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they/them | autistic | all about BL and some random stuffs

[shijiujun]

for the people who are stuck in a slump and need to hear it like azuma needed to hear it: you're amazing too

best uncle, uncle's boyfriend and nephew trio ever ;-;

[indianchindian]

I’m not even in my mid-thirties but this feels so real! When I heard tamari say those to azuma a part of me felt like crying 🥲

[incompetentcompetence]

kouhei is back in another gay role!! I love seeing his face since it reminds me people over the age of 25 do exist in Asian queer media lmao

[xaverie]

They're calling it "Old Man Yaoi." The characters are 38.

That's my... that's how old I... but I'm...

[bread--quest]

this trans day of visibility i would really appreciate it if we all took some time to think about the nonbinary people who are invisible. the nonbinary people who aren't out in real life yet. the nonbinary people who haven't medically transitioned one way or the other and so are only recognized as their assigned gender. the nonbinary people who have or want to medically transition but can only find resources worded and written for trans men and trans women. nonbinary people who stop using all pronouns because they were only ever getting the same two anyway. nonbinary people who forced themselves to accept pronouns that feel wrong because their neopronouns were "too confusing" or "too weird". nonbinary people who force themselves to accept gendered labels because "what are we supposed to do, come up with whole new words??" nonbinary people who don't have the option of non-gendered pronouns or terms in their language. nonbinary people who stopped identifying as nonbinary and accepted a lifetime of discomfort because it was easier for their own community to accept a sad man or woman (trans or cis) than it was to accept a happy nonbinary person.

none of these are hypotheticals. all of these are real people. they exist, and they're invisible.

please see them.

[russenoire]

and the nonbinary people uninterested in medical transition. the nonbinary people for whom no pronouns feel right, in any language. the nonbinary people who couldn't pass as nonbinary if they tried and don't particularly want to. the nonbinary people who bind or pack or tuck as they like—or not!—from day to day. the nonbinary people who don't identify as trans and the nonbinary people who do.

they exist, too.

[pxltme]

angieeee dont draw on the floor angie... itll hurt your back....

[indianchindian]

Watching Life in Smokey Blue. Didn't even know it released 😭 2 eps and I'M SO HOOKED!

just wished Gagaoolala was better with subs in a drama ABOUT TRANSLATION!

(i also like how the core of the story is based on a one-night stand lmao)

[gothgirlh-9]

🕸🕸🕸

[indianchindian]

nth number of time i deleted instagram lmaooooooo

[teleeportedbread2233]

ok so like I said it REALLY pisses me off when people call Genie Wiley "the feral child" SHE WAS NOT, she was an incredibly traumatized, mostly likely very scared, emotionally and developmentally stunted CHILD, she was not "feral" she was someone who needed medical help (mental and physical) along with love and empathy.

Calling her "the feral child" is fucking dehumanizing.

[uweiy]

This scene fucking ends me

[indianchindian]

Lmao and in the manga, after this SugiSuzu got into a fight because Suzu's English was "bad" in Sugi's standards and literally they were talking to each other in English and Suzu was like "DON'T BE RENDINKULOUS" and Sugi was like "it's 'ridiculous'" lmaoooo would've loved to see that 🙈

[indianchindian]

Yappings #1

All I wanna do is just disconnect from my smartphone, computer, and TV, go to a hillstation and breathe in the fresh air that it may give, or rather, feel the coldness of the air and weather if I go at the right time. I don't want to think about the future, I don't want to think about which dramas I consume, I don't want to think about what manga should I read, or what I tweet, or what I write, or what I yap, and worry about the results of that post i put out in public, how many views, how many likes, comments, reposts and what big data would do to profit off my addiction to social media. I want to get bored without getting overstimulated, I want to read physical books because I'm capable to do so, and make up tunes in my head while not knowing how to use a DAW.

But it can't be the case. Right now I am constantly craving for stimulation, and when I open twitter or instagram, there is no enough stimulation and yet it pulls me in, no matter how much i want to get out of them, or even delete the apps. I don't have a flip phone but I want to. I want to read but I can't. I fantasise about my imaginary pairs a lot but it might be a luxury to do so. I want to yap about the current BL i rave about but then no one will listen. I doubt whether anyone would actually listen to me.

Anyways nvm this is me yapping about random shit because I want to

[uweiy]

This scene fucking ends me

[indianchindian]

In the 10DANCE movie, Suzuki already calls Sugiki a world champion, only for Sugiki to correct him by saying he comes second in world championships, and Suzuki responded saying that international championships are rigged against Asians, which Sugiki denies.

This plays a continuous significance in understanding the systemic racism behind those championships. I read on twitter fan accounts that it is much easier for Sugiki to deny that racism is involved in him coming second in favour to Giulio, saying that he wasn't good enough hence he comes second, saying that the audience votes says that as well if i remember correctly, and hence he has to try harder.

However, Suzuki, in the movie, doesn't care about coming #1 in the world championships even in his debut. Before training with Sugiki, he never considered even attempting to apply for world championships since they're rigged against Asians. In the manga, his father, also a professional dancer, discourages him from entering world championships and wanted him to shine in Japan. If we see the movie, though a lot of the behind-the-scenes aren't there, there is no scene of Suzuki trying harder to come first. That never faded his love for dance.

Ctto: @cuthalions

One of the journalists in the movie at the end even said that Suzuki would come third at best because they don't want to exactly waste the money spent on getting foreign competitors. And he indeed did come third.

In the end of the movie, after Sugiki invites him to dance with him, as he holds hands with Sugiki and walks on the stage, he gracefully throws away his third-place medal. The lower you're placed, the more underestimated you are, and by throwing away the medal, he rejected people underestimating him, and also rejected the impact it may have on his love for dance.

Martha pointed out to Sugiki that she doesn't see any love in the way he dances. Sugiki is also as passionate about dance as Suzuki if not more, but his thirst to come #1, even if it meant making Fusako dance while she was in post-traumatic stress, and his focus on precision and stamina, overran his love for dance, hence it felt incomplete. In the end of the movie, he wasn't competing, rather he was the guest performer, and also dancing with Suzuki, with whom he had a special connection with as he danced with him. They haven't even seen each other in 6-ish months, forget about rehearsing together! Yet they were perfectly in sync with each other. It restored Sugiki's love for dance the way he restored his passion for dancing while seeing Suzuki dance for the first time.

[indianchindian]

Lmao I wish I could see Machida as Sugiki make this face TT

(Spoiler: Martha is NOT homophobic THANK GOD)

[indianchindian]

Ngl i felt that Suzuki was lowkey bullying him while leading 🤣🤣🤣 It reminded me of when there was this scene where Suzuki "invited" Sugiki to a party and Sugiki was just sitting and drinking, and Suzuki and the others bullied him by calling him a bore and that Suzuki wants to get him drunk 😭 then pulling him to dance and smile.

I also feel that it lowkey gives back to the time when Suzuki had to take place of a woman and Sugiki enjoyed controlling him like a puppet lmao. Here it isnt the case, even when he was leading Suzuki in the ballroom sequences. He wasn't enjoying controlling him like a puppet, but rather he was enjoying dancing with him.

Suzuki ofc lead him in the latin sequences and Aki pointed out that his way of leading is "look I'm having a blast and you should too" and it shows in this and the jive sequence. He was totally wanting Sugiki to have a blast with him as well 😭 and Sugiki WAS having a blast, shedding his cold royal "Emperor" persona like he did in the dance party scene.

Man i didn't think i would make a meta like this lmao.

[haibanewenli]

on vol.7 of kazeki and there is something just unfathomably diabolical about bonnard of all people being shocked by auguste's behaviour towards gilbert,,, as if both of them don't gleefully assault him on the regular. it's giving "epstein says he hates pedophiles." they both need to die so badly it's unreal.

[indianchindian]

Fuck Bonnard and Auguste. They're both evil pedos! Gilbert deserved a secure life not that what both Auguste and Bonnard gave him!

[sad-manga-problems]