They Call Me Sandrea

Update: I believe in our happy ending

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I keep having this dream where you show up unannounced to my house and tell me that we can finally be together.

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Update, we are now together

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A new update, I am now 6 weeks pregnant with our child

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A poem by him

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You made me fall in love with being in love.

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I keep having this dream where you show up unannounced to my house and tell me that we can finally be together.

[inherfeeling]

Update, we are now together

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And from now on, I promise to make you happy every single day until the end of time.

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You truly are everything to me. I wish I could express my feelings for you the way I do it when I write them down.

You are everything I’ve ever dreamed of in a man. Inside and out, with your imperfections and flaws.

Our situation right now is everything but easy. However I wouldn’t change anything about it, it’s making us so much stronger as a couple. It’s teaching us patience. Teaching us how to trust and respect each other.

I am 1000% sure that we will be okay, in time. I know that in a couple weeks from now, we will look back on everything and be happy we didn’t give up on each other.

I love you, more than words could ever explain.

[inherfeeling]

February 22 2023

2:45 AM

I still believe in our happy ending. After all that I couldn’t be more sure of my feelings for you. For us. I am not giving up, not today nor tomorrow. Not in 25 years. I will always stand by you.

My partner, my rock, my everything.

I love you.

[inherfeeling]

Craving that rough, love making soul connection type of sex with you… just to end up having my head on your chest, listening to your heart beating.

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Simple reminder that I love you. I cannot imagine the day I’ll stop.

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Lavore

Verb. Created because I needing a word bigger and more meaningful than anything else. A mix of Love and Adore.

I Lavore you. Yesterday, today and every upcoming days that we will see the sun rise.

[inherfeeling]

My beautiful King,

I wish you could see the Masterpiece I see every time I look at you.

From the inside to the outside everything about you is beautiful. Your deep brown eyes, your beautiful natural hair, your shoulders where I can alway rest, your legs getting stronger by the day.

Taking care of you is like a security guard having to watch out for a unique museum sculpture.

I could look at you for hours. You truly are the most beautiful person I’ve ever laid my eyes on.

I lavore you honeyboo

[inherfeeling]

I keep having this dream where you show up unannounced to my house and tell me that we can finally be together.

[perfectfeelings]

“Why not take a chance and bet on happiness?”

— Jenny Han

[inherfeeling]

2:32 AM

January 18 2023

I’d be lying if I said that things have been easy lately. Does it change how I feel towards you? No. Does it change the fact that I want to spend the rest of my life with you? No. Am I ready for the pain it might cause to others to see us together? I don’t know.

I’d be lying if I said that i’m not scared to see you being so indecisive about being with me. I know you love me and I also know that you want to be with me but I know you’re scared. Scared of hurting her or your child. Scared of being a disappointment to your family. Scared of a lot of things.

My point is that you cannot chose or control how people will react to your life decisions. Yes you can try to minimize the impact that your decisions will have on them, but at the end of the day is it going to make them truly happier to see you do what they want but you are the one who’s not happy? Why would you waste your life trying to please everyone if you’re not pleased with your own life?

At the end of the day chose yourself because at the end of it all, you’re the only one who can chose your own happiness.

[inherfeeling]

True love always find its way to who it belongs to.

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First 24 hours

Saturday January 14 2023, 11:39 AM

We are still currently in the first 24h without talking to each other. I hope you're okay. I know you are. I won't lie, I've already cried at least 5 times since I woke up this morning. I never thought that would come a day where you would need space away from me, from us. But I understand. I respect it. This morning the doorbell rang and my heart dropped, I thought it was you but it was just my neighbour. I need to give you some space and allow you to grow. You know I'd wait a millions years just to be by your side. I know this is not the end of us, we had too many project for the future. We just need to grow. I hope that as the days will go by, I won't always have that urge to call you and text you. Just being able to wait for you to be ready to talk to me, to see me. I just want to know that you're okay.

I trust you and I trust the love that we have for each other. I trust that we will be together soon. I love you so much.

Ps: I couldn't help but tell one of your friend about your situation, he might reach out to you and make sure you're okay. I'm sorry.

Sugar.

[inherfeeling]

Friday the 13th 2023

8:14 PM

It's been hell of a week. For me, for you, for her. You finally did what I never thought would become a reality. You told her the truth about us, what we are, what we did, the truth about everything. From that moment our world started to crumble a little bit. But I can only imagine what it was for you and her. I know you never wanted to hurt her and it might been one of the hardest thing you've done in your life. I am realizing how big of a sacrifice you made for me, for us.

When you told me that you needed space to think and figure out things, I won't lie, I felt terrible. I truly felt like everything we've had for the past 2 years just meant nothing at all. Now that I'm thinking about it, It is more than fair for you to ask me that.

I cannot hide the fact that it terrifies me to "let you go" in a sense. We've been seeing each other almost everyday for the past year. From working together, to going out and making memories, to holding each other while we sleep... But I understand.

I will respect all the time that you need. I will be there for you when you are ready. I know it will make us better, stronger. I trust the love that you have for me. I trust the bond that we have together. I trust Us.

I am in love with your soul. With your imperfection, with your flaws, your trauma, everything that makes you, you.

You are more than my lover, you're a part of me and I cannot wait to feel whole again.

I lavor you my honeyboo.