Off Script - Chapter Three
Cecilâs mind was at war with itself as he was paralyzed with the decision. Be the hero and risk burnout and failure, or keep his day off and help in other ways? Heâs already seen how he can help others without putting his health at significant risk, but other people had to get hurt for it. The decision felt impossible. Too caught up in his anger, Cecil swiped his, thankfully unlit, candle off the table, shattering the glass as it crashed to the floor.
Cecil immediately regretted what he did and grabbed his broom to clean up the mess. He knew he would have many regrets about people getting hurt when he took the day off, but he didnât think itâd be this bad. Itâs never-ending. These thoughts wonât stop until I get back out there as RipTide Cecil thought. He sighed as he finished cleaning up the mess, putting the broom back in its place. Could today get any worse?
Cecil sat on his couch and stared at the TV, zoning out instead of watching anything. He wasnât thinking of anything, just trying to forget about The Baron. As he sat there, the news was following The Baronâs path. There was no more live footage after what happened with the helicopter, but they were reporting on his latest known location just as Cecil started to tune back in. Theyâre lucky he doesnât target them next, Cecil thought. They were making themselves targets by reporting on his location. The helicopter was already destroyed. It wouldnât be surprising if he destroyed the entire studio too.
Cecil shook the thoughts away. He shouldnât think like that, especially about his enemy and innocent people. He sighed and leaned back on the couch, his head tilted back and his eyes shut. If this were how his entire break would be, it wouldnât even be worth it.Â
Cecil decided to find solace in his favorite meal. He ordered some soba and hoped it would arrive in a reasonable time, considering the circumstances. How could people live like this; constantly on edge, waiting for the next attack? How many people had to make emergency plans just in case? Â As Cecil thought, he felt increasingly obligated to go out there and be the hero everyone needed, but he knew he couldnât without risking his health. After all, Cecil has to win every time. The Baron only had to win once. Could he really risk that?
The amount of pressure Cecil felt was immense, almost overwhelming. Should he take breaks more often? Or try to deal with it and keep fighting? The decision felt impossible. A knock at the door brought him out of his thoughts. He went to the door, guard up, and was visibly relieved to see a delivery driver with his food.
âThank you so much for coming out right now. Wait here a moment.â Cecil said as he grabbed his food. He set it on the table as he walked back into his apartment and grabbed some cash from his wallet. He took an extra $50 to tip the driver for delivering to him in such dangerous circumstances.
âThanks, again. Have a nice day.â Cecil said, handing him the cash. The driver thanked him for the tip and left. Closing the door, Cecil was left alone again. It was getting hard to tell if that was a good thing or not, being alone. He never had time to feel lonely before. Is this how it felt? Usually, Cecil spent most of his day fighting and protecting everyone. Then, heâd come home and recover, leaving little time for food and self-care. He didnât have time to think about how this was affecting his life. Now, it was all he could think about.Â
As Cecil ate, he could feel the loneliness setting in. He had no friends, no one to talk to. He used to, but all his relationships faded with time as he grew up and became RipTide. Cecil thought back to his childhood.
He was always bullied for enjoying school, most others thinking of it as a chore instead of a passion. Even when he went out of his way to hide in the back of class and keep his head down, he still somehow had a target on his back. That all changed when he first discovered his powers in high school. He was being bullied, again, and was getting upset. Slowly, the weather around them started to change. The bullies and everyone around them were getting drenched in rain, but Cecil remained dry. From then on, people began pressuring him to learn how to control his powers and become a hero.Â
Powers werenât uncommon, but people were rarely as strong as Cecil. Most people had slight good luck or proficiency in finding things. People got lucky if they could peer into others' minds, but even then it was like looking through fogged glass. Cecil was something special, everyone told him, and he should use his powers for good. After all, sitting around like a ânormal personâ would be a waste. Maybe that was the sentiment that made the pressure he felt so heavy; the fact that he was constantly told he had to be something one day. Cecil sighed, for what felt like the hundredth time. If he knew then what he knew now, he never wouldâve become a hero.
Cecil changed the channel, opting for something more lighthearted. He decided to watch one of his favorite movies. It always brought with it a sense of safety and security, reminding him of a simpler timeâa time when he wasnât bullied, a time when he could just be a kid. He wished he could go back, but he couldnât.
Cecil ate his Soba as he watched the movie, getting so lost in the plot that he forgot about The Baron entirely. Eventually, the movie came to an end and Cecil was yet again faced with the reality of his situation. He cleaned up after himself, a feeling of desolation washing over him. As time passed, he realized how closely he tied his identity to being RipTide and how he didnât know who he was without that.Â
It was then that Cecil decided to continue his day off, despite his prior hesitation, and try to find some hobbies outside of being a hero. He made a mental list:
Try things he loved as a kid
Look at things similar to what he loved as a kid
Try the hobbies of his favorite characters
It wasnât much, but at least he had an idea of where to start. As a kid, he loved learning, so maybe he could find something new to learn about. He also loved sketching and painting. He could use the time he now had to get some supplies and paint. The first thing that came to mind was to paint how heâs feeling, and express his burnout. Thatâs what people resonate with, right? Feelings and a personal connection to the painting.Â
He decided. He was making a trip to the craft store as soon as it was safe. Wait. Where was The Baron? Cecil rushed back to his TV, quickly changing the channel to the news. Luckily, they were still reporting on his last known location. The Baron was miles away, seemingly frustrated based on the word of locals calling in to report him.
âThe Baron is reportedly exasperated, almost giving up.â said one of the anchors. Cecil was shocked. The Baron was about to give up? He was tired of looking for a fight that would never come? It almost didnât seem real. Cecil knew The Baron better than people thought and he wasnât one to give up. Was he also tired? Cecil quickly shook that thought away. Why was he sympathizing with a villain?