あmetsuki

I like learning new things (especially languages). Love crocheting and the colour grey. In my gap year, wasting time -Yay-

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I write because it makes me feel like someone’s listening- or am i finally listening to myself

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For a very long time, the days went by each one just like the day before, then I began to think and everything changed. Before, nothing happened, the repetition of identical gestures, and time seemed to stand still, even if I was vaguely aware that I was growing and that time was passing

I Who Have Never Known Men- Jacqueline Harpman

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Words u notice consciously, Music is subtler.

- John Berger {Ways of Seeing Episode 1}

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I’ve found that growing up means being honest. About what I want. What I need. What I feel. Who I am.

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Sometimes happiness looks like staying home minding your business, telling people NO and doing you

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Not everyone will understand your journey. That’s okay. You’re here to live your life, not to make everyone understand.

-Banksy

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Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different.

C.S. Lewis

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Maybe when I get to where I am going and look back I will know what the trip was all about.

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That was the year she forgot about time and remembered what it was to fill her days with everything she loved best.

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We focus on not our resposibility to ourselves but on responsibility to others. We tend to think such behaviour makes us good people. It doesn’t. It makes us frustrated people.

-Julia Cameron, Artist's Way

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You are Growing.

-My friend when i told her that i cannot lie to myself when writing affirmations.

She told me that is exactly what affirmations are but still gave me a solution. A solution which my dumb brain did not realise. It was so easy too.

She told me to write -I am trying to- instead of - I am-

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Artist's Way- *insert a dreadful* yay-

I actually started my 1st week on tuesday. And i am super excited yet also dreadful. I remember my sister once telling me while i was singing at home, that i am not letting go and that i need to be more open. Let my feelings flow through and be vulnerable and it hurt me so much then but it was the ...IS the truth. I still can't do it. Not in my drawings nor in my songs. This is my first major step towards getting to know myself better and loving myself.

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"Within infinite myths lies an eternal truth. Who knows it all? Varuna has but a thousand eyes, Indra a hundred, You and I, only two."

Devdutt Pattanaik in Devlok

It breaks my heart to accept that there are some truths forever lost. It is believed that the knowledge at Nalanda University took three months to burn. Then i found out that the Alexandria library was also burnt down, though accidentally. SO many architectural wonders were destroyed by invaders.

It is also so hard to accept that there are so many things I'll never know. So many languages that I will never be able to learn. So many books that I'll never be able to read. SO many places that I will never be able to visit.

I don't know why but these words, for some reason calmed me down. Made me feel like its fine if i don't know things, if i don't know the "truth" of things. If i remain a bit ignorant.

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"In order for connection to happen, we have to allow ourselves to be seen- really seen."- Brene Brown

I started reading Show Your Work! by Austin Kleon. And well i decided if ihave to start then why not today, why not now. Its like this idiom that we have from this famous poet called kabir- "Kal kare so aaj kar aaj kare so ab , pal toh beete jayega bahuri karega kab"

it basically talks about procrastination. Literal translation being- If you are planning to do it tomorrow, do it today, if you are planning on doing it today. then do it now. The time will keep on passing, then when will you do it? I want to be an artist. Well though a lot of books and people say instead of saying you want to be an artist, say u are an artist, but that is a bit difficult for me now. Maybe if i actually put in enough effort then one day i will say that. But for now, i am trying to be one and i think this quote is important for someone like me. I should show myself to the world. Share my thoughts. Share my knowledge (whatever these small years of being on Earth have taught me) Maybe the net can be the friend which will never go away no matter which city i move onto next. Well if u like stayed through my whole ramble. Then share your thoughts or experience or however this quote relates to u.

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"In order for connection to happen, we have to allow ourselves to be seen- really seen"-Brene Brown

I am reading Show Your Work! by Austin Kleon

I will have to begin someday. SO why not Today. From today i will try and do things. I will try to.....no, i WILL show up for my future self