Infiny’s Caffeinated Den

active jun 2026 trigger warning for problematic behavior (mainly Ed and substance abuse but also other risky stuff)

[infinite5mal]

So my other Tumblr got deleted... It was @infinite5imal my main blog is @infin1te5imal

I hadn't gotten the courage to open a new one but here I am /u/

26 years old

Relapsed

[ryrolie]

bead neuron!

[terrorignitis]

Others may forget you, but not I. / I am haunted / by your beautiful ghost.

Empress Yamato Hime no Ōkimi (倭姫王)

[konoko]

[konoko]

[infinite5mal]

Why is it so embarrassing to be depressed god damn I feel so pathetic talking about how “my brain is mean to me and it made me cry :(“ “I had a thought now I can’t get out of bed”

[loveridden1999]

person (non-practicing)

[driflloon]

good morning everyone lets just go back to sleep

[vampyreempress]

I truly won’t feel like myself until I’m back at my lw again

[blackcoffeebrraeakfast]

Yes.

[infinite5mal]

I’ve been binging on birthday cake since Sunday and I still have one more entire cake left god damn if I don’t end up with diabetes after this week it will be a miracle

[withswords]

my girl is like 9/11 she's got a body count of around 3000 and people act like i am supposed to be really upset about it

[skulkingfoxes]

A late night photo collage

[fairycosmos]

person who genuinely hates themselves so much they can barely look anyone in the eye: i must remain humble lest my hideous ego spiral out of control

[mysticalcats]

it's really gross how you can be self aware enough to know what's going on in your head but you can't actually stop it from happening. i need to grab it like a pigeon that got stuck in a house and throw it out the window. be free

[konoko]

my hands are cold and my heart is broken

[infinite5mal]

I don’t know how to feel

Stomach measurements went down 5cm. I don’t have access to my scale so I don’t know if I dropped any weight. However since I started purging again I feel soooi less bloated? It’s barely been 5 days so it’s not actual weight loss, maybe just water weight. But I don’t know why I’m less bloated since purging usually does the contrary. I don’t know. I’m confused.

Also

Mouth sores are getting REALLY annoying god damn.