Finding Your Healing//The Ally Brooke Show
I was thinking a lot about this post. After seeing the stir caused by the Twitter threads regarding this issue, I decided to rethink all my thoughts about it and not upload the Twitter thread to this blog.
That means that I am not going to talk about certain issues and I am seriously thinking of erasing perhaps part of that thread, but my decision is not totally taken for a very brutally honest reason.
My feelings regarding what I read in Ally's book and what I saw in that show have not changed, folks.
There is something in Ally that I think I will never end up understanding, or feeling about what her public image causes me.
A hunch, intuition, perception. I don't know, you can put the name you want. But something with that girl does not quite convince me and I could perceive that and I can perceive it every time I see her in an interview and what I saw in that show of her.
In her body language. Her manners. The uncomfortable way she looked in that show. Maybe it was because it was the first show, maybe it was because she was nervous. Maybe it was because she did not feel comfortable having the boyfriend Manager on her side that, by the way, I don't even know what kind of relationship they could have.
I saw a photo of both of them for Valentine's Day where she looked everything but in love, but I could not assure it because I do not know anything about that relationship and I only noticed Ally.
In which she kept drying the sweat of face when she talked about her time in the band.
Sweat that could be due to her nerves. Sweat that could cause in her because she was not being honest, I don't know. You have to see the video, folk. It's strange.
I remember Lauren's video in Zach Sang commenting that she does not regret anything that has happened in the band because all the shit she spent through the good and the bad, formed her in the person who she is today and that if she would not have gone through that maybe it would be different and she would not be in the place where she is today
Something that if you read Ally's book or see that show of her may notice that she does mention the girls, but implies that she was the only one having a bad time.
I have trouble understanding that, folks. Understand that trip from her along the path of pity for herself. For everything they stole from her, for everything that others have taken from her or have not given her.
The worst of all? Is that she is selling it.
Does she have the right to do it? Of course, it happened to her.
She lived it, but there are four other girls who have not had the same chance to tell their experiences. Four more stories that remain to tell. Of four teenagers who put in a reality show without having the fucking idea of how the shitty industry was handled, against a nineteenth -year -old girl who has been looking for opportunities in the industry since she was twelve years old.
I can't stop feeling that Ally needed someone to blame for what happened to her. Of what they did not give her, because the spotlight was always in someone else and not in her. She talked about competition and of course, unfortunately, that competition was between those four teenagers. Four girls that were really badly treated. THEY DID THAT TO HER. THOSE BASTARDS NEVER GAVE THEM WHAT THEY DESERVE EVEN ALLY.
Then she got that spotlight in her book and her show with her name.
Because the number of times I heard her say her own name in that show left me stunned. There were many.
And everything I heard what moved me the most was the part where she talked about her family. From her frustration for not getting her opportunity in the industry, her opportunity to be an actress.
And God, what shocked me the most was to say "our industry" twice and praise Simon Cowell for what he did for her.
The feeling that this show has left me is that Ally Brooke has not passed the page. That she has not started her way to healing as Lauren has done. I am proud to see that our Moonchild has achieved that change in her life, that maturity, that way of seeing life and understanding things that she could not before because she had no one to help her.
Also, in the way Camila has done. Even having to go through those horrible circuses, with a horrible team on her side that we still hope she can eliminate her life and her career.
It is fun because I remember that today in Zoom's Meeting, Lauren talked about the fans who criticized her team for the changes of her concert dates and said: I know that you are traumatized by the teams, and that you have always wanted me to have a good team, I know.
I love how she knows us in that way, folks. And yes, we are traumatized. Not only with the teams and the shitty management of the girls, but we are also traumatized by the fucking industry and we are not even within it.
We are traumatized by disgusting pigs that handle artists at will and exploit them until there are no shadows left.
It is for that reason that I do not understand how Ally Brooke can include herself in that shit hole and I want to believe that she does it because of her contracts and not for her own decision.
And I hope, if she has done it by her own decision, knowing that it was the only way to get what she wanted, that she is careful.
Seeing her so happy talking about her industry altered my nerves, folk. I will not deny it because I did not understand any of that.
Nor do I understand her words when she comments that in her audition, she got very angry because her audition edition made her see arrogant.
That is something that I don't understand because,
Why are you going to be afraid to see you arrogant if you really are not like that?
No idea.
I just hope Ally is happy with his decisions. I hope Dinah also gets that healing she needs and the same goes for Normani.
And for Ally, too. I don't like her, but that doesn't make me hate her. She never did.
There is much more that I would like to say in this post, but I changed everything I had planned to say and that I was related to the thread that I wrote in collaboration with @skywithesmeralds and @ra-raisara (and two other Twitter mutuals)
I know it is completely different, but it is something that I had to comment and express because I still have many doubts with Ally after seeing the post she made for the 5H anniversary, where she cut the other four girls in the video she posted. She did not label them and everything focused on her, as if the other four girls had never been in the same band as her.
I hope that one day we can know that part of the story we still don't know.
The four books, the four truths. The four traumas and the four paths to healing.
With this post I will also close Ally's subject, folks. I will not say anything else about it and I will not answer questions so I expect understanding.
Thank you for reading.
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