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Today I kept off

I feel better today. I tried to avoid talking to anyone, especially K. I felt like I behave too ignorant, but there was no other way for me. I must have upset someone. But as for myself I felt more calm and stable, I enjoyed my studying fully. And when I got home I had a wonderful mood. I've done homework, even a little more, than necessary, geometry for next Tuesday. I had a really good time alone and then with my mum. Now I feel down again cause I don't know what to do tomorrow. I still do not want talk to anyone. At least from my class. Everything must pass, hope it gets better soon

Dear K,

as a friend you're exhausted for me. I don't find our further way. I don't feel any interest when w you. I hate that feeling, when I pretend to still find you interesting for me, when actually I can't wait for you to go. Still not every time I manage to express it naturally. You keep me close for the moments you need me not giving the hell piece of you back. When with you I feel like my time's cheap. Though I feel it not only with you, it's like most of them find my time cheaper than theirs. But that's another theme. Our "friendship" is by far not well balanced and equal. It is so for quite a long time and you feel it too, I know it. I don't mean to hurt you, but you've hurt me. How? I don't know myself. You have all you need and are going to succeed in what you've chosen. But you wear me like shoes. I agreed to be it when you were really down and needed ones' support. Now you've boyfriend, plans for future, self-confidence. Whilst Imma still a shoe. You know I'm a human myself too and I have troubles too, I feel too. And as for last months seems like I have much more problems, which I can't solve. I don't ask for your help, I just want you not to disturb me. I'm rather different from everyone you know and have friends made with, that's why it was so obvious, that from some point we'll need to leave each other. And the question was who will be that victim to feel down due to "friendship" first. Since this, I'm going to be alone. But it's better alone than bearing heavy useless feelings of tie. I don't want you to know my life and share my opinions anymore. I either become greater after our friendship break or go down with bad mood, disappointment and smoking(like I always did in my dark times). But I'd prefer that risk. At least I need some rest from you. You'll talk behind my back like all others. You lied me you're not like them. But you are identical, you were liar even that time. Won't be shocked if you talk bout me more than our dialogue. Even there we didn't quite discuss me, it was only you. You spoilt my last months, I feel bad. And it's all because of you. Don't pretend to be a victim

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Every time Madonna says "your future is bright" in her feat w Quavo I get tingles

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I present you with a video that displays the aerodynamics of a cheeseburger. Just in case you want to have a food fight in the cafe.

For sure one day my subwoofer's gonna be burning

Life, sis

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This is Wholesome though

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Shall we meet in another life?

Space is like life: vast, but so empty

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i'm like I wanna go out somewhere alone and listen to some sort of sad songs *so fabulous btw* but then just remember that my city is shit and way too small and all I have to do is either giving in or playing computer games (most likely I shall pick the second)

#sad #weeknd #music