5 days.” she said. i looked at Fez and gave him a smile. When she distant herself i needed to make new friends and lucky for me i did that very fast. That also means knowing the local drug dealer for parties. He stood up to help the boys back there, that was leaving rue and me alone. I was looking at my shoes trying to come up with something to say. ” look I..I got the feeling that you pushed me away and that's why i just left because i know when a person doesn't want me around and that feeling is what i got with you but after i heard what happened i was so mad at myself and-.” she holds my hand and looked me in the eye. ” it's fine.. I'm okay now.” she walks into the store. At this point i don't even want to think shit because i don't know what she means. ” we're done.” I looked and saw the boys already sitting in the blue jeep. I walked past Fez his hand grabbed my upper arm. ” she's needs you believe me ” he let's go and walks to his chair. What is it with everyone leaving me while I didn't even get a chance to respond back like give me some time to think of a good sentence.
I took my seat back in the car. ” what was that about?” Nate started the car. ” none of your fucking business.” i looked out of the car, seeing rue walking out of the store. I knew she didn't plan on staying clean she definitely got some things from ash. Nate drove slow when we passed rue. ” we having a party you should stop by.” she looked at nate and nodded. He smirked and speeds up. Typical fuckboy stuff.
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