missed a few years on here, got a little lost:
1. get better at complimenting people. come up with more genuine and creative compliments that actually get at what i appreciate and love about people. find more sincerity, lean into it.
2. say what you think and mean what you say. i’ve been getting into sticky situations by trying to play all sides and just finding the temperate, medium between all positions. the result has been a feeling of profound unseen-ness and frankly, a mess of lies. i need to have more spine, know when to stay silent and when to speak up. being nice doesn’t mean biting your tongue.
3. relatedly, trust in repair and communication. you can work through a conflict. you CAN work through a conflict. that’s the beauty of life, the possibility that emerges through connection and communication. wouldn’t that be a magical thing to discover? how you can create possibility and newness and life through the very act of trust?
4. be less afraid. be more spontaneous. go out more. the pandemic really closed me up.
5. work through this saturn’s return! the journey with my family will be a long one of more disruption, more coming into my truth. what i thought i had buried a few years back turns out to be just that--buried. it will come to see the light of day and it will be painful. the end of this year has been that reckoning-- that i’ve avoided more pain and the result has been complacency and stuckness.
6. drive my life with more intention.
7. find more joy and fun and silliness. actually chase it?
8. shopping: only vintage/thrift (has to fit perfect with no alterations), if fast fashion: has to be good materials
mwah the past few years was a tough run. but r just moved out and i’m finally feeling like i’m closing that chapter. i got on an ssri this year and its been helping me feel more buoyant, like i got this, i can do this. and i think i just need that for now to get over this hump. i think i’m going to need a lot of support to do what is necessary (oh saturn’s return). i found my resolutions from 2022 actually, they’re in my planner. they’re mainly all every day habits (posture, chores, social media habits, shopping habits) very indicative of my headspace for 2022- not being able to fully see how stuck i was and actually not doing the introspective work i thought i always was prone to doing. but i’m open again, let’s go.
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