The Simple Ginger Girl

Sea, sun and salt make my world go round. Cancer, hot mess, content creator. https://linktr.ee/Kelsiellie1989

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A year from now will come, regardless of what you do with the time it takes to get there.

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I love with the crushing power of the sea Taking you under and not letting you be I can't let go and I can't break free of my own emotion, my own insanity So it would be best of you to stand strong and dig your feet into the sand while high tide brings you up and onto land Because when I go back out, it'll be some time before I stop turning round and round It'll be ages before you can flee

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An ad just popped up on my screen reading, "What will happen to YOU in 2016?" Is this an offer? Do I get to go back and try again? Are you just teasing me? Is this some cruel game?!

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The sun has been awake for hours when my eyes finally greet it, and though it's not upset with me for sleeping in, it isn't happy either. My body is sore, and I try to stretch but am stopped short by my sheer exhaustion. "I've got to get out of bed, today," I say to myself aloud while turning towards my phone, seeing that it's not yet 0900 but I feel like I've slept for days already. Pills is the first word that crosses my mind as soon as I realize the pain has lingered throughout the night, the nightmares and the night air dissipating from my open window as I slam it shut. So, I open the bottle and choke two of them down while taking a sip of cold, brewed sleepy time tea (that didn't do its job at all). Him is what comes through my brain next. I am reading through our messages, again and again, wondering what might be wrong - what might be too much - what I said that was too honest, too aggressively sad, too forward or too feminine. I always, always say or do something wrong and nobody stays. Pathetic crosses through my mind and into my heart, once again. I look around my room, my cat sprawled out across my bed, my bare feet tapping quickly against the mattress. I can't put a finger on it, but I just know that something isn't right. My guitar doesn't seem genuine. My box fan isn't as loud as it usually is. The music on my Pandora isn't distracting me. My heart is racing, and my meds aren't working. My hair is still curled from this weekend's events. My nipples are hard, pressing through my white tank top - and it actually breaks me that nobody is around to appreciate that. I trace my fingers between my breasts, and form a few small circles around my own areola, and allow my hand to press firmly against the singular wet spot on my panties - before ripping it away. I don't even deserve to please or love myself... is the last thought I have before I fall asleep, again. It's how I get through the dark days.

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Why am I like this? 

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Someday I'll be somebody's someone. They'll love me through my worst and appreciate me at my best. Somebody I'll be somebody's someone. They'll mean it when they say they'll stay, they'll prove to me it's possible to be at ease and rest.

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Something that I've come to realize is that love, feeling comfortable with somebody - it's ever fleeting. I felt some way, a couple of weeks ago. Some way that I haven't felt since I was 20 years old. I never realized I hadn't felt it since then until I had it, so very briefly, and then it was gone just as quickly as it came. While I sat around feeling sorry for myself, I heard lines in sad songs such as, "love like there's no such thing as a broken heart," and, "I came to get hurt, so do your worst to me," and, "sweet girl, don't let go for the world - 'cos I'm not from here, and I'm afraid that I might never see you again," among other similar phrases. Before now, when hearing these lyrics, I usually thought that they were depressing. "Why would you put yourself in that situation? Why do something you know will hurt you?" I'd think to myself. Well, now I know. I know that sometimes people and feelings come into your life at precisely the right moment. They show up and mend something inside of you, reveal to you something you didn't know you'd been missing, or simply make you feel good for a little while. Rather than drowning in the sorrows of the goodbyes... I choose to relish in what I was given and how it made me feel. I choose to live instead of just survive.

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I just got the 

cutest

thing

ever

!!!!11!1!1!!!!11

[charlottelevi]

OMFG where can i get this?

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i got mine here! They have some sale going on and i ended up buying it right away(*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

[sh00sher-n00b]

um i clicked on the paGe and the next thing below it was called a ding dong squishy toy…

[ichigostormchild]

I NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT THIS THING GLOWS IN THE DARK. I LEGIT WOKE UP MY ROOMMATE, BURST INTO HER ROOM SQUEALING, BECAUSE THIS DAMN THING GLOWS IN THE DARK. IT IS THE CUTEST FUCKING THING I EVER SAW. Also if you look really close it has a SMILE that goes :3 It also has a cute little butt. You guys don’t understand, I bought 4 of these fuckers. They are perfect and everyone needs one!!!!

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ohmygod they have them for Samsung cases too, not just iPhone. I NEED ONE RIGHT NOW but I’m broke UGH

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GUYSTHERES ASALE GOING ON RIGHT NOW

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I just ordered the Seal Blue squish case. Woops.

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While I haven’t felt this desperate for attention since I was a naive teenage girl And I’ve only gotten to share a bed with you six nights out of millions I can’t stop  the obsession I can’t stop  what I know That were we to ignore this, we’d both regret it all our lives regardless of where we might end up, where we’ll go You said you’d let me get to know you before you made me fall in love and then you said a lot more with your hands your lips did some talking but your hips stole the show and my heart is fluttering still Each time ‘baby doll’ falls off that tongue and you look at me with pained, broken eyes I see your soul dashing towards mine and there I stand, there I fall

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I got my brother to take a break from Halo Reach AMVS to work on this masterpiece.

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I don’t think this ever got the attention it deserved

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It did from me. Every time I see it I let it repeat on a loop for at least twenty five minutes while I piss myself laughing. 

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On those nights that your brain tries to convince you that you deserve nothing good in this world, know that you aren't alone, because here I am - feeling that way, too. On the days that you cannot fathom the idea of going to work because you're afraid you'll end up in the bathroom crying and then being faced with the decision to A) tell your manager what's wrong or, B) get in trouble for Just Not Doing Your Job, know that you are understood by at least one person out there. If you think about taking yourself off of your meds because you are sure that This Time Is It and you will function like a normie and be able to wash your private parts, your hair AND your clothes in the same day for once then hey. That's your prerogative. Please, be safe, okay? If you've been presented with something new and great, and each second of those first days you're reminding yourself audibly NOT to self sabotage whatever it is, you really, truly aren't the only one that's there at the moment. I am there. I am with you and I'll hold your hand through it if you ask me to. I'm always here to help somebody who has the gall to ask. Don't let the defeat define you. It's a bad night, a bad week, a bad month and sometimes for some of us it's literally a bad year. However, that's one year. One year out of all of the rest of the years you've been gifted by this universe to try harder, live and succeed. I'm proud of you for not giving up. If you sent the person you're crushing on fifty text messages last night because each time they didn't respond you were a little bit more convinced they suddenly hate you - you will be okay. They'll either understand and be patient with your anxiety or they won't, and that means they don't deserve you because everybody deserves somebody who understand them. REALLY understands them. If you called to order pizza and hung up three times in a row because you were too nervous to talk to the person on the other end of the line? That's also totally okay. You can order online this time. Try the phone again later. I just want everybody to get it. Get that you are individually and perfectly yourself, whether or not everybody around you validates your feelings or emotions. I am here to say that you are great. You're just fine.

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i’ve just come across one of my favourite videos on the internet

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With beauty she walks and with poise she talks. She's what every girl wishes she was. She's popular and fun, she's always on the go. She's always light and never dark. Such grace, there she is - Miss Jurassic Park!

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This is the face of defeat. Exhaustion, pain, fear and anxiety all expressed in a selfie. This is what it looks like to be a hardworking woman with endometriosis, in my case stage four endometriosis. My bowel, bladder, spleen, diaphragm, abdominal wall, kidneys and pancreas have all been covered in, cleared of and covered in endo again. My last surgery was a total hysterectomy - cervix, uterus and tubes all gone - and it helped for a while. However, my ovaries are still signaling the endo growths that were missed so I am right back where I was before. This tissue grows and bleeds and grows some more. It's newly classified as 'cancer like' and we now know females are born with the disease which flares up once menstruation onsets. Some women aren't symptomatic. Some are. Some are worse than I am and some are much better. However, being taken seriously by doctors is a constant battle for us. I've been called a drug seeker, dramatic, told that the pain isn't that bad or worse - it's all in my head. I've had doctors refer me to psych while telling me anxiety is causing my 'pain of unknown origin'. I've been ignored and sent home only to be in emergency surgery days later for a GI bleed caused by my disease. I've had five surgeries in as many years and more before that, and I'm having another one on October 10th unless something happens to cause me to go under the knife early. This is the face of somebody who wishes she was understood better. I'm grateful, the doctors here in Texas have treated me like royalty and being seen by the same health family that I work for has been eye opening. I'm blessed. I just wish that somebody could find me an answer. Figure out why this happens to so many women and how to fix it. Figure out why one of the go to treatments is a chemo therapy formulated to treat prostate cancer - and while it stops ovulation and sometimes endo growth - it also causes suicidal and homicidal ideation and actions in more than half of the patients who take it. Find out how to help us! This is the face of a woman who wishes there was more noise about #endometriosis and wants to raise more awareness to help us find a cure!

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You're beautiful

Thank you so much!!! Anon can be so awesome! :) 

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Weird question do you ever do custom photo sets or have anything available for purchase?

I’ve never even heard of custom photo sets - what are those?! I’ve never sold anything either.