✄ call me charlie! charles or charlotte work just fine too!
✄ 18, my pronouns are they/he/rot
✄ im really autistic about ghost eyes if that wasnt obvious. this is my sideblog specifically for the comic!
✄ interactions wanted!!!! please talk to me!!!!
disclaimers + extra notes under cut!
tags i use:
#humble desires — asks
#charlies notebook — thoughts/analyses/etc
#charlies doodles — my art
edit: im no longer hyperfixated on ghost eyes so im less active here but im still happy to ramble if you send me an ask! 🤍
✄ considering the nature of the comic, all triggers will be tagged accordingly without acronyms or “tw/cw” — let me know if i forget something asap!
✄ ill probably go into long infodumps about my thoughts on ghost eyes characters and their relationships/interactions here
✄ if i say anything potentially insensitive or ethically dubious feel free to ask for clarification! i am very opinionated but sometimes i say stupid things by accident because they sound different in my head
✄ over all my opinions and takes on this series i obviously do not support things that are Objectively Bad (ex: all of the abuse and harmful behaviors that occur in ghost eyes) im not a terrible person i swear. i just like considering things from every angle when given a little sandbox of blorbos to examine. just because i can understand why a character acts a certain way or i think theyre interesting or really cool in the series does not mean i think what theyre doing is good!!!!!!
✄ henceforth, this blog exists for me to post my analyses of these characters and potentially discuss with others who may or may not agree (without being scared theyll come after me on my main), im more than happy to talk to people about it as long as we both remain civil and respectful!!!!!
✄ im really normal about emilio murkmere sorry. hes beautiful hes terrifying hes filthy hes pure hes flawed hes perfect. also i have a big fat crush on him and im not happy about it so im gonna be really normal about him here as well. if u wanna filter the gay shit im gonna tag it #emilioposting HAHA
EDIT: birthday update
last thing ill say about the callout doc is it really is a lot of old stuff. like late 2010s. that or things that one could argue are red flags but at the end of the day mr circus papa hasnt Actively hurt anybody. they havent put anyone in danger, or abused or extorted anyone, at worst theyve done things with their ARTWORK that were considered cutesy, funny, or normal at the time or done without much thought that i dont think should turn people severely against them in the way that keeps happening over and over because it keeps getting brought up and used to attack them. its totally fine and valid if these things make you too uncomfortable to continue to support them and their work, but to me despite the fact it may be uncomfortable at worst, its not enough for (again, ME, PERSONALLY) to drop everything and walk away. not until we have concrete proof that someone has been hurt, instead of just. moderately distasteful or uncomfortable storytelling or artwork. and this is coming from someone who doesnt wholly agree with everything theyve done! (i didnt like the description of monroe as a “lil korean hoe” as a korean person, youd think a mixed artist would be sensitive about microaggressions but whatever it was a dumb mistake)
if you look at how the document is put together its very clearly just a lot of cherrypicking things to make their work look as incriminating as possible, and then throwing out a couple wild theories that dont have any real evidence (faking asexuality, secretly being onion, etc. they throw shade at the fan discord too — something about it being down for maintenance for months when it should be noted the server is run unprofessionally and unofficially by a small handful of teenagers and young adults with their own lives)
i would say if youre younger i fully support your decision to move on if you so choose. after all these works are NOT intended for the audience theyve reached. but if youre a grown adult in the fandom just think about all the context and nuances of the situation for a second is all i ask. and to everyone here, please dont harass papa or anybody on either side of any argument about all this (even if theyre straight up like “they DID do that disgusting shit and they should be proud!” that is disgusting but we need to be mature, block, and not engage, these people will face the consequences or learn on their own!!!!)
on this note PLEASEEEE DONT HARASS RHE PERSON WHO MADE THIS DOC OR ANYONE WHO GOT SPOOKED BY IT. JUST BLOCK IF YOU NEED TO AND MOVE ON. LET IT FLOW OUT WITH THE TIDE OK
PLEWSSEEEE i love your style so much please draw emilio being a stupid awkward creepy nerd
flaps my wings and takes off
yes of course my adoring emilio chud fan i hope these suffice ,, new pencil and iPad means getting used to it so for now just some small doodles to quench thy thirst
and even though its not like a crime or an ethical failing, just to get it out of the way im stating now that i probably wont be publicly being a little gayboy about emilio anymore
i still probably will in my own private life (not ghost eyes/17 yo emi specifically but just the character in general + cards version, if that makes any sense at all. im not a freak) but just so i dont have to go explaining it every time ill keep it to myself :-P thanks for sticking along for the ride yall. you may still see me going “hes so cute bwbwbwb” or “he makes me ill ough” in my reblogs if i continue to use this blog but i mean it in an endearing/nostalgic or The Character/blorbo way not necessarily an I Want This Version Of Him way
i will however probably still post my oc x canon stuff from time to time if i ever feel so inclined just cause i think theyre really cute and mentally ill and compelling together and charlie (character) is more of an oc than a self insert. feel free to filter out my charlie tag if u want! its in there somewhere. u may need to copy and paste it though because of all the ellipses whoops
thank you to anyone who hasnt already filtered #emiliposting for tolerating me as long as you have /silly see u around
if you receive the same ask worded slightly differently multiple times im sorgy its the same guy my tumblr is breaking a bit
Rememembers when you wanted to be reminded to elaborate on the edburt thing im reminding you. im reminding you now and kicking my feet and twirling the phone string.
cracks knuckles. thank u anon
im probably gonna have rocks thrown at me for this and this very well may just be me looking at this from a very strange and different angle. but here is the Mr. Edburt Thing: i Dont think hes an outright pedophile (SEVERAL TOMATOES ARE HURLED AT ME FROM OFFSTAGE)
BEFORE ALL ELSE I WANT TO MAKE IT VERY CLEAR that overarchingly mr edburt is a gross stupid idiot weird piece of shit. his behavior towards EVERYONE (INCLUDING THE CHILDREN) is GROOOOSSSS so please dont take this exploration as any sort of justification or defense of his actions. he is still VERY much a sexual + general (lol) harassment gold medalist and i hope he dies
also its extremely possible that something could come out and i could just be Flat Out Wrong and thats totally fine and id be lying if i said i didnt see it coming
content warnings for mature content, adult + child sexual assault/harassment, and mentions of pedophilia
also dw anon i didnt get this ask more than once. SORRY I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THIS FOR WEEKS
so without further ado here are my points on why i think mr edburt is not Specifically a pedophile
obviously the key part of Being A Pedophile is sexual attraction to children/inappropriately younger people (teenagers + 18-19yo depending on how old you are and other factors). and as gross and weird as he is, while he certainly is Something i dont think he has any sexual interest in children as they are.
he has a very particular fixation on human flesh, as weve seen, and the more youthful (FRESHER!) the better — i think this is just because hes a greyman and also an old ass hoe (159 years old just in the time after his death(?)) and its just yknow. edgy demon eater shit. one could consider this fixation erotic and in all honesty i wouldnt exactly disagree but the reason i consider it Not a pedophile thing is because its a young-flesh-because-greyman thing and not a young-flesh-because-carnally-attractive thing.
we also know Very well (unfortunately) that a good bit of mr edburts leverage is acquired via sexual harassment such as flirting with, groping, or licking his victims to make them uncomfortable because hes a weird little freak and i hate him. sorry thinking about this is so genuinely repulsive. he Definitely takes pleasure in making people uncomfortable which could also be an erotic thing(???) but i havent reread edburts sections in a while so bear with me. but the point is here his excitement isnt Because its children he is targeting with this kind of harassment. i think upon being in this situation with another adult (ex: someone like ada finch if she didnt have her own leverage + was shown for longer etc) he would use the same tactics to get that power. he likes this kind of shit because again hes gross and weird and i think something kiraba did to him after his death?) (may just start callig it doomsday) mustve fucked him up real bad. because i LOVE august edward and i think to some extent he might still exist. we did see him with silas in an earlier page but i digress.
and again this doesnt mean hes not Something. hes still a child (+ everybody) toucher and here is a reminder that im NOT TRYING TO ARGUE THAT HE ISNT ANYTHING outrageously horrible. just that hes not this one specific label of a person/character.
my final point is broderick fae himself my darling beloved boy!!!!!!!! before "doomsday" august edward raised this kid since he was like???? probably around 8-10? idk i cant guess ages but pretty damn young. and they had a perfectly happy and healthy father-son dynamic (up until mr edward started losing his marbles). absolutely 0 trace whatsoever of anything unsavory. and of course "mr edward wasnt Everything Mr. Edburt Is so why would this matter" im getting there hold on. even as mr edburt he still has that paternal attachment to broderick as shown in the one panel with tobias and gregory where edburt-tobias goes “WHERE. IS. MY. BOY.” and tobias isnt even vulnerable at that point, so its not like his possession was bound to happen. hes just asking about the history of the family so he can figure out whats happening to him. typically when mr edburt takes over him tobias is in some kind of negative state (ex: sleep deprived like in the very beginning, or stressed out like during the play) but mr edburt just forces his way up into his brain (sudden irritation and jumping to control) once he cant take any more waiting. this is something that iirc we have NEVER seen him do before, so obviously there has to be some kind of REALLY strong incentive to take charge like that so violently. this and other instances clearly confirms he still really cares about broderick as his son. which this isnt to say there arent loving parents who are normal about their kids but also pedophiles because those i guess could exist? but i would guess with this and also the fact edburts worst behaviors have gradually been reduced since earlier chapters now that mcp has grown as a writer i would definitely understand that maybe thats not the kind of character theyre trying to write. again i could always be wrong but thats my idea
all in all we all know the demonic entities in ghost eyes get a lot of enjoyment out of the pain and suffering of mortals and "playing with their food" if you will. but i dont think its particularly fucking with children that really enraptures them. especially when children are basically just pathetic little pawns or like baby animals to beings like edburt and kiraba. why would lusting over those little worms be more enticing than enjoying their suffering In General.
thus concludes my essay on an alternative view of looking at this gross bastard. i still hate him. beats him over the head with a brick repeatedly. feel free to add any thoughts you may have as long as youre not defending him or saying hes “just a little silly” for all the shit he does and its not weird because i dont want that shit on my post thanks please make ur own and keep it away from me /lh
penny no wait inflation, *checking notes*
three dollars for your thoughts?
Any new ghost eyes things on your mind?
jesus three dollars??
anyway not particularly. i havwnt been hyperfixated on it at all lately but ghost eyes still has and always will have a very special place in my heart
also remember The Edburt Thing from a previous post? got an ask about that a while back and almost finished typing a reply but then i forgot. but thatll be coming soon to a notebook page near you :-) hopefully. i have an anatomy & physiology exam this week so i gotta lock in lolololol
okay okay, putting this as anon even tho I will probably immediately like any reply so I don’t get beat with rocks (which I suspect won’t happen but who knows)
is there any part of ghost eyes you dislike or think could’ve been done better? Because idk about you but I think it does have quite a few issues especially in the really old panels, don’t get me wrong it’s great and I love it to bits and have great respect for MCP I just feel like every piece of media it has questionable areas.
just curious, twirling hair strand. I haven’t really seen a lot of fans discuss any negative parts of ghost eyes yet and I’m wondering if my opinion aligns with other fans
ohhh my god do you want a list /silly /pos
all of this will be prefaced with i LOVE this story and this is not to bash mcp in any way. like iirc they started writing this when they were like 18 and it was a way different time on the internet back then and that context is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT when discussing its (admittedly many, especially early on) flaws. no one is perfect and with the shit theyve dealt with criticism is not very easily taken when it was previously used so violently.
NOW. here is a comprehensive list of everything i hate about this story /sillyj
augerbently eckerviel edburt. oh my god this fucking guy. unfortunately i must admit i am one of the worlds biggest august edward/mr edburt enjoyers (you heard me. including mr edburt) i do really think hes a fascinating character but loooooord he is NOT easy to stomach in earlier chapters especially parts 1-2 or so. i think looking at his character from a specific angle and observing how he acts can be rather intriguing in some instances but mainly in the beginning especially i think. there is a certain extent where (for lack of a better word, though this isnt ENTIRELY how i see it but this is a discussion for another time) his “perversions” can hold that value/intrigue at a cost that isnt too heavy. but it definitely gets pushed waaayy too senselessly far early on in the story. insensitively and just unseriously so. also ive heard rumors he was based on like a real predator? but please please PLEASEEE do not use this to harass anybody or anything like that because i have NOOOTTT FACT CHECKED THIS. but again the author was a teenager/young adult in the late 2010s writing this character. im not at all saying that makes edburts writing from the start tolerable, palatable, or “totally fine”, but i think its a point that a lot of the fandom doesnt think much about when they jump to criticize papa as a reflection of or because of their older work. ignorance is just that; ignorance. total oblivion. and people need a chance to grow up and learn before becoming solid people yknow
the lack of diversity kind of sucks and we all know about that one joke at pati’s expense at the very beginning. once again though mcp was much younger at that time and MCP IS MIXED/BLACK, I AM NOT. so i cant say whether or not anything is racist or objectively shitty or whatnot and if youre in my situation i recommend you follow suit. that being said its just kind of a shame that all the main cast were designed to be very pale/european/american/etc but thats just what happened. i have a story that mostly includes pale/white main cast too just because i designed most of them in middle school and ive grown up around 97% wealthy white people /srs. this isnt really a complaint about the story per se just like a preference i suppose
all of the early ship/yaoi stuff…… mcp has obviously veered away from that and encouraged people to give it a rest but the influence of shipping culture especially in parts 1-2 and maybe early 3 is VERY apparent. its not like the main four are establishing a polycule and kissing every 3 pages or anything but especially with carmelos initial crush on rudy (the panels where he stops hitting him because hes being gay) and emilio being affectionate to rudy when he corners him in the hallway with the knife. its definitely There. in some cases (like the latter but im kinda biased ahhahahahaha.) it can add to their characterization and its really not that intense. only if you squint. but im falling asleep and needed things for the list
personally i think chris and mr adderstongs relationship being suggestive/sexual was kind of unnecessary but again not an objective failimg just a personal preferenxe. they make me homophobic /JOKE
tobimilio. lorddd do i have thoughts on tobimilio. when i look at this dynamic (as a romantic pairing not just their dynamic in general THIS IS IMPORTANT) its crucial to note the original context of cards and how tobias and emilio were ALREADY established to be romantically involved AS ADULTS in the original universe. so thats why i dont instantly hate tobimilio fans or anything. that said im not a fan of the age gap in ghost eyes regardless and im sure there was/is(?) some way to portray a reflection of the original dynamic differently without the romance (and in a way weve kind of seen that in recent chapters???tobias doesnt seem very interested in emilio romantically which i really like lol) because even though tobias is a very intelligent boy and academically on the level of a senior in terms of his social skills and general wisdom about basically how the entire world works (which is especially important for things like relationships!!!!!!!!) he is like 10 years old /j so he should not be being treated like an adult/senior in EVERY way. like he should not be infantilized by any means but his ass is not mature enough to make well informed and emotionally mature decisions. unfortunately mr murkmere over here cant look past his obsession with this little freak among other things. hits him over the head with an anvil (affectionate)(I HATE HIM I HOPE HE DIES)
im sure theres probably more but ive been typing this for ages and im tired. thank u for your ask anon ilysm