I feel a lot these days after my psychiatrist stopped seeing me (her doing) was that she was actually employed to finish the job. I had become a troublesome client and I was finding fault with my treatment. I was also in psychiatric terms - losing insight - which is a term they use when you stop agreeing with them. Of course many schizophrenics when we start to age begin to see how bloody ridiculous the treatment really is. However getting to that realisation can be slow going because Doctors are people of status and there is an expectation of integrity. I have come to believe that my final psychiatrist is the mess cleaner who gets called in when shit happens. This kind of person is the one who says “this won’t hurt a bit” when they perform a lobotomy. These kind of people exist and have existed throughout history. They say all the right things , and eventually rise to positions of power. They respect their peers and usually come from money. My psychiatrist stopped seeing me once she had done the damage. There was no follow up and I was made to feel like I was my condition. There was no way in for her to dismantle the conclusions I had come to so she walked away.













